Looks Like I Really Was Just Tired, But... · 2:47pm Apr 6th, 2013
I want to thank all of you for sharing your thoughts on my last blog. I'm pleased that many of you are eager for my Rainbow Dash story, as well as my others as well. That said, I'm going to respond to your comments form the last blog in a sort of collective fashion, before I crash for the morning. lol Good old night shift.
Now first I want to address my blog title. It would seem I was just really tired. Last night at work, another wank of a night, my load former suffered a major break down and left me with little more than cleaning to do for the first half of the night. Anyway, while I was pushing my broom around, I got to thinking about my Rainbow Dash story. Sudden, I started pretending to have a conversation with Rainbow in my head. At first she was telling me not to worry about her story, if I was feeling so stumped, but then I said back to her (in thought), what if I just change my approach. She said she agreed and said maybe I should just come at the scene from another angel, that way I could capture my thoughts about her awesomeness, and I think I have. Getting back on track, I ended up connecting with her character and found a way to make the starting scene work to my liking. The planning phase is everything. If you can't get a good mental picture going to start, then you'll have trouble getting a story started, let alone off the ground. So, I think I know what to do now. Plus I've been getting some good ideas for the other parts of this story as well, and they are all going to be easier for me to write, because I spent a lot of time fantasizing about them.
Now, a number of you expressed your interest in my other stories. Well, Luna, Celestia and Twilight will be getting updates, rest assured, but since Twilight has garnered plenty of my attention, for now, I will be giving Tia and Lulu my focus in the coming weeks.
A few of you mentioned my planned Derpy fic. Rest assured, Derpy will have her time, but it won't be for a while. I know some of you want it now, but it won't just be a simple clopfic. It's going to have to be several chapters just to accomplish what I'm hoping it can. Second, Fluttershy has been popping up in the suggestions as of late. I really have a soft spot for her. Her soft spoken voice, her adorable cuteness and natural beauty, along with her charming personality make her one of my favorites among the main six. So I have a 3rd person Human x Fluttershy story in the works. Ironically I started it late last spring, around late May early June, but the idea never panned out. I have since given it more thought and taken some feedback from a few of you. But, like Derpy, Fluttershy is still a ways off. I've got too many multiple chapter stories in the works to add more. Doing a one-shot here or there is fine, but anything more will just add too much to my plate. Besides, I don't want the others to feel too left out.
So, for now, I'm not really committing to or promising anything...other than, for right now: Rainbow Dash get's center stage, followed by Celestia. I'm only planning two projects at once. This way I don't get overwhelmed.
So Expect "Making the Rainbow Shine" - Next, followed by Chapter 7 of "You Brighten My Day". I'll keep you all in the loop as I progress. Oh yeah, one more thing... Vinyl Scratch fans, have no worries. I am going to be doing my Vinyl fic somewhere around the updates of my other stories, so Vinyl will have her time. Though, I've decided, it won't take place around Hearth's Warming Day. I doubt in spring that a Christmas themed story will fit well, plus I can make my story work just as well set in late spring or early summer. So, there you have my plans for now.
I want to Thank all of YOU for offering your invaluable and greatly appreciated feedback! It means a lot! So, again, thank you! And a WARM WELCOME TO MY NEWEST FOLLOWERS! Thanks for keeping an eye on me!
Now before I go, I have two Rainbow Dash pics. You will see why I've also decided to give her the chance she's been waiting so patiently for!
- Jaydex
This was how Rainbow looked, when I said, I might not do her story, now. I can't have her look at me with sad eyes, I just can't.
And if tears weren't bad enough, when I said I would give it another shot, Rainbow decided to lay on my bed and pose like this. She said, "Are you sure you still don't want to write about me?" What can I say, she was rather convincing.
well that was creepy
YAY, MOAR INCOMING!
Someone should make a romance fanfic between Fluttershy and General RAAM!
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985226 0_0........NO!!!!!!!!!!!
"You Brighten My Day" was the first story of yours I read and after that I was hocked. You always brighten my day when I read one of your stories. keep up the good work.
yeah
Awesome to hear. Keep up the good work.
you talked to rainbow dash in your head? huh. I have both a Tyrant and a Molesting pony in mine...sometimes pinkie joins and then I can't think straight.
Hehe, I love your descriptions on 'talking' with Rainbow Dash: adorable and insightful (really!
)...indeed, separating and distancing yourself as much as possible, in every way so you can try to see things from as many angles as possible, is certainly a sound strategy...rather than chasing after one perfect conclusion, trying to create as many conclusions as possible which is much more reliable....after you have a set of all the different conclusions, you can then go about eliminating them one by one until you have the 'perfect' conclusion.
Of course, I bet it also helped make the time go by and things more fun....Rainbow always makes things more fun
By the way, random question...but you wouldn't happen to have a Rainbow Dash plush doll? Given that I know you collect, and you said she was laying in your bed, I have a feeling that's what you were referring too (I mean, besides the picture :p) ^___^
985226
Well....he's....um....he's handsome...... and strong
And big handsome strong guys are always nice to everypony right?
Right?
Yeah she's cool... and awesome... and... radical.
986031
Aren't those all the same thing?
Good to hear.
986228
- You would think that, and that's why you don't qualify to be my pet.
(I may not have it word for word but, hey it's near enough
)
985220
I'm an artist, and sometimes "creepy" is just part of the job.
