Guilty, Clingy and Torn Apart (and also updates) · 7:37pm May 16th, 2014
Despite the rather depressing title and all this crap I've been going through, I managed to update Separate Ways. I'm proud of myself for sticking with it, as I have the horrible habit of writing the first chapter of something and then never returning. One day, I promise you, i will go through and update every single one that hasn't been discontinued. If you missed it, do me a favor and check Separate Ways out, it can be found here. I really appreciate it!
You can expect more chapters on a weekly or biweekly basis, depending on how much homework floods in. it's the final countdown school-wise, so I'm getting a bit run down. Please forgive me if the already rare "update" is even more subdued.
A lot of things have been changing for me. It's hard, but I'm clawing my way through with relative happiness. I feel depressed right now, but it will pass shortly. It's not often I feel dreadfully sad, but it's usually a fleeting sensation.
Family drama is ample and torturous here, since most of my family hates each other. Grandmother has turned against daughter (my mother). Aunt has turned against grandmother. Grandfather has turned against mother and aunt. I haven't seen my cousins in just under a year, and they're like sisters to me. I have a cousin -- a baby boy -- who I've never had the privilege to meet because of this fiasco. I could go see them, but I'm scared they won't remember who I am.
My family is constantly bickering if they do chat and consequentially, they don't talk for months on end. They get all tense when I mention that I saw them because they feel like I'm some kind of currency they shouldn't have to share with their enemy. I decided to move out from my grandparent's and finally let my parents become my parents, but that of course hurt some feelings.
Things won't get any better. There's alcohol involved though that problem seems to have vanished (thankfully). I also feel guilty for a few reasons I'd rather not share. Relationships are falling apart. Friends are ignoring me. Friends are moving. School is terribly stressful. Everyone's fighting for me. Other than being alive, having the privilege of food, water, etc... things really don't seem that 'blessed' right now.
Anyways, my apologies for the rant.
2117709 Thanks, Honeyroo.
jesus gabs im sorry. ive said before and will again,youve helped me out alot and your full of awesome. if you need anything i can help with let me know.
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What would I do without you?
2117737 Thanks, you guys!
man... Hope things eventually turn out for the better
2118460 Thanks, I guess they will eventually. this has just dragged out for over a year. Get it over with already! Just call each other and apologize!
Ah, my family.
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nothing like a dysfunctional family to get you in a bad mood, eh?
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Yup.
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you have any friends you can go stay with to get away form it for a bit?
Well, that's sounds really depressing. But remember, that I'm mentally with you. I'm feel bad cause I can't help you, but if I can - just ask. I'll try
2119715 My best friend's mom is a crazy dragon lady. And I'm pretty sure they'd have cops looking for me.
2121910 Aww, thanks.
2117709 Wow.........
2117724 Im on the brink of crying, so much love
2117726 I told you boy's will stand up for there friend's and loved one's
Im crying
Have not felt any good emotion's since.......... the incident
2143997 Don't look after her all the time, sometime's girls can take care of themselves
My girlfriend Was awesome, she knew all the move's, if it's a murderer or someone else with a gun then help her, i took a bullet to the leg for my girlfriend
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2144001 Woah. Intense.
2144006 What is going on??
2144016 Are you guys arguing about protecting me?
2144010 An awesome boyfriend called cyclone flashie and a sensitive boy having a chat about.... safety
2144006 Keep bein that awesome person u are!
2144021 Alrighty then.
2144022 Weird. Do you guys even know each other? No, as I recall?
2144031 Okaaaay then.
2144035 No, it's not you...
2144022 DID NOT
2144035 No comment
2144037 ... you alright there?
2144031 again, DID NOT
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2144046 AAAAAH what is going on
2144045 I have a short fuse, im fine
2144044 It's ok :)
2144048 Bro, no you're not. What makes you say that?
2144048 I have done more bad then you.
You have done nothing wrong.
I feel like this is my whole school calling me a freak again.
It was only blood loss.
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2144061 Guys, we're all over-reacting here. Seriously, everyone is fine.
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wat
2144070 True
2144072 Talk to me on skype, okay?
2144075 what?
2144068 Told you.
2144086 I am so confused. What are you talking about?
2144095 Couple month's ago the whole school thought i was a freak cuz of the blood loss, i was ignored and thought of as everything bad
I feel like i did then
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2144105 Well, that's terrible! I'm sorry to hear that. Why do you feel like that now?
2144108 Here are the comments which make me think this
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2144118 Oh okay. Well don't be sad!
I don't know why but him calling himself bad tear's me up
All cuz of me
Don't reply to me k
Mum's killin me cuz of all the email's she is getting
I would ask for your skype but thats between you and cyclone
I will be back in an hr atleast
2144145 Okay