Took me long enough. · 9:23pm Jun 14th, 2012

As the title says, it took me long enough. I finally got around to putting up the one story I wrote. This is not pony related, so this is the only place it'll be. If mods are reading this, please don't ban me to the moon. I wrote this at around one in the morning and finished at threeish. I apologize for any mistakes or typos. Let me know what you think.

It's Nice to Dream
By me

It started slowly.

I had been friends with Mouse for awhile when I started to slowly fall in love with her. In the the beginning they were odd feelings that I didn't know. But day by day they kept getting stronger and stronger, until I realized it. That I was in love with her. Deeply maddly in love with her.

She had the most beautiful dark brown hair with a silver sheen. Sky blue eyes that I could get lost in forever, and I wouldn't care. She was gorgeouse. She was smart, funny, out-going, and cheerful.

She has a notebook that she writes in everyday, but won't let me see. I like to hope that she's writing about how she secretly loves me, or something to that effect. As if that could ever happen, but it's nice to dream.

I had dreamt of finding love of anykind because I'm just so lonely. I dreamt of having someone who would listen to all my problems and be there for me. Someone who would get me and understand me. Some one who would see past my many, many flaws and still love me. Someone like Mouse. I hoped.

Considering all the romance anime, mangas, and books I read, I'm suprised that I didn't realize sooner. But I guess love isn't something you see coming.

When I realized I loved Mouse, I tried to keep things the same. After all, she was one of the few friends I had and I didn't want to lose that. Sure I sent a few hints here and there. Was extra nice to her, gave her small gifts like peices of candy, and always grabbed her stuff for her when she got up.

One time I even asked her out to the movies. It was her birthday and I had spent the past few weeks getting up the courage to ask her out. It was the perfect plan. She would think that I was treating her to a movie for her birthday and I would get to be with her. Maybe I would get the courage to tell her I like her. And maybe, just maybe she would say the same to me. It's nice to dream so.

But she said she had plans and she didn't really like movies. Okay, then maybe I could think of something else to ask her out to.

Two days later she hurt me.

It was morning and me, Mouse, Virginia, and Katelin were eating breakfast together at school. I was eating a cereal bar when Mouse said that she told the guy she apparently had a crush on she liked him. Right in front of me. Just two days after I had asked her out. Virginia and Katelin said they would make a cute couple. I told her congratulations.

But in my mind there was anger, sadness, disapointment, and hurt. I was angry because I had asked her out two days ago, and here she sits saying to Virginia and Katelin she liked someone else. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! Did she stop to consider how I would feel. NO! She didn't. I was sad because she didn't even care how I felt. That I was nothing to her. I was disapointed because it meant all those weeks of gathering courage were for naught. My heart and soul hurt.

We were still friends, but it hurt to do so. To keep Mouse from noticing, I had to wear a mask. One where she couldn't she how much I hurt. But it was okay, after all I've worn a mask most my life. I've been bullied my whole life, so had to wear one. So people couldn't hurt me as much and they wouldn't see how much they hurt me. My maskes were my sheildes.

Mouse started to ask me what was wrong, that looked sad. I told her I was fine. I don't think she fully beleived me.

Two weeks later she announced that she and him were over. My mask cracked. I was so happy. I know it was wrong to be happy that he broke up with her, but I didn't care. I also couldn't beleive that anybody would break up with her. His reason was family trouble.

Not long after that joyous day Mouses friend said that we would make a cute couple. She said no and turned around to me and said no offense. I said none taken but I was hurt. She didn't even stop to consider that if I did love her and she said that, how I would feel. But It's okay. Maybe when I ask her out or tell her I love her, that she'll love me. God I hope so, I really do

Now I wait to gather up my courage again to ask her out. To tell her I love her. I wait and dream that she'll love me, that she'll say she has for awhile. It's nice to dream, but eventully I'll tell her and hope my dreams come true.

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