Update on My Life · 7:49am Feb 12th, 2014
So
Update on my life
I've been busy, because we went back to school yesterday and today. There's not supposed to be ANY more snow until next winter, so I'm only gonna be on around this time now. I've also become a bit obsessed with Cards Against Equinity, an online version of Cards Against Humanity, only in this one you can add a bunch of fandom genres like Homestuck, MLP, Doctor Who, Anime, etc, but you also have your original game. And it's online.
I've tried to work on pictures, but I've upped the quality (not a bad thing) and they take longer now. I've completely changed my drawing style, and it's taking some getting used to. I also started watching Hetalia tonight, which happened to get in the way a bit. I'm also a lazy butt.
There's... I started doing something today... Something I'm not proud of.
I started scratching little lines, about a centimeter long, six of them actually, into the back of my wrist with a pencil.
I'm
It's nice. I like it. I like looking down and seeing the marks on my skin. I've always liked running til it hurt, and then keeping on running, like in track practice. It just sort of... transferred, I guess you could say, into the pencil, fueled by boredom and curiosity, only to find out that the pain in my wrist feels good.
Does that make me a masochist? I feel like a very messed up individual, except I never had a chance to be. I've been protected all my life, and then I suddenly have this freedom to scratch my arm... And I love it.
Is that wrong?
it isn't exactly wrong, but it isn't good either. It starts with doing something innocent like that, and then you will start doing it more and using different thinks and making the scratches bigger, and then you will kill yourself with how big you made it and you wont realize because of how you started this is how it ended.
Well, it sounds sort of dangerous. Honestly I think you should probably find some other outlet, preferably one that doesn't involve hurting yourself...
You may not think so right now. But soon those scratches will become longer and in...different places. Please stop and find another way of calming yourself, ways that don't put you in danger. Drawing is good, or whatever else you like. Just please don't hurt yourself...honestly...
You're starting to scare me. I don't want to see you get hurt.
Ill be honest coming from the guy who used to do it.
I have scars and I mean like the others say you dont think much of it. I started with a knife though. Used to carve things into my arm but they were just scratches. I mean if you want something permanent and artful tatoos seemed to help me but my parents were never happy with that.
So I guess what I m saying is either find something other than these drawings to the wrist or do what you are doing right now. Blog, blog to your hearts content and if you seem happy with what you feel like expressing then. Us, the people around you. The people that read these stories these blogs will listen.
Like I said awhile back and I m not sure if others have but we are always up for a talk. :)
Be careful young one.
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Yew guys
Yew guuuyyyyyyyyyyysss
Thank you
I know that this could scare you, bot I don't even draw blood... When the graphite comes off, there's only like, tiny red welts. And it is on the BACK of my wrist, after all. I'm not stupid, I don't do many dangerous things.
But thank you.
Yew guuuuyyyyyyyyyyyssss
Are amazing
Anyone for hugs?
Hugs all round :D
1829294 Hugs all round. **hugs**
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Even so, you might decide to do something more dangerous with that and switch to the other side and make yourself bleed, you did say you like pushing yourself.
1828428 ohhh...hnnnngh...well I still want you to be careful...
Oh good lord... Cards against Humanity(Equinity whatever same thing there's an expansion for that on humanity.) That shit... IS FUNNY AS HELL!
You should see the situation where I live... Trying to write shit with this going on less then a mile away...
Oh and be careful with that... Scratching thing. I understand. I bite my lip to the same effect. Weird right? Just dont let it get serious.
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