What Makes a monster? Who titles a monster as such? Why is it always their judgement that hurts us? When does a monster stop being one to the world that fears it? Where do they send the monsters when they are done with them? How is any of this fair?
What Makes a monster? Who titles a monster as such? Why is it always their judgement that hurts us? When does a monster stop being one to the world that fears it? Where do they send the monsters when they are done with them? How is any of this fair?
Reborn in a world of ponies, this man turned beast, is lost and wherever he goes ponies fear him. Even when he save some ponies and tries to make friends, all that happens is fear. will he give them something to fear or will he continue doing good deeds and seek out help?
This is my first story and it will be a rough start. Sense i'm new at this suggestions would be appreciated, whether they be grammar, punctuation, inconsistencies, or what you think should be added to the story. If you have a suggestion feel free to say them.
Do you know what it is like to die? I didn't until recently. I was your average person, living life the way anyone would. I would wake up to the sound of my alarm clock and try to get up. mot of the time it would work and i'd get showered, dressed, and ready to walk out of my small apartment. Then i'd sit down whether it be at home or at some coffee shop for breakfast. After that i'd head over to my office.
I work for a small company working 5 to 6 days a week and getting paid at the end of every month. I earned a good 6 digest pay, so I wasn't struggling or anything. but it was hard work. I did any and all paperwork backup that is leftover from the late night workers. Its different papers each time and i'll spare you the details. Until around noon, I work hard. Then I head home for lunch, which is often small.After lunch I wait to be called in by my boss for extra work, while I study to get into collage. If there was work i'd work until it was done and then i'd get dinner. If not then I'd study until 6:00 and then have dinner. Then head to bed afterwards.
On my off days, I would enjoy a nice free day where I watch a kids show that i have come to enjoy. It is called My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic. When there are new episodes i'd watch them. some episodes were good and others not so good in my opinion. But when there was no new episode, i'd go to a website called Fimfiction.com and read fan made stories of fans, who take their works of art and post them for the whole world to see. Sadly I was not one of these people.. I just read the stories, when I could. From weekends to the occasional weekday, the weeks passed by.
This routine has lasted for five years. there were road bumps along the way. I wont doubt that. In high school I worked a low wage restaurant job and while I can say that it helped me become social, I can also say that the bosses there were drunk, racist, sexiest, violent, and disrespectful until they got arrested for one thing or another. I mean one of them beat his girlfriend in the store right in front of two off duty cops. What an idiot. Another one got caught stealing money by a costumer. So long story short, I was glad to be out of there.
Now back in high school, I got pretty good grades. I got A's, B's, and every now and then a C. So my family rarely bothered me for that. In fact they almost always left me alone. My dad worked for some oil company and my mom worked on the computer for some company designing and creating what looked like basic programming. They were always doing something so I rarely interacted with them. This allowed me to become independent and I cant thank them enough for there support of my life choices. But it is probably that exact reason why am dead now.
Now I know what you are thinking. No I wasn't any sort of criminal of any guy hocked on drugs. I was raised with respect and kindness. I always paid my bills, paid attention when I drove, threw all of my trash away, and helped anyone I could. Hell, I almost never got mad, even then I would talk it out instead of getting violent. I was a saint to any religious people who got to know me. The only thing that got me killed was being alone and predictable. I'll tell you right now the only reason i'm dead is because I got home while the place was being robbed.
All week I had had been called back into work after lunch to do some extra work done. Day in and day out. More paperwork than we had had before. My boss told all of us that some event was going down on Monday and we had no time to slack. Each paper was different than the last, but every one of them needed to be filled, approved or disprove, and then copied. More that once, we ran out of paper and coffee for the employees. I was running to and throw, getting as much work done that I could. Twice I had to bring lunch to work instead of going home.
Everyone including the boss was so stressed that come Thursday, the boss actually bought lunch and breakfast for anyone who arrived early and staying for lunch. That day everyone was getting other peoples way and yet they were working better together than I have seen that office work together since i was hired. Imagine a stampeding hoard of elephants then add them protecting their young in the middle while doing that. That would be the most on point imaginary I can think of. In fact most of the stampeding was me running back and forth to place.
I did so well that my boss came up to me Friday morning and right then and there gave me the day off. I was so shocked that I went right home, only to find my door open and people yelling inside. So the first thing I did was call the cops. Told them the situation and they told me to wait outside and to not confront them. What I didn't expect was for the robbers to come out, look at me, yell at me for being late, and then pull me inside.
