Confessions (pt.2): Age · 9:23am Aug 15th, 2013
Ever since I became a young adult, I thought that as soon as I reached the age I am right now, I would feel so different about... everything. From politics to food, I would see the world in a new light. I also was told that I would see myself through a different lens.
As much my view of the external world has drastically changed, my view of myself has not. I still feel like that awkward, teenage asshole who always starts his day off by flipping bird at his reflection while brushing his teeth and can't cope with the real world. At first I thought that it was a temporary setback and I would see myself in a new light as time went on. Nothing has changed; in fact, I think ever since I got into college, it has gotten worse. I refuse to talk to anyone about this due to the fact that:
A.)Everyone I have met or talk to have had worse things done to them and constantly remind me about how their lives are shit. I feel like if I utter a word about my problems, they would laugh at me.
B.)I think should learn how to deal with this without talking to anyone. I want to be as independent as I possibly can because I have been babied by mommy and daddy my whole life and I am sick of it. I love my mom and dad, but it's time I give back to them for doing so much for me.
C.)I feel like sorrow is just a part of me. Every time I start to get happy, I beat myself back to a pulp as fast as I possibly can, reminding myself that I am not important and that every time I'm happy/excited, bad things start to happen to those around. (You think I'm joking, but a lot of times when I get happy or excited, someone gets hurt from something I do).
It's just how it is, I guess.
Persian, your problems are just as important as everyone elses and even if you don't go to your parents about them, you should never try to deal with them alone. You are important, Persian.
That's why you have the people on the internet, like us. We're here for you dude.
1287474>>1286524 I appreciate your concern guys.
I'm glad I have dudes/dudettes/aliens/limes I can lean on in cyberspace.
1288089 It's what we here fo.
1288365 but what aboot the role play?
1288407 I think the idea died. I have no idea what everyone is doing with it anymore...