Next Chapter Delayed By Crushing Depression · 5:01am May 24th, 2012
Okay, so it's not really "crushing," and it's not really depression, either, but, long story short, I stumbled upon very depressing moment in a TV show I am currently watching and have kinda just been sitting there, eyes watering for what I swear are completely unrelated reasons, and texting my friends who have seen a lot more of said show than I have and asking them what the hell they want me to ship now. This mood is not really conducive to writing, which is why I have barely touched Both of the Four of Us since, like, Sunday.
It's times like this in which I am glad that MLP is, in fact, a children's cartoon and does not involve character death, departure, or anything else that shall ever affect the status quo. None of this "IT'S YOUR LAST EPISODE AS A PROTAGONIST DAMNIT NOW SHUT UP AND KISS HIM" crap. When I was, like, twelve, I remember watching Charmed. I think I was catatonic for weeks after Prue died. So, y'know, just a few days of depression is really an improvement for me.
Anywho, I should be back at it soon. In case you haven't noticed, I'm the sort of person that both a) ships like nobody's business and b) cries very easily at fictional events, but after nearly eighteen years of that I've finally figured out how to bounce back from the ensuing depression without sheepishly having to explain to concerned strangers that I was just crying because I didn't like so-and-so's ending and why the hell did such-and-such have to die, anyways. I never found My Little Dashie very sad, but from what I've heard, other people did and were left sobbing at their computers.
So, y'know, if you did... remember how incapable of being creative you were when that happened and please find it in your heart to forgive me, because I'm pretty angry at myself for being so moody and immature right now and will gladly release the newest chapter when I refine it to my liking. So, y'know... thanks, and sorry about that.
Oh, and have this gif.
Aww Chrysalis, you always know how to make me feel better!
EDIT: I just noticed that someone unfollowed me, which means I get to post another incredibly immature "LOL 69" blog post once I get another follower. That also helped me feel better. Seriously, whoever unfollowed me and probably unintentionally brightened my day, thank you. Really.
Hope you feel better, it's quite an interesting story, but understandable that you can't write when you feel like crap. :)
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Thanks for understanding!
I just get so frustrated with myself sometimes. I know I get overemotional about things, and I know that live-action shows are bound to include a heavy amount of change due to actor issues (I still hate Shannon Doherty because of what she did to me when I was twelve. I blame her entirely. The other actresses and the crew were sick of putting up with her, so she left the show and her poor character died really unceremoniously because of it. The bitch.), and yet I STILL KEEP WATCHING NEW ONES. You would think I would learn my lesson, but nooo...
I understand how that can be. I haven't touched a story I'm doing for myself and a friend with our OCs for almost a good week or two now. It sucks. It's like oh you want to write but the drive isn't there. I hope you feel better soon. I'm looking forward to reading more.
Ain't nuthin' wrong with gettin' emotional, that's just complimentin' the writer on how well they delivered it.