It was then that I met the boss thief. He then proceeded to call the henchmen a moron, telling them that I was the owner of the apartment. Then we all heard police sirens and the boss looked at me, pulled out a hand gun, and the proceeded to shot me point blank in the head. his shot must have been wrong because, first i saw red clouding my vision, then I started loosing feeling to my body. Everything had slowed down. I heard the cops busting in, the robbers panicking and yelling, gunshots and voices. All I could see was red. All I could feel was my nerves loosing feeling as the feeling travailed up my body. and the last thing I remember, is me wishing one cold and awful thing.
I said "I wish that this was not the end and I wish I had someone to love." and then a portal opening up and I saw a face that I never thought i'd see. It was a face I knew well, even though it currently showed fear, shock, and hatred, it was a face that brought me joy. Then I blacked out in front of the beautiful creature or pony that went by a name that would later haunt my dreams for a long time. This pony as your probably wondering was the majestic goddess of the night, Princess Luna.
Have you ever woken up screaming into what you thought was real life only to find yourself stuck in a dream? That is exactly what happened to me. I saw the images of my death flash before me and then stood up to what looked like an empty void. I was mentally tired. I thought that I had been rescued or was now dead and waiting judgment. Either way there was nothing to do for what seemed like a long time. Which probably means that it was a minute or two to other people. Don't blame me, I was bored. Have you ever had nothing to do except think about what you have done with your life and have nothing to look at except back as far as the eye can see, and yet you are still able to see your body. it gets dull fast.
Anyway away from my ranting self. I was in pitch darkness and most people know how one feels when total darkness becomes bright all of a sudden, know that it isn't pleasant. Up above me a moon had appeared and a face appeared on it. one that seemed to recognize me and seemed quite familiar. I immediately realized why., as Princess Luna dropped down from it and looked at me in a state of confusion and then anger. I wonder why, but soon get my answer. Very loudly.
"Who are you and where is the demon who is suppose to be inside this body? " Shouted Princess Luna.
Now is where any sane man would walk away, tell her your name, or respond by screaming about her yelling. I however am no sane man. Mostly because my first answer is to say "what a pretty pony princess. I going to keep you." in the most drunk way possible. I then decided to start collapsing and pretending to be dead, by falling face first onto the floor below me. Yeah not my brightest moments, but what can you do when one moment you think you're dead and the next you are being screamed at by a dream goddess.
"What?" said a very confused Princess Luna.
"That's my line, sister. " I said, not really sure how my hearing wasn't damaged.
that moment dragged on with us staring at each other with confusion and interest. I decided to be a gentleman and asked her for her to ask her question again, only softer.
"Oh yeah. sorry. I can get a bit loud sometimes." said Luna. "Anyway, I was wondering where I was. This was suppose to be the mind of a evil creature who has been on the loose from Tartarus after being born there. I was about to battle it only for it to collapse and cry. I went into its mind only to wind up here after a while of searching this void."
"Well I am neither a beast from Tartarus, nor am I here to fight or kill anyone." I said. I was about to tell her my name when I realized that I had no idea what my name was. I was drawing a blank. I forgot all the names of all the people I knew. I knew what each looked like and acted like, but all the names from my life were gone. Whisked away like some leaf in the wind. How does one remember there entire life but forget all the names? I didn't knew and that scared me. Like a whole lot. She must have sensed my inner turmoil, because she asked me the one question I had an answer for.
"Are you doing alright?" Luna asked.
"No!" I almost screamed. "I am as far from alright, as a camel is from any frozen wasteland. I forgot my own mane. I forgot my family's names. All I know is that I should be dead and instead of that i'm stuck in my own head, trying to be calm and its not working."
I'm pretty sure I broke her at this point. I believe this, because everything got quiet. Like really quiet. I looked over at her and found her looking at the floor, looking very sad. I had just basically yelled at her for nothing. She looked like she wanted to comfort me, but at the same time, it looked like she wanted to not be reminded of something. I started wondering what, until I remembered Nightmare Moon. She knew exactly what I was going through. Stuck in ones head is never fun, especially when your not the one in control of it. I decided to be the bigger man a comfort her.
"Hey. Hey. It's ok. Look, I'm sorry for shouting. I know this situation is probably stressing you as much as me. Come here. I won't hurt you." I said as I hugged her. All I felt then was shame and light tears rolling down my shoulder onto my shirt.
After a while of us hugging I asked 'You want to help me think of a name for myself? I promise it'll be fun and that the shouting and anger will stop. Ok?"
"O-ok." Luna crocked out as she pulled away smiling at me.
