Uh…hi · 12:29am May 11th, 2013
Alright guys. This is a pretty big announcement that I think all of you should hear. I was gone a whole week because of threatening suicide to my parents. They weren't empty threats either. They were full-fledged promises that I would end my life right there. Needless to say, they kept me from running out of the car long enough for the cops to show up as well as 3 ambulances and a firetruck. They took me to a hospital in which I stayed a whole night and then they shipped me into an inpatient program where I spent a whole week with peers, and learned to cope with depression and suicidal ideations. I met some cool people there, a few cute girls and even a couple bronies. However, there were rules that prevented further contact after discharge. I'm home and have been fully changed. The thing I wanted to tell you guys is that if you are feeling the way I do, you are not alone. Depression and sad thoughts are just part of nature. Don't let them overcome you until there is no way for you to bear them anymore.
This is true. Suicidal thoughts are actually fairly common, and there's a right and wrong way to deal with them.
From my point of view, I want to tell you that it gets better. Not the world, the world is exactly the same place when you get older, but you get better. The thoughts are still there, but they change from "suicide is an opition" to "suicide is an option. . . and so is going outside with my underwear on my head. Neither is likely to help this situation."
You're very smart, so you think that you understand the world, and you probably think of yourself as (and are) mature. But there really is a difference between "mature" and "wise." Wisdom is what lets the world make sense, or makes it okay when it doesn't. The world is much harder for people who are mature (and understand the world) but don't have wisdom yet (so they can't make sense of it.)
The only way to get wisdom is to live long enough to earn it- not by studying or being smart, just by experiencing life. But that's really not as hard as it seems. And when you have a little more wisdom, the whole world feels better.
So, I'm glad your safe. If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me.
Damn Royce, you really were serious weren't you? Becareful next time, I couldn't bare to lose a friend like you.
And I'm glad you're safe