985226
Something tells me that General Raam isn't the type of male protagonist I'm used to writing about. 
I'll leave that story to somepony else.
985413
I'll be sure to do my best. And didn't you leave this comment on one of my prior blogs:
985606
Thank you my friend! I'll do just that!
985973
But you have to do something to pass the long shifts as work. 
Especially when all you do is mindless droning work. 
I talk to the ponies and they talk to me all the time. No, I'm not totally insane, just a little crazy.
986014
My thoughts at work really help me when working the bugs out of storylines. Having thoughts about the ponies like that or "talking" to them in my mind does make things a lot more fun and helps pass the time. 
Gotta pass that boring time working somehow.
Somehow you seem to get me...I like that!
I do have a plush Rainbow Dash, in fact, she's sitting on the foot end of my bed, watching over my shoulder right now. But, when I made that comment about the pic of Rainbow posing like that on my bed, I was just being whimsical. What can I say, I like to be creative, even when I do my blogs.
986031
Yep, Rainbow is all those things and more!!
986303
You bet!
986396 she is in the suductive pose. creepy
986401
That's tame compared to some of the seductive pics of Rainbow Dash I've seen online.
986406 yes vary tame, might as well just burn a zoo down, becuase this is way more tame
986396 Eeyup
I did..... why do you want to know?
986396 Indeed she is, I'm having to admit sort of reluctantly. But if I might address this line from a response of yours:
I wouldn't think you're 'crazy' just a little... unwell
986494
Sounds about right. 
I remember that song from the Radio. So I'm just a little unwell, eh.
986480
The way you were talking about Rainbow, it sounds like she's one of your favorites, and you wanted me to do a story about her the only way I know. So with "Making the Rainbow Shine" I intent to do just that!
986421
Nice one.
986533 I hope you know not to take it too seriously...
985226 LOL DUDE, For some reason I'm
laughing so hard right now xD Omg...
986396 hmm
true.
Hehe, of course it helps! Ponies make everything more fun...and when you are doing boring work for hours at end (I still don't know how you manage to work overnight shifts
...and then you go to sleep at the morning? I know many many people have careers like that, but can you really handle it? Do you feel funny having an internal clock like that? How much sleep do you normally get? I wonder if you feel more tired in general, because you are sleeping during the day and working during the night....I bet Luna isn't complaining though 
)...I can imagine Pony commentary in our heads that make everything more interesting 
But returning to my attempts at helping Jaydex, I was focusing explicitly on creativity, but there are all sorts of mental strategies that, overall, can help you in better decision-making and judgment ability. A smaller piece of advice, which will help you creativity, is trying meditation...Obviously you don't have to subscribe to any sort of philosophical or religious belief-system if that's not your thing (it's certainly not mine) - that's not the point at all...it's about, not just relaxation, but in furthering your mindfulness: the benefits, really no matter what type you do, has been written for decades now, able to help you with things like mood or even digestion...but creativity especially, it will help because it's about letting yourself go and not necessarily mental discipline. For as little as 15 mins a day, simply sitting down in a comfortable place, clutching your hands or relaxing them however you wish, breathing gently and deeply in and out while murmuring a specific two-syllable word or sound in your mind ("ah one" is a simple choice) when breathing out....the sound will slowly fade and become a feeling...again, it's the opposite of mental discipline but in letting your imagination go, and if something discouraging comes, you just return to the sound and let it reshape into something else...when you are ready, you gently bring yourself back and wake up. Meditation is a wonderful way, not simply in managing stress, but freeing your imagination as well....I've been doing it for a little while now, and I wouldn't say it's a deceitful placebo (I'd realize if I was just fooling myself, I trust myself on that) but something that does help in it's own way.
Another however, even bigger strategy that could help you, really just in general in life in helping with decision-making and judgment, is something even simpler that is all too easily taken for granted....have a diary! It may sound silly, but that only lasts for about a month or so...your choices, observations, decisions, feelings...getting down as much of your thought process as much as possible, physically (better then digital...gives us a break from our digital screens....if it seems like your writing is coming too slow from your thoughts, trust me, that will change in time), in a single place, will help you break it down: you'll notice all the bad habits you've been unconsciously doing without thinking of it over and over again, so you can actually build up worthwhile ones. As before, it may sound silly...but very often, simple things like that are the best: the simple things we can do for ourselves that we ignore because they are 'beneath' our notice....something like having a diary can help you be more motivated, define your goals better, and simply help with your decisions/judgments in a broader way.
As before, there are all sorts of strategies we can do to help us in our decisions/judgments, and to make us more mindful...to make an example, your 'conversation' in your head with Rainbow may have gone even better if you actually spoken out loud to yourself: I know that may sound very very silly, but sort of like the diary, the point is about putting yourself out there, in the right ways, as much as possible...stating something out loud, forces yourself and your mind to pause, and helps you in, very often unintentionally, catch those errors that are invisible to your eyes. Your ear notes them when your eye does not...many many times, when my brain feels like an absolute jumble and I'm having trouble trying to reach a certain conclusion or I simply want to help myself in some way...I simply start talking outloud, even if by myself: why? Because talking outloud forces you to speak in a coherent sequential pattern, it mandates mindfulness...all the time, even if my head is dead-set on something, my words will arrive at a completely different and better conclusion that my head didn't realize - it gets me every time and is yet something else to bring some clarity in our chaotic minds.