"See, that's better now. I'd hate to see a pretty lady cry if I can help it." I said while smiling and wiping the glistening tears still stuck to her face like tiny diamonds.
"You are kind stranger. Very kind for somepony in your situation. I think I know the perfect name for you. From now on you will be know as Flameheart Guillotine, for your kind heart and strong spirit.'
I looked at her and said with a smile "I would be honored to except the name you have given me, princess."
"Great to hear, my friend. but I must leave now. I will be there when you wake and will help you as much as I can, but for now it is goodbye, for the world waits for no mare. Also please just call me Luna. i would prefer us to be friends rather than strangers." Luna said
"I'd like that very much Luna. I guess i'll see you in the outside world?" I asked
She nodded and then floated up into the air towards the moon. Then as quick as she was there, she was gone leaving me alone again in the void. I sat there thinking. I had a new name and a new friend already. I was excited and couldn't wait to wake up in the colorful land that was Equestria.
Have any of you ever wake up from a dream expecting to wake up to what your dream had promised you only to wake up to find a nightmare awaited you. Yeah that is how I was feeling when I woke up. Mostly because I woke up to the most terrifying sounds imaginable. Sound that could drive one insane if forced to listen to it for too long. That's right I woke up in a dungeon. Not just any dungeon. one where they hold anyone and everyone. from the supposed innocent to the most vial murders and rapists to the most insane people out there. I was in a holding innocent, where people go before having there fate decided by court.
I looked around desperate to see the princess that visited me during the night, but for some strange reason she was nowhere to be found. In fact, the only company I had was a pair of guards, who glared and flinched ever time they looked at me. I was wonder why and decided to look down at myself to see what made them flinch in such a way. Only to let out one of the most blood curtailing scream to ever come out of me in years.
Have you ever seen a decaying body before. If you have then you know they are not the most pleasant thing to see. Now imagine said body was moving like little creators were living in it's flesh, but not breaking the surface of the skin or wiggling out of one of the many holes in a body, like the eyes, ears, nose, or other places. That is exactly what my body looked like. My hands were now like claws and bone like. Then imagine a starving human and make it look like the ribs are puncturing threw the flesh and charred black like a piece of coal. Then lets add my tail, which looked like it had come from a dragon, only its has a stringer at the end. Then there's my legs and feet. My legs were like my ares, they were long dragon arms with the same looking flesh as the rest of my body, but they were filled out with muscle and were fairly long. Then there were my feet. They were more like the talons you would find on a bird or lizard, but more human shaped and with more toes. I counted five up front and one in the back of my feet. I couldn't see my back or my head at the moment so I told myself to check those out later when I got the chance.
While I was looking myself over, the room had gone abnormally quiet. The quiet is what had alerted me to something happening around me. I looked up. There in front of my cage was four ponies. These ponies i was familiar with, but not wanting them to know that, I kept my mouth shut. Who were these ponies, you ask. Well they were Princess Celestia, Luna, and the two guards from the entrance. I would have been overjoyed to see them if there faces hadn't been ones of discomfort to me. Princess Celestia was beyond mad, She had a face that would scare the bravest people I knew as well as the bravest people on my planet. I mean not only was her hair (mane) on fire, but it was radiating a large amount of heat. Luna was looking both uncomfortable and scared. It was almost like she thought I was going to do something.
This confused me. I mean we were talking in the dream and had become friends, so why did she look like she didn't even know me. I mean first her promise to be here when i woke up was a bit late and now my friend was there not helping me out of this situation at all. Instead it looked as if she had told her sister that I was not only a threat, but also a personal one. I mean how else could her sister have been this mad before even meeting me. This was not going to end well if I was right.
"Hello your Highness. What seems to be bothering you?" I asked them with as much of a calm voice as I could make.
All of a sudden, the very angry Princess Celestia just stopped looking angry. Her head of fire disappeared and was replaced with her aurora like mane. her face was one of confusion, like she hadn't expected me to show her any respect or show any sort of intelligence. Luna was different however. Her expression had changed from scared to shocked and what looked like a little bit of hope. I think I genially shocked or amazed them. The guards this whole time had not changed from the usual neutrality until this moment when they smiled. When does a guard smile and why were they smiling? this was a question that I didn't get an answer to. But then again they don't talk much.
"W-who are you?" asked Princess Celestia after getting over her shock. Her face was now neutral if not frowning a little bit, as if expecting me to to attack her, yell at her, or call her insane.
"My Given name is Flameheart Guillotine. Who are you if I might ask? I know your sister already thanks to a lovely dream she joined me in." I asked already knowing. "I would give you my birth name, but sadly it eludes me."
