This is for the record. · 9:24am Dec 15th, 2013
This is for the record.
I am not a great man. I'm barely a half-decent man. I am harsh. I am dark. I am scarred. Damaged. No matter how many times anyone calls me a 'good person' or anything like it, I will never believe them. I haven't believed in much of anything lately.
I am hurt. I may not cry, and I may not scream, but I am most definitely hurt. Pain is what I feel right now, mixed with anxiety. I feel an ache in my chest, but it's everywhere too… I'm exhausted but can't sleep. My dreamscape is haunted by the thing I fear I'll become. And no matter how much I try, I cannot control it like I used to. I can't suppress it further into the darkest recesses of my mind. I cannot seal it away. It is getting too strong.
This is for the record. History is written by the victor.
In case It wins…
This is for the record.
</3 DarqFox
w-what are you saying?
Hang in there! You've got plenty of friends here keeping you in their thoughts.
There's always a light at the end of the tunnel man. You just gotta keep headin towards it and you'll reach it. Don't forget you got us for support!
Once again, I'm a bit late in seeing this. And once again, I'm hesitant to say something since the moment has usually past by the time I make my way around to see things. However, I felt like I should push that hesitance aside to say...something.
I want to say something that can help, or have some kind of positive effect to maybe make you feel even the tiniest bit better but I honestly have no idea what I should or would say. I mean, I wish I could sympathize with you and maybe help you work through the pain you're feeling. But I doubt I could even attempt.
I wish there was somebloody there with you to just pull you into a hug and tell you that it'll be okay, even if it isn't at the moment. Hell, I'd do it if I could and we hardly know each other. But I know that won't help as much as I'd like it to.
But in the end, it all comes down to what you want I suppose. Yea, you're in a dark place and it's scary. At some time or another, we've all been there, will go there, or are still there. Maybe some don't experience it the same or on as deep a level, but it's still there for them. Though, and this may come off as harsh or rude, it is necessary. I mean, if we all went through life with absolutely no pain like that, I'd truly be concerned with our psychological development as a race.
But all that aside, I wish you the best and hope that you beat whatever it is that plagues you during your waking hours and stalks you in your dreams. And I don't say that because you're a phenomenal writer, I don't say that because of what kind of person you may or may not be, and I don't say that because of the potential you have.
I say it because you're a person and I'd like to think that you're a friend. Sure, we may not really know each other beside the random passing comment to one another, and I'm quite certain there are others who know you much better than I ever will. But still. And I suppose I speak for a lot of others on here as well. We may not ever get to truly know you as a person, but we're still your friends in a sense. A small sense, but that's still gotta count for something, right?
I apologize if this brings back the pain or if it makes you angry. I'd be fine with taking any backlash you feel like giving me for all this should you feel the need. But I just....I just thought I should finally say something concerning your ongoing plight, ya know? But anyways, I truly hope the best for ya man, I really do.
Your friend, Nightroad
Some people are dense.
This sounds like a great idea for a story, and I'm guessing it's something your working on. From the sound of it, Luna's past... very cool.