It's been a rough time for Vinyl and Octavia. Tempers flaring, drugs, alcohol, and adultery. What more can this relationship stand?
Vinyl and Octavia's relationship has been going downhill. The two of them are barely able to make it a day without fighting. One can only imagine where things may end up. (To understand why this story is here, please refer to this link to the related blog post
It was a dark, shady night in Ponyville. The streets were empty, the crickets stayed silent, and the street lamps were casting faint shadows against the dark street canvas. It was the kind of night many ponies would stay inside for. However, I'm not like many ponies. But, that will be explained in due time.
I was walking down the empty streets, heading towards Sugar Cube Corner to pick up some...well...let's just call it sugar.
Pinkie Pie started selling her "special sugar" around Ponyville a few weeks back, and many ponies were dying to get their hooves on it. I never really knew exactly what it was, until about a week ago when my friend, Rarity, shared a bit of it with me. She told me that it always helped her to meet some of her deadlines. It seems that the fashion business is no small feat for just one unicorn. But, Rarity always managed to meet all of her deadlines, even if she had an order for 1,000 dresses by the next day. Every time I asked her, she told me that it was thanks to Pinkie Pie's "special sugar".
"Is this even safe?" I gazed at her with a dubious look cast across my face.
She snorted a big line of the "sugar" and handed me the straw, "Of course dear, I wouldn't be doing anything that would harm myself now, would I? Besides, Pinkie Pie never seems to be unhappy when she takes this."
"O-Ok."
I looked down at the white powder in front of me. Not exactly sure what to do, I picked up Rarity's credit card and started forming a small line on the table. It was barely the length of an eyelash. I looked at Rarity, who was staring at me with a slight smirk.
"Come now, darling. You're gonna need more than that to feel a buzz."
She took the credit card and made a line about half an inch long. I stared at it in shock, and then looked back up at her. She smiled and nodded at me. I took a beep breath and quickly snorted the line in front of me, immediately regretting my decision. My face started going numb, my brain felt like it was on fire, and my heart was pounding.
"What the fuck is this?" I threw the straw across the room and grabbed my head, shaking around violently.
"Cocaine, or as Pinkie Pie calls it, her 'special sugar'."
"Why would anypony do this? It feels like my brain is on fire!"
After that moment, I was hooked. I started going to see Pinkie Pie on a daily basis to get the cocaine. It was like the forbidden fruit that nopony was allowed to touch. The fruit untouched until one day, a pony decided to try it and started giving it away to everypony else. Pinkie Pie was that one pony.
I made it to Sugar Cube Corner and knocked on the door, "Pinkie Pie, you home? It's me, Vinyl! Hello?"
The door creaked open and I nearly jumped out of my skin when I saw her, "Oh...Hi Vinyl, I take it you're here for some 'sugar'."
"Uh...yeah. Pinkie...what happened to you?"
She looked like she had been in a wreck. She was missing small patches of her mane here and there, her face was wrinkled and scared, and a few of her teeth looked like they had rotted out. I couldn't really tell if that last part was do to too much sugar, or to too much "sugar".
She smiled and laughed, "Oh...it's just one of Twilight's spells gone wrong. She was trying to do an age spell, but it didn't really work out too well. Instead of being younger...I got older."
"Uh-huh...anyway...um...do you got any sugar?"
"I only got an ounce left."
"How much?"
"750 bits."
"WHAT?! That's three times more than last week."
"Inflation...the price of sugar has gone up...and I need to start turning profit if I'm gonna live."
"Fuck! Is there any way I can get it for 600?"
"W-Well...there is one way...but I'm not sure if you'd be up to it."
"I'll do anything."
"Well...if you're that desperate...than I think I have an idea."
"What is it?" Pinkie Pie had always been one of the best ponies at dragging the conversation out before getting to the point.
"We could go upstairs and..."
"And what?"
She leaned closer and whispered in my ear, "We could eat tacos."
I reared back and glared at her in shock. Did she really suggest that I have sex with her for drugs? But...I couldn't. I can't do it. Not while I'm in a relationship with...her. She'd kill me if she ever found out about this. Hell, she'd kill me if she even knew I was going drugs. No...she'd kill me if she found out I was using the money in our bank account without her knowledge.
I looked at the ground and scraped my hoof across it, "There's no other way I could get it for 600?"
"Nope."
I sighed and looked back up at her, "Ok...I'll do it."
"Okie, dokie, lokie! Let's go upstairs."
She started hopping towards the stairs as I followed closely behind. I can't believe I was about to do this. I feel like a prostitute...no...scratch that. I AM a prostitute. If I'm willing to sell my body out just to get an ounce...than I may as well say that I am one. I'm sorry babe, please don't find out about this. I don't think I could handle it if you did.
We made it up the stairs and to Pinkie Pie's room. She turned to me and smiled, "Ready?"
"As ready as I'll ever be."
We went into her room...and an hour later...I came out with an ounce of sugar, smelling like sweat, shame, and regret.
I stared at the small bag sitting on my nightstand, the contents inside glistening in the light. I looked up at my door to make sure that I had locked it. Thankfully I did, I don't think I could handle Tavi's reaction if she saw me. She'd probably beat the shit out of me. I don't know why though. A little cocaine never hurt anypony, right? Pinkie Pie and Rarity seem to be just fine, so does everypony else in Ponyville who does cocaine. I don't see what's so bad about it.
