My Brother is Dying · 2:51am Sep 10th, 2023
To be fair, we all sort of knew this was coming. My brother started dialysis about 2 years ago because he has kidney failure and, for reasons I won't go into here, he is simply not eligible for a transplant. Once you start dialysis you're expected to live about 10 to 15 years. If you're lucky. So we all thought he had around another 10.
The news dropped about 2 weeks ago that he isn't one of the lucky ones. A number of his test scores have suddenly plummeted. Doctors are saying he'll be dead by next June. Less than a year. And the worst part? It won't be in a hospital bed. He has the great privilege of a sudden death. When a blood clot forms in his brain. There is no way to know exactly when it will happen. He could go at any time.
Granted, him and me hadn't talked in about 10 years. We were basically enemies. Then the news reached me through our mom. Then he called me. It was a strangely normal conversation. I knew he was going to die soon. He knew that I knew and that there was nothing we could do. So... we talked about cooking. Shared recipes and tricks. It was weird. I don't know how to feel. Two weeks into the news and my thoughts are still a twisted mess. For 10 years I've hated him. He still hasn't apologized for the insults and threats he made all those years ago. I'm confused. I don't know what to do. If anything.
I apologize. I had just gotten Flutterbutt Crush out and was ready to finish the Cheerilee story for a release around now, but then I got this news and it's killed my focus. I haven't been able to do much of anything lately. I was debating with myself if I should even share this. After all, it's family business. My problem to deal with. But whatever. Now you know what's going on.
Real life is a bitch. Just when you think everything is under control, the next avalanche starts.
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My condolences man. Hope you stay fine through all this.
thats rough, but stay strong. We are all here, if you want to talk. Dont push yourself, your own wellbeing comes first.
Shit man... Sorry your going through that.
Just know that even if there are no likes, even if there are no comments, people still read what you post (whether or not you see that as a good thing is up to you. life's a bitch at times and honestly i dunno what advice i could give that would help.)