Back on time!

Or at least, this is. Everything else seems to be unravelling around me, so I might just have to keep this one nice and short.

Originally, (I can't remember if I told you guys) That I'd given myself a deadline of Christmas to update A fire in his Heart. Now, while this isn't technically an impossible goal, and I'm still aiming for it with all the motivation I can muster, don't be too surprised if I'm a few days late. Sadly, there's not much I can do.

thing is, as I brought up a little while back, I'm not really a brony anymore. While, yes, I do still follow a ton of blogs on tumblr, and I'm still posting here every week, and I'm still working on stories, I'm not keeping up with the community anymore, and every single day, it gets harder to keep on like this. Truth be told, I'm losing motivation for Fire in his Heart and I know it. This sucks for everyone, mostly you, but for me it really hurts. I'm gonna do everything I can to get this thing out, but things are gonna get slow as I can afford less and less of my processing power to it. I know a couple of you might try to tell me that it isn't worth writing it when I've lost my love for it, and usually, you'd be right. But I do still enjoy it to an extent, and to tell the truth, it's as much about giving you guys the next glimpse into the world I've made in my head. Really, that's the best gift I can give, especially over the internet.
Also, something that really doesn't help, is that I've got mock examinations coming up in January, to replace all the ones that have been moved to the summer. While these are technically inconsequential, every moment that I spend revising now is important, because it means that it will plant as many seeds of knowledge as possible in my head which will prepare me for revision in the summer.
Still, it's been a good enough week for me. I wish I had more to say, but frankly, none of it is anything of any real interest to you lot. What I will say briefly is that, despite my hasty insults to the people that wrote and created Puella Magi Madoka Magica before, I actually have to concede that they are insanely crafty. In giving viewers a horrible, jarring ending which resolved nothing and left a bloodstained mess where my heart used to be, they have introduced a horrible addiction into my system in which I simply have to see the characters getting the happy ending that they were denied by the canon. Because I know that no picture or fancomic that I see is actually canon, though, it keeps me coming back time and again, and keeps Madoka Magica at the forefront of my mind.
sneaky bastards.

Anyway, next time I speak to you guys, Christmas will be behind us! So, you know, stay warm and cosy this winter, and enjoy Christmas is that's your thing!
See you!

Comments

[Wireframe]

Eventhough it was somehow to be expected with your lack of interest in season 4 and the slowly declining mentions of your unquiet equestria project you seemed so excited about before, I'll still find it regretable you're no longer a Brony.

I would be one to say it might not be worht continuing the story if you didn't enjoy it, but I have to admit I'm quite excited that you do intend to finish one of my favorite stories on this site. It may take a bit longer, with priorities such as the grades to uni and other interest going first, but the wait to date has always been worth, and I don't see that changing anytime soon.

Bittersweet endings are unfortunately quite popular in Japan for some reason. I don't like them at all personaly as, when there has to be an ending, I prefer some closure in a more positive accomplished sense, not ending up feeling empty torn over the characters you've grown to love. As frustrating as they might be, it's that unresolved nature or the dissatisfaction over the ending that keeps them memorable for some reason. Even now, maybe close to a decade after completing this game called Drakengard I still don't like any of the potential endings to it, which are all rather bad, or increasingly worse for the main characters. I'm not sure I'd really want to watch additional anime to get me feeling in such a way, or maybe even worse as you've described.

For now it's late, so I'll leave my responce as a bit more brief than intended. My desktop is burrying under a barrage of blue screens and though this tablet works relatively well for shorter mails it has a tendency to erase blog replies from time to time. Good luck with those grades and the search for your satisfying endings!