Meditation, keeping a diary (especially), stating things out loud to ourselves....these are all simple strategies to further mindfulness and bring some more clarity into our thought process (and lives) so we can be more thorough and overall accomplish more. I know all this may seem a bit random, but given how hectic your overnight schedule is, and how much fanfiction work and stories you seem to be piling onto yourself....helping to distance and better define yourself is definitely more then good for you, not just for stories, but in simply helping you to relax, think things through, and actually do more. You have a whole bunch of stories for instance that you wanna do....why not write them down in a diary, filling in the insights and ideas as they come (so you don't have to worry about forgetting them - in fact, you can put them out of your mind immediately once you write them down, and clear up your mind for new ideas -- it's like that quote about Creativity: it's not about getting new ideas in, but old ideas out...and once you get them out of your head, creativity instantly fills in) and ordering them so you know what comes first...again, it may sound silly and unnecessary, after a month or so, you'd be surprised what the simple benefits of writing things down in a daily journal can do.
Hehe, I know, but I had a funny feeling you actually owned a RD plush doll....you should consider posting new pictures of them one of these days!
We're all a little crazy, but don't worry, all the best people are
<-- Twilight would know! (
)
986347
It was close enough
, my knowledge of pony quotes hasn't failed me yet 
986533 thank yu, i hate my zoo, no penguins but we have 6 elefents 20 chimpanzies (monkeis) like 4 wild dogs, 3 giant tortuses, and a lamma, how the fuck can't we have a penguin!!!! we even have seals and dori from finding nemo. even bob cats and octrages, and a cussing parrot. but no penuins.
we even have a owl exibit along with 3 ponies and like 4 sheep
stil no peunguins
986569 I guess I just don't watch enough of it, though that would be because it's not as fun as I found it in the beginning as of late.
986533 You are now my best friend, that is if you want to be.
Rainbow is not just one of my favorites, she is my most favorite pony ever.
When I read about your Rainbow story I was so happy I almost *BOOM*
Not really Rainbow Dash related, but...
By the time the film "The Green Mile" ended, Celestia was weeping, her body shaking with her silent, pain-filled cries, her head buried 'neath Daniel's coat. Daniel had no words to say - he'd known that the film was sad, yet wonderful, and Celestia had insisted on watching it; she'd been curious. All the gentle human could do was hold his beloved mare close as she expressed her grief at what had happened to poor John Coffey and Paul Edgecomb.
A moment later, Celestia shifted pulling her head up and away to look at Daniel and then - her voice rough from crying - she softly recited, "I'm tired, boss. Tired of bein' on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. I'm tired of never having me a buddy to be with, to tell me where we's going to or coming from, or why. Mostly, I'm tired of ponies being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world every day. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time. Can you understand?"
At first, Daniel didn't know what Celestia was referring to... but then, as another choked sob escaped her, the human's eyes widened as he realized what she was referring to: the time when Luna had become Nightmare Moon, and then the long, long lonely years of ruling Equestria before she'd come to Earth. Before she'd found him. "I understand. love" he replied, softly kissing her tears away. "I'm here and I understand. You're not alone anymore, and you'll never be alone again."
The words Daniel spoke did not hearten Celestia; instead they seemed to make things worse. Fresh tears ran from her eyes, spilling down her cheeks and muzzle as she recited, "Daniel — you'll die, too. And my curse is knowing that I'll be there to see it. You'll be gone like all the others, and I'll have to stay..."
At this, Daniel gently cupped a hand over Celestia's muzzle, gently silencing her. "Oh, come on now, love; you and Twilight are the two most magically powerful mares in Equestria; with the two of you looking into it I'm sure that you'll find a way to keep me with you for a very long time..." At his words, Celestia gave Daniel a long, reproachful look, then slowly shook her head before reciting, "We each owe a death — there are no exceptions. But, oh Faust, sometimes the Green Mile seems so long..." With that, as more of her tears flowed, the Solar Princess slowly closed her eyes.
(Can't type anymore... dusty eyes...)
986550
Of course. I gathered you were just teasing me.
986572
Aww that stinks. Especially considering how awesome penguins are!
Here have some penguins. Sorry they aren't real:
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I hope you like'm!
986719
Well, I hope I do your favorite pony justice. I sure will try.
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Oh, and I always enjoy making new friends!
986569
Those are some helpful tips and insights.
As for working nights. It can be a pain at times. I honestly detest it, but it's the only way I can make ends meet until I manage to write a good selling book, find a better job, or find an entertainment based job where I can write something creative for whatever may be needed. So till then, I'm stuck. I can sleep when I'm tired and during the day just fine, but I do tend to feel tired whenever I finally stop. That's why some days, writing can be difficult, not because I don't like it or want to do it, but my work life leaves my physical energy in a very unstable place, so that's how that goes.
But when the warmer weather of spring finally arrives, I should perk up again. One thing is for sure, regardless of what happens, I will prevail! I'm stubborn that way, like a number of people from my family!
Hmmm, more pics of my Plushies. Well, I could so that. In fact, just yesterday, my two newest mares arrived - plushies of VInyl Scratch and Trixie. They are just adorable! I already took pics of them. I'll have to share pics of my herd. I've got quite a few now, so "herd" isn't a far-fetched term for them.
What can I say, I love ponies, they make me happy, leave me feeling safe, and ultimately loved. Where else can you find all that wrapped in one adorable package?
