Been Doing Some Serious Thinking · 8:56am Apr 20th, 2013
Hey guys, sorry I haven't done any updating and such, which is connected to the main point of this post.
... So I've been thinking...
I love ponies. I really do. My life was truly saved by these adorable and happy cartoon characters; I don't want to get into the messy details though. I owe a lot to this show and this fandom that welcomed someone like me with open arms.
However...
Lately, I noticed I've been distancing myself from ponies. I'm not finding this fandom very enjoyable anymore... Since the beginning of the third season, it seems like all the fandom has been doing is just stirring up drama and arguing with one another. I looked at the fandom and noticed that it's not as... How should I put it? Happy? I guess? I've now gotten to the point where just looking at things related to ponies gives me a headache and stresses me out.
Another reason why I've been distancing myself from ponies is because of the project that I've been trying to work on for the last year or so. (Apologizing in advance for kind of ranting about this.)
It's difficult getting people to strive towards a common goal. I tried my damnedest to get everyone to work together, and it worked. But, I just can't seem to get my artists, who we need to for us to advance in our project, to do their share of work. I've tried every tactic. I've tried motivating them with contests, I've asked politely, I've even resorted to threatening to kicking them off the team if they didn't work (Something I did not want to do at all but I was running out of options.) and even that only made them do the bare minimum so they didn't get kicked off the team. So it's really caused me a lot of stress because I just don't know what to do. I've poured so much into writing the story for my project and I know there are other people that are really interested in seeing this completed, but I can't give it to them. I just can't get people to work. So just thinking about it and ponies in general, have just caused me to kind of move away from them.
I've lately found absolutely no motivation in writing... I just can't seem to get back into it.... I really wanted to finish How Many Dragons Does it Take to Fix an Ego? but I just can't seem to get myself to write.... I stare at the Word Document and reread what I have written over and over again, but.... nothing. It's maddening.
It really bites, but I don't know exactly where I'm going from here. I know I won't ever close down my FIMfiction account. Just because I decide to leave the fandom doesn't mean I should deprive people who are in the fandom stories they might enjoy (Too conceited?). But I'm seriously thinking of just packing it in.... What do you guys think?
Till next time,
~Fishnchipz18
That sounds like a real bummer. I just stopped watching once season three came out. I only read romances so I tend to not see these controversies that are going on. As hard as it is, if people aren't working, the only thing you can really do is cut your losses and find someone who will work. It's very difficult to convince someone who isn't on board that your project is as important as you think it is. As for rejuvenating yourself, the only thing I can really say is to read some of the happier things. Maybe write a couple one shots. Just a change of pace to get the juices flowing. Good luck.
Every fandom has its low points, and every fandom has its idiots. Just try your best to ignore it. (p.s. stop reading the comments section on every place but fimfiction. that's how I do it)
As for your project, I have no solid advice for you. Try letting an artist go, to show the rest that you're not fucking around. (you might want to find a few replacements first, though). Probably not the best advice for your situation, but it's something to think about.
1022353 Unfortunately even when I let three artists go because they didn't meet the deadline, it did nothing to motivate them beyond the bare minimum.
Thank you for your comment though. 
1021705 Yeah it really is difficult to find people that are interested in working on it, much less people who are excited about the idea of it. I'll definitely try to read some of my old favorite fics and see if it helps kick-start my imagination again.
I want to apologize for brining up the whole thing about the project here on FIMfiction since it has nothing to do with fan-fiction.
I guess I just needed to do a really quick vent. Thank you guys for your feedback and it made me extremely happy to see that there are people who actually read my blog and are kind enough to leave a comment. That more than anything has reinvigorated me. Thank you guys! 
1025109 Anytime. I'm on often so I'll probably respond to whatever you post.
1025109 I've noticed a lot of people asking why the bronies are suddenly bickering amongst themselves. For the longest time, we were a united front standing against a strong opposition that had us outnumbered and outgunned. But now society is beginning to accept the concept of the "brony", and are no longer so violently against it. We had set aside our differences because we had a common enemy that made our petty differences irrelevent to the situation at hand. Take away that problem worth uniting over and you no longer have reasons to ignore the pointless bickering that had previously been set aside. Suddenly, best pony becomes an arguement, along with Twilicorn either being good or bad. Now that whether or not bronydom should exist is no longer an issue, the little details grow in weight. It's stupid, I know. But such is the manner of mankind.
1100283 You bring up a very good point that is evident in many societies and cultures. People will unite only to deal with a large problem, and once that is dealt with, they begin to quarrel amongst themselves.
However, I've become a lot less irritated at all the drama and such because I realized that not every brony is taking part in the endless arguments. I recently attended EQLA which is a brony convention in Anahiem and the people I met there pretty much restored my faith in the community and their ability to put aside their differences. It was quite heartwarming if I do say so myself.
1100837 So did you travel a long way to get there, or do ya live near anahiem? Geeze, I keep forgetting how close I am to LA, only a two hour drive.
1103440 I live about an hour's drive away from Anaheim so getting there wasn't a problem for me at all.
1104700 Damn, I forget that I'm not the only Californian on the site.
I just got done reading The Purest Hearts and I loved it. Short, simple and a great crack ship as far as Spike shippings go. I don't even need to mention the Octavia and Cheerilee story (both great in their own right)
And then I read this, and I lost my happy. Not only because you've lost your inspiration to write and your upcoming story was to do with my favorite Spike crack shipping, but because I have to agree with you about where the fandom has gone.
Sure, since Season 3 started, I have felt that the show has gotten a bit stale (with a couple of great episodes mixed in more mediocre ones). And then the fandom? It got worse, and yet at the same time I don't want to leave. Sure there's been a lot of drama lately especially with Twilicorn, the C&D of Fighting is Magic, and more recently Equestria Girls, but there are still these small pockets of individuals that are still decent. Those small portions that I have formed a friendship with.
But what I saw will not matter in the long run. Of course, everything is up to you. What you do in the future is your choice and yours only. And I agree with other people when I say it's better to ignore the negativity, and maybe the imaginative juices start flowing back. That's worked for me, since I haven't stopped my script adapting. (which I started well over an year ago)
1144400 Thank you very much for enjoying my works!
Reading comments like yours is what gives me the motivation to continue writing, seeing all of these comments on my blog post has really touched me.
I'm happy to say that I have found my motivation again since I went to EQLA 2013, however I've been very busy with real-life activities (College is the biggest one). I am actually still working on How Many Dragons Does it Take to Fix an Ego? though the progress is slow. Thank you very much for your comment!