Lonely · 6:35am Jan 17th, 2014
I've always had friends, and a supportive family. We aren't rich, but we're not poor, either.
Based on the stories of the people I follow and subscribe to, I'm a very. very luck person. I truly am.
But I just... get so lonely. I swear, I am the human Pinkie Pie. At school, when I'm with my weird friends discussing fandoms and making perverted jokes, I do fine. I talk a lot, I bounce around (oh yes, I bounce), and I'm happy. I'm always busy, I can never just... think.
That is, until I go to bed. I'm a slight insomniac, I think. I can't go to sleep easily, not really. So, when I think, I begin to question who I am. Who am I, really? A weird happy girl who does a lot of stuff and gets good grades. That is what I am. I'm alone. My two good friends, they aren't the same. Their parents are more... lenient, shall I say.
I go home, and I go to bed, and I cry as the monster inside my heart eats away at me. And it hurts.
So I wrote a one-shotter about it. I just... Aku's latest blog post inspired me to write something sad, so I wrote something sad. It will be approved soon.
Whenever I had time to think on my own, I think the same thing, but I know me being around who I love makes them happy, and doing something to myself will make them sad. I have no friends, but I am a happy person when I think about other stuff, and I have a loving family who wants the best for me.
1727346 I can be your friend... We can be lonely together!
1727428
I mostly have no friends irl by choice, mostly because people didn't like me when I was younger anyway, so I never went out of my way to be friends with people.
I thought we were friends!
Don't worry, you're not alone.
I'd be honored to call myself your friend.
I...you sound exactly like me. This made me remember...when me and my friend were talking about Hetalia(don't worry if you don't get the joke it's not the point) where I made a "Italy invaded the lower regions of Germany" joke and she laughed. And I laughed. I was so happy then. I am so happy now. But ever since something bad happened to me in sixth grade...I got on with my life, yes but sometimes I wonder if I'm missing something important. It haunts me more and more until I feel like I need help. But I mask that feeling with a laugh and I catch any of my other friends who are falling. We all have Pinkamena trapped in our souls, screaming to be released. But we need to swallow it down and smile and laugh. For that's all a human can do to ward of the demon's that feed upon their heartbreak. You are not alone. And you never will be. With six billion people who share our planet at least one of them share your pain. So smile and move on. Be magnificent.
1727436 So did I, I just wasn't sure... Maybe that's my problem...
1727606 And I am honored to call myself yours.
1728303
I thank you for this, friend. This is exactly what happened to me. I've always been the odd one out, with no real friends, yet everyone seems to know my name... It kind of scares me. I am glad to have the three of you (and many more online peoples) as my friends! *hugs*
1729762
Please don't think about this anymore. We would miss you if anything happened to you and you must remember people love you, even if they don't show it. *Hugs*
1729771 Thank you guys. The brony community is truly perfect and supportive. I can never talk to anyone, I'm too socially challenged/awkward. Being able to type it out... I can let it all go. I won't ever try to hurt myself (seriously, meaning no cutting, although... sometimes I draw on myself with mechanical pencils), and I won't ever take my own life. That will never be an option.
1729762 just stay fantastic, my friend...stay fantastic...always.
1729933 Geronimo!
1729939 Allons-y!