In fact back to your creativity boosting techniques... One thing I do when I need to rest my mind, when I get a little stuck on part of a story, well, I grab one of my plushies (usually the pony I'm writing about), then I relax on my bed, while holding them, and yes, I'll admit it, I cuddle with them (I know I'm a grown adult
), but anyhow, as I do that, I just let my mind go blank, or sometimes I talk to them (you see, there's the crazy in me), or think about the story, and just imagine what I want to have happen, visualize it and then try to find the words to express it. This technique is my greatest weapon in fighting writer's block. Whenever I feel like I'm about to become stumped, I just employ this ability, and in anywhere from 5-30 minutes, I usually have results! 
So, while I admit it's more than a little unorthadox, it's my way of dealing with things. However disturbing to some it may seem. One thing I love about this fandom is that thanks to the ponies we always try to follow the example of "love and tolerance". 
Well, I'd better get to bed. I have off tonight, and really want to sink my teeth into Rainbow's story, so I can finally show her some long overdue love.
987679 I know you will do your best, as you always do.
Stay strong and pony on.
987672
Not quite sure if I'll have a scene exactly like that, but I always enjoy when you share these touching shorts with Daniel and Celestia. Though in some ways, I dare say you are a bit of a mind reader. While it won't be like this wonderfully thought out scene of yours, I was considering a thought out scene of my own take on Celestia expressing her bewilderment and in time her woes at the thought of losing Daniel. I even have a solution in mind, but it won't happen till they go to Equestria and are there for a while.
That was beautiful!
Thank you for sharing that! It really was beautiful!
987679 the first is cool, they are rubbuing thier backs
987714 Well, I hope the solution to the problem will be a good one that both parties can agree on.
Celestia perhaps shortening her lifespan to match his?
Celestia making herself mortal?
Daniel's lifespan extended to match hers?
Danial becomes an Alicorn like Cadence? (He'd make a great one with his gentle nature)
Celestia shares a portion of herself with Daniel; he gains her immortality and perhaps very limited magical abilities whilst she gains some of that human ingenuity; she becomes a lil' rough around the muzzle as she gains the ability to think like a non-pony...
------ (Pet!Celestia)
That night, when Celestia entered her and Daniel's quarters the Solar Diarch practically threw her royal regalia off and then - as her beloved sat on their bed, waiting, she carefully fitted the leather collar about her neck. Simple, though finely crafted, the collar bore naught but a simple tag that had "Celestia" engraved on the front and Daniel's address on the back. "Ah," Daniel said sagely, "had enough of it all, eh? Going to be a pet night again, is it?"
Nickering softly, Celestia nodded, then snorted and pawed at the stone floor with a hoof. At this, Daniel petted the bed in a 'come here' gesture. "Well" he said softly, "come on, then..." No sooner had her beloved said that then Celestia practically leaped onto their bed, rolling onto her back as she wriggled her head into her beloved's lap. "Who's a good pony?" Daniel crooned to her softly as he gently began to scratch her ears and run his hands through her mane. Happy pony noises escaped Celestia as she closed her eyes in bliss...
989075
However, I won't say which. 
I have my solution in mind, and I won't be leaking it to you. But I will say this, it just might fall along the lines of one of those guesses you posted.
Now as for (Pet Celestia). What an adorable concept for the story. I loved it! You know, I think I should do a one-shot where a pony likes to act like a pet with her human lover on rough days, and see what my fans think of the idea. I have a feeling it will be met quite well, because who can resist the dawww of a pony acting so cute?
989232
Awww...
DO IT! DO IT! DO EEEEEET!
A heart-wrenching idea to get you right in the feels... :(
A mare's being abused by her pony lover; mentally abused that is, called useless, worthless, treated roughly and perhaps slapped a bit for her perceived wrongs. Finally, the mare's stallion lover just up and tosses her away like garbage. Thus, she goes back to her human 'owner'/lover who she's been seeing on the side; BUT this is not some lust-driven affair, though. In all the time they've known each other the mare has never revealed herself, her sentience/sapience, to her human lover; she's always acted like a pet. Her human owner takes her for walkies, bathes her, scratchies behind her ears, pets and strokes her mane and coat everywhere, plays simple games with her; they go on picnics, strolls at night, etc.
She figures... 'if I can't get the love I need from a stallion as an Equestrian Pony then maybe this human will love me if I act this way....' She finds it a release to do this - and it should be written with lots of silliness, fluff, cuteness and d'awww - but at the same time underlying it all you know it's heart-wrenching and so sad because you know this poor abused mare is using the 'pet' play as an escape; to get the love and comfort she oh so desperately needs the only way she knows how... And then, one day - after this poor mare and her human owner have grown closer, and closer... the human finds out what's been going on; that someone's been abusing his friend/pet... Action is taken and in the end the mare finally does 'reveal' herself as sentient to her human and they officially come out and become mates. (She still acts like a pet a lot, despite this, though...)
987672
That was....good
.....that was really really good 
That was fantastic! Sad, but wow, that had a lot of good emotion behind it: I will honestly say I've never seen the "Green Mile" before, but my gosh...that was really really good
987689
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No problem :) - of course, bare in mind that I'm learning all the time too...I may be that I do away with these sorts of things entirely (maybe meditation IS a fraud, I grow tired of diary-entries and so on), feel they are not right for me, or whatever: I wouldn't deliberately try to lie to you, but I would try to offer you an idea that may have some benefits...if it works, it works, if it doesn't, well, hopefully something else will
Your work though
...it's like, everytime I hear about it, It sounds like you're unnecessarily struggling: that you say you are just doing it to make ends-meet doesn't actually surprise me. Are you actively trying to find something at the moment? Asking people questions? It doesn't necessarily have to be your dream job, but at least you can get another indefinite job until you get the creative job you want....one where you aren't pulling the night shift and have some more air to breath.
