Hiatus · 6:54am February 11th
I can't really explain to you what is going on in my life. A lot of it is confidential and not something that I am at liberty to discuss online.
But it has taken its toll on me. When will I be back to writing? I don't really know anymore. I've been trying to get back into it but emotionally I'm way too drained to do this anymore. I don't even know if I want to be back or if I will be back.
I do not want to be a pussy. I don't want to just give up but life just won't give me a goddamn win right now. I'm trying to brute-force life into giving me a win and it's just not going through.
Sadly, that's the reality for your boy Teofilo. The norm is me being isolated, alone and being an outcast. Being someone who has to be the butt of the joke in everything. These flash-in-the-pan moments of happiness? They come and go... And I have no clue how to make them last.
It is not possible to be happy all the time. I am not delusional. But I just wish I could just get more from life. But sadly, my 100% just is not enough and it never will be enough.
Well, it is what it is now. This blog will not be acknowledged. It will not be read. I will continue to hope that with enough brute-force life will eventually force a win for me. It is what it is.
I know you stated, this post won't be read or responded but good luck bro. I hope you find your way
Damn, sounds tough.