New Blog Post! · 5:55am Jul 24th, 2013
So I'm reaching the point in my life where I have to decide what I want to do with the remainder of my existence and be a "Grown Up" about a lot of things. I'm going to be graduating (hopefully) with a degree in Animal Biotechnology and Conservation but right now I'm question whether that's what I want to do for the rest of my days. I love animals, I really do, but there is also that whole thing about keeping your work separate from your life thing that I don't know if I could do if I conitune on my current path.
I guess I'm just at one of those moments in life that I have doubts in what I'm really here for. I have a way with dogs (usually only big ones) that other people I've worked with seem jealous of, but if my entire job is working with dogs, would I have the patience of dealing with one of my own? I've also been thinking about a couple different paths, and a few of them I'd have to reprove myself in. One being video editing and show planning for a specific series.
Of course, I'm drunk and rambling on about my life again. I've met guys that have had brain tumors removed that still know what they want to do with their lives. I guess I'm just in decisive? Who knows, since the future is yet to be determined. I'm just scared a bit about what I have to face in front of me. There is only so long I can hang around my parent's house and bum off of their incomes instead of my own. The first step into the real world is real intimidating and I'm facing it within the next year.
For once in my life I'm not sure I trust myself completely to do it.
So in short, I'm not afraid of failure, since I've done that before. I think I'm afraid of my own gut feeling saying it feels right to do something. I'm nervous that my gut will fail on me in the moment of transition that could spell the end of my days in the real world.
And now I realize I've just been ranting for a bit. Oh well. You guys follow me/my stories. I'm sure you'll deal with it.
only 3 things I dislike that aren't inherently evil.
Mushrooms, spiders, and change.
I'm a couple years behind you but I suppose I'll just have to suck it up when the time comes, good luck.
Not to sound rude, but you sound like my older brother, and he's not even in his last year yet, but to give my opinion, I think go with what you like. If you like working with dogs then continue working with dogs, and people who say that you have to have a line between your personal life and your job makes your job sound boring and begins a sensation of hatred towards it, do what you love to do, me for example, I love to write, I've never had any more fun in my life than when I pick up a pen and write what's on my mind, so I'm aiming to become an author/journalist because that's what I love to do.
And to answer your question in your second paragraph, if you really do love your dog, then you can see the difference between the dogs you work with and the one(s) you own.
Believe in yourself, because if you can't believe in yourself, who can you believe in.
You'll be fine, trust your heart and follow its path wherever it may stray, because your heart, or your gut as you put it, knows what you truly want to do with your life.
Good luck with school mate, I'll be seeing you around.