Update · 11:23pm Sep 7th, 2014
I'm finally settled in, and I'm starting to feel a bit better about myself. This means I'll be able to write more, and hopefully continue to improve. However, my focus is shifting away from "It Never Really Ends".
My main goal right now is taking care of my body. At my heaviest, I was nearing 400 lbs. I've been morbidly obese for most of my life, and I hit a new low in the last few months. You see, two years ago I started a weight-lifting class, and I loved it. I lifted every day, and even at 360 lbs, I never skipped a day. The depression I've been fighting most of my life seemed to disappear, and I watched in amazement as one-hundred pounds of fat dropped off me in less than a year. I felt amazing!
Then I graduated.
Then I got a job at Walmart.
Working third-shift was terrible for my health. My sleeping-patterns were thrown off, and in a matter of weeks my energy plummetted. I slept all day, ate whatever I could (usually fast food) because I had neither the time nor energy to cook. And I had the exact opposite schedule to my family, so it was extremely rare for me to get to enjoy a meal with them. My depression and weight returned with a vengeance.
And here I am now. I'm getting back in the gym, reigniting old fires and trying to remind myself what it feels like to be alive. In the three weeks since I've moved out of my old house, I've lost ten pounds and doubled my one-rep maxes on all my favorite exercises. I'm eating better, I feel better, I'm more confident, and for the first time in two years I feel like a man.
In short... I'M BACK BITCHES!!!
Hooray! Good for you, man!
Not sure if I'm a freak of gluttony, but I'm 112 pounds and eat constantly, if I can. But I don't eat Breakfast, or lunch. I generally eat "brunch", and snack lightly until dinner. then I have a bowl of cereal or something at some point before bed. I don't know why I'm telling you this, but I figure I might as well, because differing variables and all that jazz.
Congrats man! Keep at it!
2436101 I generally eat 6-7 small meals a day. Bigger in the morning, tapering off as the day progresses. Something with bread, rice, or potatoes for carbs, then half an hour of high-intensity weight training, something high in protein (like baked/grilled chicken), a half-hour walk, a small vegetable-based lunch, and whatever the Hell I wanna do for the rest of the day, a couple snacks throughout the day until I go to sleep.
I'm never hungry. And I'm still losing weight. Fuck yeah.
I was a third-shift manager at Wal-Mart for a while. It was literally killing me. I left. Congrats.
And it's damn fine to see you again, Vlad!
2436118 Cool. I'm ALWAYS hungry, but I CAN'T gain weight, no matter how hard I try. My goal for the end of this "year*" is 120 lbs. If I can stick about there, I'll no longer look emaciated/starving.
* Year: before I turn 22.
2436131 Try a bulking diet and weight-training. Protein AND carbs (so many people forget about the carbs...) You probably have a very high metabolism. That will help keep the fat off if you go for putting on muscle. You could probably eat just about anything, chicken, turkey, beef, pork, baked/mashed potatoes, or whatever the Hell you want and still get big. Just eat a LOT of it, and make sure to put it to use by doing whatever training you can. High reps with moderate weight builds muscle, so you might want to focus on that.
That's what works for me, at least. 100 bicep curls/tricep pushdowns a day and my arms are getting JACKED.
I used to be in the same boat man. At my heaviest I was 375 pounds. Two years later I am now 195 and I'm heading to the army. Infantry, Airborne with Option 40.
Two things that will help most with weight loss is simply exercise and proper diet.
Ah, I'm sorry to hear that.
But HEY! You're positive still!
Truck through it bro! You got this! ~brohoof~
Excellent!
Hang in there amigo it'll workout as long as you keep fighting for your goal.
2436354 Thank you, I've spent a lot of time thinking I wasn't. Encouragement always helps.
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really? you think you're not?
there are two reasons why I'm always hoping to see your story update.
1) it's a fantastic story
2) to see your comments because they almost always make me laugh (or at least giggle like an idiot)
and keep up your motivation, you wont get far without it
I'm glad you're feeling better. As much as I would love to see "It Never Really Ends" finished your health is a bigger priority, just do what you feel like doing.
Yeah, show that fat who's boss!
I have an extremely high metabolism, and am ALWAYS hungry. It's gotten to the point where it doesn't really bother me anymore. I get hunger pangs all the time, but after like four hours I stop hurting. I've tried to gain weight before, but after two months of nothing, I stopped. I am pretty lazy, and can't really be bothered to put time into something trivial like that. So I don't know your pain, but whatever man. Just keep doing what you want. That's all that matters. I mean if you like working out, (though I don't know how ANYONE could like that) then by all means keep doing it man. I don't even know where I'm going with this, I'm just kinda bored... but I do have a question what was so bad about you're job at Wal-Mart?
2436574 I enjoy training because it's a challenge. It's like playing a video game. You try again and again, getting better so you can get to the next level. Except the next level is a smaller pants-size. The next level is lifting more than you ever have in your life. The next level is getting kicked out of Planet Fitness because your massive pecs and bulging arms intimidate the filthy casuals on the stationary-bikes.
I'm not sure what to say.
2436595 you actually just made me want to try working out again... wow man, didn't think that would ever happen. Lol ...but I see what you mean :)
is good for you that you have found a way to get out of your depression and while improving your health at the same time kudos on that, lets hope we can still see you around here to stir some hate from the idiots while keeping on delivering more from your works
But I love your story! Please please get back into it
Awesomesauce, dude, rock on. I have to lose weight too, I'm nearing 300lbs, but morning-to-night shifts of almost nonstop shit screwed my habits over.
I'm gonna take you as an example and jump on my bike to do my commutes.
To quote your story (that's quoting a song): "Ah ah ah ah stayin' alive! Stayin' alive!"
Hey man, just want to say that people like you... man... your a freaking inspiration! Just to be in that place were life gets you down and nothing really goes your way. You jut grab life by the cojones(balls) and scream in it's face "I'M GONNA OWN THIS SHIT!" And you just get to it. I truly envy that drive you have to better yourself and it makes me want to be a bit like you.
Just keep doing what your doing, and if life tries to get you down... well, be happy just to spite it. Nothings better than being alive and being yourself, because you are freaking amazing!
2436626 Yeah, it's all about how you look at it. If you think "oh great, I have to exercise again" you'll fail every time. I just tell myself "I don't want to fucking die."
I want to lift as much as I want to breathe, because it's just as important. It's ALL about how much you want it. If you just want to make that change a little bit, but you want to watch tv first, you're gonna watch tv. If you want to get big more than you want to lift, you're gonna wish you were big without ever setting foot in a gym. You have to KNOW what you want. Don't let that lead up your ass own you. Get fucking ANGRY!
"I'm a human being, goddammit! I want to live! My life has value!"
2437419 Thank you. I've been fighting most of my life, so I guess I'm used to it. Right now I'm just...
Stayin' alive!
2436949 What are you whining about?
welp, so long as you're happy then carry on bro
THE ALMIGHTY VLAD HAS RETURNED!!! ALL HAIL VLAD!!!
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Well, that's great to hear man! It's wonderful to hear about somebody getting their life on track, especially when it comes to combatting mental...
Wait a second, so you're gonna be leaving us on that cliffhanger!? RAAAAAAGGGGEEE! EVERYPONY DIES NOW!
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2438327 Well that's not very nice...
2438600 I'm not a very nice person :P
2437519
Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah!