Nov
19th
2023
Guess it's another quiet end of the year for this pony. I hope it's a good quiet for you. · 4:18am Nov 19th, 2023
Most of my work is occurring in a greentext writing style, right now. It’s easy to pour out some happy thoughts in green-paced set pieces. I’ll DM you if you’d like to read some things about bats, bits about OCs of mine and friends, Reckless in Training, and maybe my attempts at NSFW/more vitriolic works.
All those quick explorations don’t make the desire to write prose go away, though. They’re stories, but not good enough. But at least if I weren’t here right now, I’d at least be happy with what I’ve created and left on Fimfiction.
The only good thing I have going as far as my own self, now, is that I don’t get the suicidal thoughts anymore.
Instead, it’s the inevitable emptiness.
I fear most letting others down. I’ve lost a lot of control to the point that I’m just openly here doing this.
Sorry.
It feels slightly weird to have a glimpse into another's soul or inner mind process like that, but then again, isn't that what writing and artistry are for?
Share whatever you want and in whatever form you desire. You will be heard or read, at least that I can guarantee.
Don't succumb to that emptiness. It's too easy. You always can be filled with something.
I was in similar hole for a long time. Every one got different experience so it is hard to actually compare things. For me it helped to accept things and try to enjoy little things. Hope things get better for you for I know how much it can suck.
As for short stories you are writing it would be nice to be shared. Some could be done though blog posts or linked here, different formats aren't that bad thing.
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Thanks. Might do something.
Oh hun. *hugs* By chance do you have someone to talk to, a therapist or counselor I mean?
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I do have access, yes.