I hope I don't sound overbearing or controlling....it just sounds like you're struggling "just because", and I don't like that
.
Yes! The days are steadily getting warmer and longer, and I'm not complaining at all! It certainly does make your more energized
Wahoo! New ponies!
, I'll bet that they look adorable, especially Trixie....my gosh, that blue mare has such big eyes 
....and that rough voice, and flashy showmanship: she certainly has always been very close to me 
Hehe, I bet that technique looks so adorable...and I bet that it does work! You're writing love stories about ponies...of course cuddling with them would help! It probably helps put you "in the zone" with each of them, what they would say and how they would react...I certainly imagine it works well
As for how it looks...Jaydex, you don't need me to tell you that you're more then accepted....in a sense Jaydex, it's principle: you're in your 30's for goodness sake...if you can't be allowed to happily live your life in the manner you choose by now, then when? Perhaps it's just me, but I feel the older I get, the more I care less about how other people think of me....not in the same way as a teenager, but genuinely: I can happily say, for example, that I like Barbie movies and if people look at me funny, I'll just shrug my shoulders and move from it and genuinely not feel self-conscious about it...."live and let live" has taken on a much higher meaning, perhaps as well as it should.
As some point, you just don't give a hoot anymore, because you are only hurting yourself, forcefully denying yourself of things you would otherwise love but are made by others to feel ashamed as you get older and older...It's understandable that others may frown on certain things that you do, very often for your own benefit, but this isn't some overblown issue for goodness sake: this is simply about being allowed to share your gentle loves and interests, it's not that you are doing anything actually unlawful or hazardous (you could be, but you'd certainly have a harder time selling whatever it is if it were the case - but again, it's not that kind of issue).....it's like you said one time: your parents accept your interest because they recognize you could be doing a dozen worse things, or things that are actually dangerous....again, for goodness sake, this is about ponies -
The whole world could certainly use a lot more love and tolerance...but until that happens, better that you surround yourself with people who do
. I read a quote two days ago that I honestly never heard before but really liked: "Friends are the family we choose for ourselves"...It's been stuck in my head since, and given the theme of Friendship in the show, it seems really connected, and it's true...real family could be something we're stuck with for better or worse, but we can choose the friends we want and form the bonds that we never otherwise thought we could have in our real family...sort of like creating your own idealized family and getting a happiness you never thought you could have.
I can definitely say wholeheartedly that this fandom and the people I've met, were a very very good choice
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Good luck on your Rainbow Dash story! I can't wait to see what you're cooking up
. Oh, and one more thing.....yes, a bit random, but given that you said you wanted to do something with Vinyl, it actually crossed my mind if you had any love for Octavia: it's hard to forget everyone's favorite cellist ^^
Jaydex,
Pet!Luna...
And so it was that David let his hands roam wherever they wished upon his beloved Luna's body; he stroked her mane, caressed and scratched behind her ears, stroked her cheeks and massaged her jaw. "Have you been a good pony?" David crooned to Luna, kissing her nose. The Lunar Diarch giggled like a little filly before replying with a soft, foallike, "Yes..." David smiled, letting his hands roam over his beloved mare's midnight-blue coat and wings, easing tension Luna didn't even know she had. A moment later, however, pleasure groans turned unto laughter as her human lover tickled her in sensitive places. Nickering softly with joy, Luna turned to present her front to David and at that the human happily rubbed her belly than kiss-kiss-kissed her muzzle, sharing his breath with her. "Have you been a good girl...?" he crooned gently, Luna eyeing him shy and doelike as he carefully took one of her furred hooves in his hands and played with it, stroking and massaging. "I... bin' a good girl..." Luna replied softly. Her movements slow, deliberate and foallike, the Night Princess rolled onto her side, cuddled up to her beloved and then - perhaps because of childlike instinct - she started gently nibbling at a forehoof to relieve a little itch. When she was done with that, Luna nuzzled David here and there and he took the opportunity to scratch her withers.
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You are something else my friend. You got it right, I am struggling with my job, but it's the way it has to be. I've been trying to find something else, but the pickings are slim. I have a secret hope that is also a potential fear. My employer is slowly running their business into the ground. It's part of why I get stressed at times and lose focus on my writing. It's not that I have no drive, my job leaves me depressed at times. That's why I love writing and chatting with all or you and having my plush ponies. It helps make things bearable. Anyway, if things don't improve by our busy season, things will take one of two changes at my employer. A. Corporate will have to make some drastic improvements to our facility - to make things better (it'd be nice) or B. Close the plant and lay all of us off. While option two is a bit scary, I could get on unemployment for a while, and use that time to work on my new novel, as well as have time to look for something better. I'm confident my new novel (still in the works) "The Realm of Forgotten Magic" will be a good one. It will combine adventure with romance (like my Luna fic) and even a little mystery.
So, I don't know what to hope for. I've been looking. I'm going to check out a site and see if I can at least find a way to start promoting my first novel "Enchanted Destiny - Awaken". I've only got a few local fans that have bought copies so far, hopefully word of mouth is slowly spreading. I have a link posted on here, but it's hardly my best work, given how I've grown on here in the past year. That, and the summary doesn't do a good job of selling it. But it was the best I could come up with that would fit on the back cover. A proper summary would be way too long.
