48 hours of Suppression (For Christmas) · 12:30pm Dec 26th, 2022
And BTW: My other Blog has been updated.
https://www.fimfiction.net/blog/1004247/starfleet-magic-10-years
During highly religious holidays (Namely Christmas) I try to act a little more moral for the time.
So, between the 24th to the 26th of December, I try to suppress as much of my negativity as I can...
-No swearing
-No meltdowns
-No saying "I want Revenge" on real people (I say it constantly every day) I can still get revenge on cartoons
-No getting up out o my chair and ROLEPLAYING or imagining beating people up
(I do it to let steam out and reflect on possible consequences if I actually did this to real people)
...All for 48 hours until the 26th (When Christmas Day is over)
Oh, but it hurts! I was cringing as hard as Rarity was in SISTERHOOVES SOCIAL to keep my cool.
Even my folks rtied to convince me that what I was doing was silly and that I should just let it out!
"You're only human, and humans get angry. Go on, let it out... swear, do your thing, but stop hurting yourself like this."
Oh, it hurt so much to suppress the steam and not be able to let it off to keep cool and calm.
...I bet even a doctor would tell me that suppressing like that is indeed unhealthy.
At least now I have more strength in what I do (Writing fanfics, making vids, and harmlessly Rping by myself) is a GOOD thing, and suppressing the rage is NOT.
That does sound unhealthy.