Bored, Depressed, and Stuck in a Rut · 3:36am Oct 18th, 2013
I'm just so bored and feeling uninspired to do anything...most days I feel like just staying in bed because I think to myself, "What's the point of even waking up anymore?" My life feels like it's going nowhere...at all. All I even do anymore is get out of bed, shower, sit here and open my laptop, and stare at either a blank word processor page, or one that's not even close to being half done; and if I get bored with that, I'll either watch TV, listen to music, read, play video games, attempt to fill out a job application to get my folks off my back, or go outside and try and find ANYTHING of interest in this town, but alas it ends the same...all boring, all dull...all just a deep rut that I just can't seem to escape.
I just feel like my life is going nowhere at all...I can find nothing to get up for anymore...all of my passion is just GONE! I feel so, so hollow...there's just nothing in there...nothing at all...like I don't even care about anything anymore, and you know what, I don't...I see nothing to get excited over, just nothing.
What am I going to do? I feel so trapped by this...what can I possibly do to escape this boring, dull prison of just nothing?
What's even the point of asking YOU guys? I seriously doubt that anyone out there even cares. But, I could be wrong, and I hope that I am.
Suck it up. I know this sounds dickish but seriously, you're just being a little bitch right now
. Now, granted that I am certifiably insane (so you may not listen to me), I have a lot of experience in this field. You're not depressed, you're not even in a rut. You're simply being lazy and that is unforgivable
. I have talked dozens people out of suicide and the things they've gone through would make you shut up and delete this blog out of shame, ok?
Listen, I do care
. But this is a load of shit. You need to get back up, get moving, solve a rubix cube, and live your life. I'm out, take this how you will. 
1430167 I know you mean well, but I do feel genuinely depressed and empty...nothing excites me anymore, and my passion for the one thing that I love, writing, is sucked out...it's just dead. I feel no merit, excitement, or joy in anything anymore. And if I was being lazy, I'd say "Writing is too hard, I quit." But I'm not...I've been trying for years to get something...ANYTHING done...I've tried many tricks to getting the wall to come down, but each trick only works for so long before the wall comes back up again.
1430167 look, you don't know me so allow me to explain.
For as long as I can remember, I've always wanted to be a writer, especially after I read Edgar Allen Poe's stories and discovered that English was my best school subject. Now I admit that I have been stuck on project after project for a long time and I've tried hammering down my Writer's Block, which is now a wall that give China's Great Wall a run for its money, but it seems to have exhausted my passion and my drive to write. I've spent countless days and nights, wired on caffeine trying to get even just a fragment of a sentence on paper, hell sometimes I even pray to a power higher than myself for guidance, but that only works for so long. If I sound like I'm bitching, it's just because I'm very frustrated and depressed.
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Season 4 is coming soon! watch reruns to keep you until then,
1430632 It's more than just writing about fan fictions...it's about everything I've wanted to complete for seven long years.
1430637 thats just a part of growing up, we've al been there. I hope you can cheer up though. get some sleep, have ice-cream, watch lewis black the comedian or chris rock or some such. dealing with manic depression myself, the keyword is distraction.
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Soooo... because writing is harder than you thought you've thrown yourself into depression?
EDIT: Just read your comment to 2135D. Sounds like you're simply frustrated that you haven't met your own expectations, which is understandable; but not if you take it this far.
1430837 I wouldn't say it was the writing that threw me into depression; during my frustration I examined my life and kinda felt depressed about that. But I got it out of my system, I just needed to vent my frustrations and I'm feeling much better.