Princess Celestia looked at me as if she felt bad for me, but also looked intrigued art my name. She then responded to me after sitting down on the floor.
"My name is Princess Celestia and I am the co-ruler to this country that you are in and am also the goddess of the sun. I am also the one who control the day while my sister controls the night." She told me.
It was then that background noises started to return and it was also the moment that the goddess of the night made a very good suggestion that made me smile.
"Sister. Why don't we continue this conversation in a more comfortable environment , since this creature seems to not only show us kindness and respect, but also seems to cooperate and communicate of his own free will?" asked Luna "It would also give us the chance to ask our questions without interruption and background noise."
Princess Celestia turn to the guards and had them escort me out of the dungeon and as i walked with two guards and two princesses. I start to wonder what is in store for me . I could become friends with them both or I could become their enemy. Only time will tell and allI know is there is a long walk in front of me.
The doors hate me and the guards fear me. how do I know this? mostly because right after getting out of the dungeon, i had almost every door in almost every hallway hit me in one form or another. Mostly due to multiple maids working or cleaning rooms. On e even came out of a room sneaky, slowly, and with a blush and still manage to hit me. I don't know how. I had the two princesses in front of me and two guards behind me. And no they were two other guards than the ones in the dungeon. It was weird. none of the others got hit only me and I was stuck in the middle with no room to move out of the way.
Also every paroling guard we passed seemed to get as far from me as possible. They reeked of fear and it was getting annoying. I wasn't even sure how I was sensing there fear, but I was.Then there were the maids. If they got close, they would look at me with fear and either hide nearby or they would be the maids who opened the doors and hit me, only to look at me, scream, and lock themselves in the room that they just left out of. I mean come on! Even the princesses, who at the beginning were looking at me with a face that said 'sorry' and judging my reaction, now had on neutral faces.
When we got to what looked like a casual sitting room where people relax and read a book, there faces changed again to a tired look, along with letting out a sigh that they had apparently been holding for a while. They were as annoyed as I was apparently, because Princess Celestia didn't even bother ordering tea and cake. That is how stressed she was. The queen of cake and tea didn't order tea or cake. Even Luna who was suppose to be this person who looked and acted like a proper lady, just collapsed onto a floor pillow and groaned. This was so bad that Princess Celestia just magicked up a table next to Luna with two more floor pillows, sat down, relaxed, and motioned me to do the same.
"Just give us a minute and relax Flameheart. That was not what we expected. I mean we were expecting some reaction, but one gets tired of screaming and the look of guards wanting to vomit in secret." Said Princess Celestia.
Luna just looked at me and said in a grumpy and tired voice "How are you not pissed and lashing out or at least complaining at the last 15 minute walk? I wasn't the one that it was aimed at and even I wanted to tell everypony to be quiet."
I dint answer them right away. I was beyond pissed. I was supposed to be in pain, but I never felt it. But while I never felt any pain, getting hit in the head is no joke. Every time I got hit in the head or screamed at right in my ear, the world would get fuzzy and id loose my balance. I also had to hold my tongue and keep a very hard t keep poker face. I didn't want my new friend or her questionably sane sister to think i'm a threat. That and with the new body I was in, who knew what would happen if I activated and thing while raging. That would have been bad.
"I didn't enjoy it at all, just so you two know, but i'm in a new land, in a new body that looks like a grownup's nightmare, on a new planet that has mythical creature running around on a daily basis, and i'm scared of what is going to happen to me if I don't stay calm. So tell me. Do I sound like I mind you two taking a break from the insanity?" I asked in the calmest voice I could muster, which turned out to be quite calm.
both the princesses looked at me with shock. It was almost like they thought I would have demanded there attention or something. But after a while their shock morphed into tankful smiles and they laid down on their pillows and hooves, while I just sat at the table with my face in my claws. This was supposed to be a calm and nice chat so we took our time. I recovered first, mostly because I almost fell asleep, Princess Celestia sat up second with a kind smile on her face, and Luna came in last as she was convinced to get up by her sister after she had waited a while. The they go comfertable and looked back at me.
"Would you like something to snack on while we talk or maybe something to drink?" Celestia asked us both.
I thought it over while Luna responded with "Please way I get coffee, a fruit bowl, and a chocolate pie, please dearest sister."
"That will work sister." Princess Celestia Said, before turning to me and asking "What about you? Can I get you anything?"
Me not knowing anything about my body, shook my head and said in a kind voice "No thank you Princess, but thank you for the offer. I might take you up on it later when I understand this body more."
