I'm not afraid to die. · 9:23pm Dec 1st, 2023
No, don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal.
The thing is... this morning, I fell ill. It was probably a couple days ago when it actually started, but despite repeated measuring, I didn't have a fever. That changed last night- my temperature shot from normal to a moderate fever overnight, left me with no energy to anything when I got up.
And as I thought about it, in the early morning hours, while I waited for sleep to take me once again... I realized that while I won't seek it, I'm not afraid of death.
Dumbledore said that, "to the well organized mind", death is but the next great adventure.
My mind is far from well organized, but I still find myself viewing death as the next great adventure.
It's like... do you watch anime? Are you familiar with the standard Isekai story, and what kind of person the protagonist usually is?
That's me. I'm a classic Isekai protagonist. Loner, working harder than I probably should, very little exercise... I suppose the main difference is that rather than "no job" or "office job", I'm driving Truck-kun, so I'm constantly walking around near other Truck-kuns, which makes it easier to get run over by one. It makes it harder to save someone from being run over, but that's not a requirement for the Isekai.
So on the off chance that this disease- probably COVID- actually kills me... I'll be moving on to the next great adventure.
I just hope I get to be a girl.
I don’t know how to respond to that,
Maybe, what do you think will happen after you die?
Well I hope you can start feeling better.
Hope you feel better! I honestly kind of admire that outlook, I start having an existential crises when I think about dying. I hope you do feel better soon though, rooting for a swift recovery
Good news! Either it wasn't COVID, or my historically strong immune system curbstomped it anyways! Fever's all gone and now I just need to wait for what I call the 'cleanup phase' to finish- you know, when the fever's all gone but you're still coughing/sneezing up a storm because there's still a ton of (defeated) contagion to remove.
But no matter how unthreatened I feel by any of the very real threats to my life I drive past every day, this disease clearly isn't one of them!