Right now, I Just take things day by day. You mentioned liking Barbie movies, I like them as well. And have a story (not Barbie related) but ties into a similar story. Back when I was little, before Transformers and G.I. Joe would come on, I used to watch G1 MLP and a show called Jem - and the Holograms. While the second 2 shows were aimed at girls, I found enjoyable stories in them. And just the other day, I was watching the Jem DVDs with my mom. In particular a favorite episode of mine called "Riot's Hope". Riot is the lead singer for a group on the show called the Stingers. He struggled for a while before fulfilling his dream of becoming a popular rockstar. And this song from that episode helped me find new hope and strength to hang in there and that maybe someday I'll make it too!
Now getting back to your other remarks.
Yes my new plushies are really adorable. Trixie and Vinyl are so cute and very cuddly. Now, those two want a shot at my number one pony spot. Celestia and Luna just keep facehoofing more and more. 
I'll have to share pics, maybe tomorrow or sometime this week.
You know my method of cuddling with my ponies does put me in the zone for my stories. I know hanging out with my Rainbow Dash has helped. I cranked out 1,400 words tonight on my Dashie fic and am now at a little over 1,800. Finally, I'm getting somewhere and have gotten even more excited about it!
Getting back to you liking the Barbie movies, I was thrilled to read that. I enjoy several of them, as does my mom. We've watch the Fairytopia specials several times. They are cute stories.
I really liked that quote you shared: "Friends are the family we choose for ourselves." That's very profound and quite fitting. In some ways I feel closer to my friends than certain family members.
And you're right, the older I get, the less I care about what others thing about what I do. That's why I share the pics of my plush ponies. I know many will enjoy them and I can easily ignore those who don't.
Well, I'd better get going. It's after 2am already. I should hit the hey. THough I slept and napped most of the day.
Dashie might like me, I enjoy napping, just like her. It's a side-effect of night-shift, wanting to nap a lot. Oh well. 
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Plus they give me plenty of food for thought! 
I love it! Thank you for sharing these with me. I appreciate it!
I'm starting to think about my 2nd-person pet/romance story. It won't be as in-depth as that other idea you shared, but I enjoyed it nonetheless.
987679 That's good to know, my mental handicap tends to make me think too seriously about the internet and can't always know for certain how someone takes to things I say even if I'm not insulting them (which does happen at times but I never feel satisfied if/when I do).
But dude, you put those pictures of penguins up but not any Adventure Time penguins? I am astounded!!
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It may surprise you, but I never really watched Adventure Time all that much. In fact I haven't seen an episode in a least a year. I just don't watch Cartoon Network anymore. Not since they gave up Transformers Animated, and Star Wars the Clone Wars became more than a little lackluster across seasons 3 and 4.
986014 Well, RAAM fights for the extinction of Humanity, and the survival of the Locust.
986396 No, he's twelve feet tall, he enjoys crushing puny Oomons under his boots, decapitating them with a knife, and stabbing them in the gut then flinging them like ragdolls. Also one time he ate a baby.
990434 Oh well it doesn't matter that much.
Anyway here's yet another song that always picks up my spirits no matter what:
I can't be sure if I've shared it yet but there it is all the same.
Jaydex,
David Meets Nightmare Moon (possible idea for "Total Eclipse of Their Hearts?")
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"Show her to me. I want to meet her," David said, softly.
At her beloved's gentle words, Princess Luna - her eyes misting over with tears - shakily nodded her head. Then, with a whispered incantation the Lunar Diarch became surrounded by a soft glow of moonlight... and upon their bed before David - as naked as the day her dam had foaled her - lay Nightmare Moon, the Dread Mare, the evil pony whom had dared to bring Eternal Night to the World. Unable to contain the emotions that held her within their cruel grasp, Nightmare Moon shuddered, a wracking sob escaping her as her tears began to fall. "Cruel moon, bring the end. The dawn will never rise again..." She crooned mournfully. A vile, wretched thing she felt she was! Here and now, Luna - Nightmare Moon - expected her beloved to turn his wrath upon her; she expected harsh, hate-filled words, a hurting hand, and then for him to leave. It had happened before; it would happen again, and thus, she braced herself for the worst. She heard David inhale a breath to speak; felt the movement of one of his hands as it inched closer to her dark form... and then her eyes snapped open - a surprised gasp escaping her - as that hand combed through her mane to scratch her behind the ears. 'He... he still loves us, even when we are like this' thought she, her more formal way of thinking returning with the change of form. 'Truly Faust has blessed us...'
"Th-Thou still loves and adores Us... e-even when... We are in this form?" she choked, gazing at him in awe, her gaze doe-like and shy. Without hesitation, David nodded, moving to cup her jet-black muzzle in his hands. Stroking her cheeks, gently massaging her jaw, he whispered, "Yes, of course I do. You're still Luna - just her, well, darker half - and you're enchanting and so very beautiful, and..." But Luna listened to him no longer for she was lost in her own thoughts; his words had struck so very deeply at her fragile vulnerable heart. "This..." she choked, overcome with emotion, "this is more than We could have ever dreamed of. A-All... all we have ever wanted... was to be loved." Broken beyond all pride and ego, Nightmare Moon tangled David up in a snarl of hooves, body and wings, squeezing her eyes closed as she wept bitterly into his chest, perhaps for the first time exorcising much of the pain of a thousand lonely years... Even as she cried, she knew - fiercely so! - that David's words were true. Even as she wept for those lost, lonely years, she could feel her human's touch; David was gently petting and stroking her - her ears, her mane, her neck, back, flanks, thighs and even her hooves - everywhere his hands could reach. She reveled in that touch - clutching her human as one might grasp a life-preserver in a storm - weeping fiercely, each sob another ounce of pain washed away.