Princess Celestia nodded her head in understanding, before getting up and going to the door, where she orders some passing maid to get her a vanilla chocolate cake, a chocolate pie, a pot of tea, a pot of coffee, a bowl of fruits, three cups, three plates, and three sets of silverware. Why she ordered three plates and cups, I was going to ask. Mostly because I had asked for nothing, so why did she do it anyway? I had no idea. It was then that she started walking back after telling the maid to knock and leave the stuff outside for us to pick up. She sat down looked at me and smiled.
"Why did you get those third things?" I asked Princess Celestia.
:It was just in case you changed your mind and wanted something to eat anyway. I mean look at you. You look like your just skin and bones or scale and bones. Either way its a little concerning to me that a creature who has been nothing but kind and understanding so far looks the way you do." Princess Celestia said to me, sounding like a worried mother, while hiding a slight grimace when truly taking in my form. Confusing me, mostly because I had yet to see my complete form.
"Ok. But could you get me a mirror so I can see what I look like and can I call you just Celestia while alone and on friendly terms?" I asked.
"Oh Please do and yes I can magic up a mirror for you." Celestia said as she turned her head to a corner and promptly teleportation a full body mirror there.
I officially got a good look at myself. There I saw my body as I had earlier described, but now each moving muscle, worm like things, dead-looked flesh, tail stinger, and size could be seen better in the light of the room wall lamps. There were also what looked like the remains of bat wings om my back. It was like someone had ripped out the webbing in the middle and lengthened the bones to point like blades. Then there was my face and head. On top of the head had two small horns that spilled up and towards the back of my head. Then there my rot like skin with glowing white eyes with no pupils. Then there was my nose and mouth combined into a beak with razor sharp teeth zigzagging my still closed mouth with a snakelike tongue behind them when they open.
To say I was intimidating is an understatement. No wonder creatures thought I was dangerous. I was also very skinny. I could see what Celestia was getting at. Bones are not supposed to be that visible. I was wondering how I was not dead and also why I didn't feel like I was starving? i was in so much shock at seeing the body that I inhabited that I failed to notice I was shaking and about to pas out until all I saw was darkness and heard a thump and two voices that shouted my name.
Chapter 4: Fears to Break the Mind and Consume the Soul
I was suppose to be enjoying a meal with the princesses. I was not doing that. I was trapped in pitch blackness with the ability to hear the panicked screams and yelling outside my body. I couldn't understand them though. It was like swimming in a small pool of negative emotion and hearing them as well. I had been here for a while. I could feel my body though. it was giving me new sensations that I had never experienced before. you know those moving things under my skin I told you guys about. Well turns out they were testicles that stayed under my skim until I felt scared or threatened. How did i know this? Mostly because shortly after passing out, I felt them come out of my back and not only wiggle in the air but also rap me in a cocoon. Now I am stuck in the cocoon unable to see or properly hear and with absolutely no knowledge of how to get free.
I was pretty sure the the two new friends I had just made were freaking out and trying to set me free. How do I know? Well for one, every now and then i'll see some part of the darkness glow blue or yellowish orange. I was trying to calm down, but sadly that was not happening any time soon. At this point I was just excepting my doom, but for some reason, i was not running out of oxygen or in pain from warping myself so tight. I was stunned for a while. I was then that I started to wonder if I would ever get out. It took a while before I mentally just yelled at the tentacles to go away that they budged. They then slowly started slithering back into my skin through my back and I was met with a hospital room with my two new friends, a doctor, and a nurse jut staring at me.
"What happen to you!" shouted a very stressed and scared Celestia.
"I have no idea. I was just fine and then it was dark. It was then that I heard muffed voices and started to freak out. It was only when I calmly told the things to go away that they started to move." I told the sisters, trying not to freak out and activate the testicles again.
Luna looked at me with fear. Like her sister was earlier looked like i was a monster that would attack them for no reason. My words were not comforting her at all. She was holding tight to her sister, who seemed less scared. I wonder why. She wasn't even looking at me like a monster like her sister Luna was. She was looking at me now almost like a mother worrying about her hurting child. but also a look that said "you are to blame for your pain." It was interesting to say the least. This was not my idea sit down place for our talk so I looked to the doctor and nurse and was about to ask if I could go, but they were no longer there. One look at me and they vanished.
I turned back to the sisters and asked " Shall we head back and continue the conversation we started or do I need to stay here?"
Luna and Celestia both looked each other and told me that we were staying here, just encase I had another 'episode'. It was clear that I was still in trouble and that they worried for my and other's safety.
