2:A.M. Rant

A little Insomnia driven rant i came up with, so yeah read if you want.

I hardly go to sleep without doing a bit of reading and that "bit" last for hours on end.
Honestly i have no idea why I'm doing this and in the dark no less. and yet I can see most of the letters so at least I have some sense as to what I'm writing.
Going back to the no idea par, I'v always been a procrastinator but lately it just seems to have become a real burden, and its silly but I personally thinks its becoming a curse. Silly right but nonetheless it feels that way. I wake up, do my chores, and search the web for hours. But for some odd reason. even though I'm certain my brain should have been rotten from staring at the computer screen lifelessly ,I'm completely different person than i should be during the night. Maybe that's why i favor Luna over Celestia.
I have too much time to think but not enough to write, hell I make arguments with myself that I'm crazy only to be shot down that if I was crazy I would know that by now.It also doesn't help if you're as paranoid as me. Hell maybe thats why I'm making this to let out all my frustration, well it's really not working. Especially since I just want to write my damn story. Let me tell you my predicament.
I believe that I'm completley different person in the afternoon then after twilight, now you may say because you're tired of course. Quite the opposite really. Morning till 7p.m. I'm just a huge ass lazy procrastinator that gets his job over with and goes on break as soon as he can. After dusk howver well I get a bit philosophical <dont know if right spelling>but as a teen with over protective parents that want nothing less than the next world ruler from their son, they dont want me up this late. Can't blame them but i don't like it
I want to write at these times, when I want to work and when my mind is racing a mile a minute
but nope [paranoia and arragont parents gets to have its way with me].
This is why i want a laptop. with a light up keyboard. or just the light up keybord so it doesn't feel like a hit and miss each time a word is brought up into the recces of my conscious. Bah I'm a horrible speller at times and this darkness is really infuriating. I'll leave it here to patch up my horrendous spelling and missed key presses and post this as a blog. And to the people who came for the story I'm writing, it's getting there just, there's so many posible ways I can go with it and so many consequences good and bad that go with each choice I wonder if any of you have any idea how many.. well of course someone does. its the damn internet. Can't expect less. Can't expect more. Oh if the awnser was to vauge it's at 10,000 rough draft. so many ideas right now and I'm just butchering it. Welp that's it. I'll just edit this later and post it as well in the morn.