When at last her cries faded Nightmare Moon drew in a softened breath as said cries were replaced by a different sound; that of her beloved singing. And, oh! The song he sung... "Night time sharpens / Heightens each sensation / Darkness wakes / And stirs imagination / Silently the senses / Abandon their defenses / Helpless to resist the notes I write / For I compose the music of the night..." It was all she could do to listen, fresh tears escaping her as she realized that this song - this "Music of the Night", so beautiful and gentle - was for her and her alone; with it David was venerating, worshiping, and loving her and all that she was. "Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendor / Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender / Turn your face away from the garish light of day / Turn your thoughts away from cold unfeeling light / And listen to the music of the night..." On and on he sang and Nightmare Moon drank in every note, every word. By the time the song ended, the poor mare was laid out, her head atop her human's chest, overwhelmed and shattered yet feeling utterly whole and more valid than she'd ever felt in her life...
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Ghhhhh.... I'm not crying; j-just.... just dust in my eyes...
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Darn you! I barely made it half way through before I had to reach for my plush Luna, and hold her close with tears trying to force their way into my eyes. That was another beautiful bit from you! I loved it!
BTW, I won't go into details, but since the beginning, I've planned on David meeting Nightmare Moon, but not quite in the way you've portrayed. It will be a much more emotionally involved event, which will push David to his limits, but will have a very touching and teary resolution and this is outside the events surrounding the villains as well. I so need to update my Luna fic.
Oh, for some time off to write my heart out! 
Oh well, all things come in their own time, I can wait. 
Well, I certainly hope things improve for you, one way or another - you say you can handle the night shift, and I suppose I have no reason not to believe you...still, you say you are struggling with your job, so I hope you do end up finding something better or conditions improve - either way, that things become better for you
Right, you are trying to be a novel...indeed Jaydex, your skills have improved - I haven't reviewed your old stories yet, but I plan too, and I have been reading your Applejack story to start with: again, I haven't reviewed it yet, but I can plainly tell, looking at the writing and your latest stories, that their is a definite improvement. There is always room to grow, and indeed the critiques that you have received lately are spot-on (such as trying to make sure the characters are more with how they should be), though I have defended your works as a matter of taste: as ever, I enjoy your endlessly sweet writings, though I can see why others disagree, and I love how descriptive your writing is.
Hehe, I remember you say you liked the original MLP...indeed, you certainly seem to have a taste for 80's cartoons
. It's wonderful that watching them perks you up and reminds you to keep pushing forward 
- I've honestly never hard or seen that Jems cartoon before.
My gosh, you definitely have a herd now - as far as I know....that's Twilight/Luna/Celestia/RD/Trixie/Vinyl...is there anyone else?
. I bet, for every character, you buy a plushie of them to help with your writing 
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Indeed - I've been on a Barbie movie marathon, and trying to watch them all one by one....I love how, recurringly, Kathleen Barr (Trixie/Queen Chrysalis) and Britt Mcklip (Cadance) have roles in those movies, though occasionally you'll see other FiM VA's as well...I love trying to recognize each of them
Indeed, you certainly have nothing to fear from your friends in expressing yourself...that's, after all, why you have them
. Express yourself as much as you like, and don't let others bring you down....after all, they want the same thing and to be able to express themselves openly with their friends 
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Sleep as much as you can, and try to take it easy
Here's another for you!
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(Celestia tells Luna about role-playing as a pet for Daniel...)
Her eyes narrowed and a frown upon her muzzle, Luna glared at Celestia unhappily. "You..." she broke off, unable to continue, than took a deep breath and started again. "You let Daniel treat you like a... like a pet? Like a... like a slave? Doth he become your master, and wrap you within chains? Beat you, and whip you? I shalt kill him for such utter disrespect!" she thundered.
At her sister's harsh words, Princess Celestia shook her head, as she replied, "Oh, no-no-no-no-no-no... Lulu, you don't understand! When I say pet I mean it literally; I allow Daniel to treat me as a pony from his world; as a domesticated animal..." The Solar Matriarch lapsed into silence as her sister's expression turned thunderous!
"That..." Luna struggled to speak, "... that is even worse!" she screamed, almost lapsing into the Royal Canterlot Voice. "Tell me sister, doth he make you eat hay? Doth he make you sleep in the palace stables? Make you... d-do your business outside on the grass?"
At this point poor Celestia just couldn't take it anymore. "NO HE DOESN'T! LET ME EXPLAIN!" she howled, employing her own version of the Royal Canterlot Voice, causing Luna's eyes to widen.
"Then..." the Lunar Diarch uttered softly, "then explain it to me, sister. Tell me how he treats you when you play at being a..." she grimaced in distaste, "...a pet, for him."
Celestia nodded. "At the end of the roughest days of court," she began, "after we share the evening meal, Daniel and I return to our quarters. He knows when my days are rough; usually he has things prepared beforehand. Once we're in my chambers, I remove my Royal Regalia and then he and I enter the bath chambers..."
