an update

I just wanted to get this off my chest real quick, because it's been bugging me. I don't really expect anyone to be reading this anyways, but at least I think I'll feel better about myself after this.

Anyways, time for some history. Back when I was, what, nine at the time? (yes, I know, that's pretty young) I got into this website, where I found a bunch of cool fan fictions that I read, all by really good authors. Yes, I've been with this website for quite some time. Back then, anything that I saw was cool, I wanted to replicate it. And so my writing journey began. I made an account with a name that I'm not going to put on here, for privacy reasons, as I have a youtube channel with that username that I don't want anybody finding is associated with this account. Some person out there probably knows what I'm talking about, so if that's you, please don't say anything about it.

As I was saying, I was really stupid at the time. Very influenced by the things I saw around me, like this one time I wrote a story called "The Butterfly Effect" or something like that, based off of an episode of The Amazing World Of Gumball that I saw. I felt kind of stupid after I learned that that is just another way of saying the domino effect or something like that. Point is, not my best time.

In fact I was so embarrassed that I literally quit my account, said my goodbyes, and that was it. Only one year of my account being used and it was abandoned. However, I couldn't get this damn website out of my head. I kept thinking about how I loved the stories, and how now I've actually gotten better at writing, and I could write some pretty basic stuff with an actual plot and not just, "oh yeah my favorite character gets super overpowered and thats it". And so here I am now.

I've picked this account back up, changed my user so no one remembers my past self, and I deleted all of my previous stories and blogs, burying the past deep into the ground. And well, I guess that past has been bugging me, so I wanted to get this damn annoying feeling off my chest.

I just wanted to say that I'm not like that anymore. This time, I actually have a story that I'm writing, with plot and all. Plans on my story. Not good plans, but they're plans. I'll admit, there's times where I ask for advice, but never use it, and I feel extremely bad about that. Some comment on one of my first blogs since coming back giving me story ideas scared the crap out of me, but I've actually gotten around to it. I'm not entirely sure how to write it, but I actually have a story that's just sitting there, waiting to be finished. Published. I'm not spoiling anything, but to the person who made that comment, you probably know who you are, I'm just letting you know that I didn't just throw your advice into the garbage, and that I'm actually doing something with it.

I've watched many videos on how to get better at writing, invoke feeling, use better verbs, adjectives, adverbs, you name it. Slowly, I've been improving (I hope). Hopefully, I don't just throw away this account like I did my last.

If you do have some actual writing advice for me, I'd be glad to hear about it! I'm kind of struggling with writing romance and comedy, and just writing in general. And if you've actually taken some time to read this entire blog, thanks. It means a lot to me. Even though I have no idea who you are. Anyways, cheers, mate. 🍻

Note: I tagged the story that I'm currently working on. Take a read if you'd like!