An Update · 1:45am Feb 25th, 2013
I feel obliged to at least give you all an update on how things are going. It's been awhile since I've released or updated anything, and it may still be a bit longer before I do. It's just I'm finding it very difficult to cope with my life at the moment. I switched my medication and started on lithium a couple months ago, and if you did not know, I have rapid cycling bipolar disorder. I've switched medication before, and I've always found it's hard to get used to at first. Anyway, recently I've tried to stop taking it for the most part. Because either it didn't effect me at all, or it just gave me several undesirable side effects. I may try to change my medication, yet again... Or maybe I'll just stop taking it all together. The medication has never really helped me much, I don't know if there's even a point in taking it at this point.
I wish I could write, I wish I could update my stories a lot more often. But with the severity of my mood swings I find it almost impossible. I can't stand writing when I'm depressed, nor can I when I'm manic. Really the only time I can write are the brief periods in-between each episode. I know all of you deserve so much more than these month long hiatuses, but honestly I can't do it. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my mind, what with all these constant ups and downs. But, I'll try to update as often as I can. God knows writing is the only thing I can do right...
All I can say is I respect your integrity and thank you for the update.
It's ok, you still have less mental problems than me.
Sounds more like manic depression to me than rapid cycling bipolar disorder, whatever that entails. Of course, only know of the former thanks to a specific TV show that ended some years ago, with one character that had it, even though he was on medication apparently the whole time until someone else made him go off it by mistake.
Anyway, that being said, sorry to hear that. Have been wondering what happened to ya maybe, and almost thought this would be good news about the Discolight story/possible series, but it's fine if no news and at least letting us know you're still kicking. Sorry if things aren't going well, I know I've had urges to write but I haven't taken medications for any things I've got (OCD, Autism (specifically Asperger's), ADHD, that's about it for what I know I have) in years, at least those I was on medication for before got doctor to take me off kinda, from what I remember.
Try not to let it get me down much, though I have sometimes wondered if would help with my creative process of writing more frequently. //dl.dropbox.com/u/31471793/FiMFiction/emoticons/shrug_Luna_apple.png Anyway, point I'm trying to make is if you think it'll help, go ahead and take it. However, if you think your medication for it won't help much, then try without it, even if sounds like your one condition is somewhat worse than my several are, no offense. 
Hope you get your spark and motivation back soon! But will continue to wait until you're ready, long as I'm around here and into this fandom.
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Well manic-depression is bipolar disorder, it's just an older name for it. Rapid cycling is not in itself a diagnosis, but it's more of a characteristic that can be applied to someone. Most bipolar people have episodes that last generally for a few weeks, but those that have rapid cycling have episodes that last days or sometimes even hours.
I would like to get the Discolight story out soon, but as I said it's just very difficult to write at times. It's interesting that you mention creativity, because there's actually a lot of bipolar people who are amazing writers and artists. I'd like to think that I'm a decent writer because of this, though that may just be a bit of optimistic thinking. I think that there must be some sort of connection with creativity and mental illnesses, seeing as how closely they seem to be related.
I still don't know what I'll do about the medication. I guess there's just a lot of stuff in my life I have to settle before I can go back to writing. I thank you for the concern, and hopefully I'll be able to get some inspiration in the future.