My lack of inactivity and promises to carry on with writing

I like you guys, I really do - it's puts a smile on my face every time I see a positive review on work I've done and you guys are good at those, but I've been so inactive over the last year I'm starting to feel bad about it.

I keep saying that I'm working on fics, like my secret project and I Awoke One Morning... when the truth is, I'm not. Every once in a while I check this site, read up on any new chapters on stories I follow and take a look at my own ones before losing interest and spend my time on other sites or just playing video games. I initially started writing as a way of keeping myself entertained, but found other sources of amusement and slowly started pushing writing to the side. On the rare occasion that I decide I do want to write something, I re-read what I've already wrote, realise it's complete crap and then spend the rest of my time reading through the rest of it and making notes on what needs improving without actually writing anything new.

I've been doing this a lot with IAOM... lately seeing as I think it's in dire need of a complete rewrite - from the whole plot to the main character and everything in-between. It's boring, bland and most of the pre-existing characters are written poorly. I've also left in a whole bunch of loose ends in the main fic from where I thought "hey! this'd make a great plot point!" before abandoning it there and carrying on with the initial story (E.g: the part with the door handle was going to be hugely expanded on later on in the fic, before I thought of it a silly thing to point out). I wanna cut out the crap and give you guys something worthy of being read.

Also, losing one of my pre-readers and having the other one get too rusty from lack of material to pre-read doesn't help much either. If anyone does decide to read this post and is interested in becoming someone I can bounce ideas off of and checking what I write actually makes sense, feel free to PM me and I'll catch you up on everything so far.