Stomping a hoof impatiently, Princess Luna growled, "And... what then?"
"Then... he bathes me..." Celestia replied, her mind awash in memory.
"Bathes you?" the Lunar Diarch prompted. "I thought your attendants helped you wash..."
"Not anymore" Celestia replied. "He... Daniel sent them packing and now he bathes me himself! He washes my face, mane, and body, Lulu, cleaning the day's sweat and grime from me so... so very gently, giving me a massage at the same time. His hands and f-fingers can do things to you and reach places that pony hooves just can't and the feel of his touch upon my body... mmh..."
Her eyes wide - feeling a little flustered by the vivid images racing through her mind - Luna licked her lips before softly rasping, "And after he bathes you... what then?"
"Daniel helps me from the bath and then dries me off with a large, wonderfully fluffy towel," Celestia answered promptly. "After that, we return to our bedchamber; there he... he caresses my neck with his hands as he puts my collar on. It's a simple thing, made of leather and fleece-lined - like a dog's collar - with a tag with my name on the front, and Daniel's Earth Address on the back. Once my collar's on, that's when I truly stop being Princess Celestia and become his pet, just... just Celly. We... we'll be on the bed together then, him sitting and me stretched out with my head in his lap. He... he feeds me, Lulu... by h-hand..."
Awed by the bliss suffusing her beloved sister's voice, Princess Luna swallowed thickly before she rasped, "Wh-What does he feed you?"
"Simple things for a simple pony" the Solar Diarch replied. "Fresh hay, fresh grasses, flowers, baby carrots and corn, and sometimes a special 'mash' of oats, grains and bran carefully mixed with this stuff from his home called molasses; it's like a very thick kind of syrup, stickly, tasty and warm..." Celestia licked her lips, overcome with the memory of Daniel feeding her those oh-so-sweet baby carrots and of eating a thick, sticky warm ball of the bran mash right from her beloved's gentle hand. "... And even as I eat, he's always petting me with a hand, stroking along my neck or combing his fingers through my mane..." she murmured.
Fanning herself with a wing - 'Is it hot in here all of a sudden?' - Princess Luna whispered, "And after that? What does he do then, Celly?"
"He lets me roll around on the bed awhile; lets me kick my legs in the air and wriggle about 'till I'm comfortable... and then he starts petting me, my jaw, my cheeks, my mane, my ears, my back, wings, and sides, m-my flanks, my hooves... and... everywhere..."
At this, Luna's eyes became impossibly wide. "E-Everywhere?" she squeaked.
Overcome with emotion, Celestia blushed like a school filly and nodded, an ecstatic shudder making her fall to her haunches. "Everywhere..." she whispered. "Oh, Faust, Lulu... his touch... mmh... his t-touch... I feel as if I've gone to join the Great Herd; as if I've entered the Elysium Fields... And then... then, when I'm so contented and sleepy I can barely comprehend a thing he'll have me move so we can get into bed proper. He spoons me, Lulu, did you know that? Daniel holds me so closely, an arm thrown over my barrel - or sometimes I'll sleep with my head atop his chest."
Squeezing her eyes tightly shut even as they misted with tears, Celestia whimpered as she fought to overcome the turmoil of emotion rolling through her. "His love... it overwhelms me; I could drown in it; I could die in it and it wouldn't matter at all because he makes me so happy, Lu. B-Before he came..." she rasped, "I... I was always so alone, so cold, Lulu. Now... n-now everything's so... so warm. I'm always warm!" Luna looked on as joyous sobs wracked her sister's body, Celestia smiling so honestly, so genuinely even as she wept, happy tears falling from her eyes, down her muzzle to drip unto the office floor. Her own eyes misty, a lump stuck in her throat, the Lunar Diarch was at that moment overcome by a little insanity - 'I... I want that!' - and made to race from the room in search of Daniel and such bliss!
Her efforts were thwarted, however as Celestia playfully tackled her down onto the plush carpet, "Noooo!" Celestia said, giggling through her tears. "You go get your own human, David, and show him what to do; Daniel's mine!"
"But... Daniel... more... experience!" Luna grunted, struggling to free herself. Celestia - Celly - just shook her head and tickled her beloved sister until Luna howled with laughter, giving her the occasional little peck on the nose!
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Even if you're not sure what to say, saying anything is fine. I appreciate your comments, they are always long, fun and informative. They make me smile!
As for my work schedule, I know at times it seems like I'm struggling, but I do get by. It's just been a rough year (workwise), but I'm hanging in there. I rest when I need to and writing these pony stories helps to rejuvenate me!
I too have seen the improvement in my skills, and I only hope I can keep getting better as I work on more stories and even novels.
I'm glad you like how descriptive my writing it. I used to get flack for a lack of description back in the day, so I learned how to improve on that. Now, I enjoy giving plenty of detail to form an immersing world that my readers can feel like they are part of! 
There a quite a few mares in my herd. Let's see, there's: Nurse Redheart, Aloe & Lotus, Derpy, Cadence, Twilight, Celestia, Luna, Vinyl, Trixie, Rainbow Dash, and Lyra. I know some of the ones mentioned I haven't done stories about yet, but having plushies of them will certainly help.
As I said, I'll have to share more pics of them. 
It's always good hearing from you! Take care, and I'll be sure to rest!