I opened the bag and emptied it onto my nightstand, trembling with joy as I started feeling a buzz. I picked up my razor blade and started crafting my lines. Funny thing about cocaine lines, their always seems to be less and less of them when I make them. Or, have I gotten to the point where I don't feel as strong a buzz off of shorter lines anymore? I guess I need to start buying it in two ounce bags. Oh boy, the shit I'm gonna have to make up to Tavi for this. Oh well.
I picked up my straw and quickly snorted the first line. It didn't hit me as strongly as I thought it would. I snorted the second line, I still didn't feel anything. I snorted the third, fourth, fifth...still nothing. After I snorted the last line, I only felt a small tingling throughout my body, though, it didn't really last more then a minute. Once the "buzz" subsided, I started feeling, itchy. I just passed it off as my body reacting to not being tingly anymore.
I jolted up as I heard a slight knock at the door, "Vinyl? You in there?"
"Y-Yeah, babe," I quickly hid everything under my pillow as she came into the room.
"Are you ok? You've been spending a lot of time in the guest room lately."
"I-I'm fine...I was just checking to make sure the room was clean. I know how much you like to keep a clean house," I put on a faint smile, hoping she wouldn't notice anything.
"Oh...Ok. Don't forget, our date starts in fifteen minutes. You may want to clean yourself up a bit, you've got a bit of dust under your nose."
I quickly wiped it away and force a weak chuckle, "Y-Yeah...hehe."
When she left the room, I let out a sigh of relief. That was way too close for comfort. I need to start being more careful. Wait! How'd she get in when the door is locked. I got up and walked over to the door, and sure enough, the lock is broken. I forgot that Tavi said she was going to fix it when she could get the parts.
"Looks like I need a new usual spot."
I left the room and went downstairs where Tavi was waiting for me at the front door. I gave her a weak smile as I grabbed my hoodie and shades from the hall vanity. In the back of my head I'm still praying that she didn't notice anything. Though, from the look on her face, I'm pretty sure she hasn't.
She smiled and planted a small kiss on my cheek, "I love you, Vinyl."
I wrapped my hoof around her head and pulled her into a deep, French kiss, "And I love you, my sweet little Melody."
A faint blush began to grow on her face, "Remember Vinyl, we're going to my parents house. They're a little bit more...traditional...when it comes to relationships. They don't really take to fondly to same sex couples. I haven't really exactly told them about us either. So, I want you to be on your best behavior tonight, that way they can hopefully be a bit more accepting of my life."
"When have I never been on my best behavior?"
"Well, there was that one time in Canterlot at Doughnut Joe's, the night we went to the Grand Galloping Gala, and the night we went to Uppercrust for the first time. Need I go on?"
"I get it, I get it. Jeez, you're making me sound like a bad girlfriend, Tavi."
"I didn't mean for it to com off that way. But you did ask."
"It was a rhetorical question," I yelled. I put my hooves over my face as Tavi glanced down at the ground.
"I-I'm sorry." I saw a small tear form in the corner of her eye.
"No, babe, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that," I lefted up her chin and kissed her on the cheek. "Let's go to your parents house. I'm sure it's not a good impression when we're late."
She forced a soft smile at me, "Yeah...you're right. Better not keep them waiting."
She looked back to the ground as I grabbed my keys before heading out the door. I knew that I had just made one of the biggest mistakes of my life...and it was only going to get worse.
I looked down at the plate of food in front of me. I wasn't exactly sure what it was, to be perfectly honest. But, all I know is, it looked like it wouldn't even fill a foal. But, I tried to be as polite as I could, for Tavi's sake.
Her parents weren't really the type of ponies that would spare any expense. Their house was decorated with some of the finest decor this side of Equestria could offer. One could say that it could rival even the decor in the royal castle. But, I digress. Her parents were also the kind of ponies who looked down on a lot of things. Things such as having a lesbian daughter who's dating somepony way outside their class. From what Tavi has told me, they fired one of their housekeeping staff because she was lesbian. They also look down on ponies who don't have a highly paying career, ponies such as myself.
"So, Vinyl, Octavia tell us that you're a disk jockey. That must very interesting. Playing music at a club full of degenerate colts and fillies."
Octavia nearly did a spit-take, "Mom! Do you really think that's appropriate?"
I put my hoof on Tavi's to calm her down, "It's alright, Octavia, I'm used to it. But, to be honest, it's not really all that interesting. You see the same group of ponies night after night. They always do the exact same thing over and over again. It gets really boring after a while."
Tavi's father glanced up at me, forcing a weak smile, "Sounds like you should take on a new career."
Tavi looked over at him, nearly giving herself whiplash, "Father!"
"I'm not trying to sound insulting. All I'm saying is, if you can't have fun at your job, then why bother with it."
I looked at him and gave him a weak smile, actually felling more than a little bit insulted, "While I appreciate the advice, Mr. Melody, I just don't see myself doing anything else but this. It's been a dream of mine to one day travel across Equestria, performing shows for thousands of ponies, and even have fun with a few mares now and then."
Now Tavi was starting to get mad at me, "Um, Vinyl, I'm sure you mean stallions, right?" Her eyes were nearly sunken back into her head as she looked at her parents.
Her mom cleared her throat and took a deep breath, "So...you're a lesbian?"
"I wouldn't really say that...it's more the fact that I was...how to say...bicurious at the time."
"I see...so you're not a lesbian?"
"Nope. I'm straighter than Robin Hood's arrows."
I looked over at Tavi's father, who was silently munching his food. I can't believe how little he spoke, his almost like a much creepier version of Big Mac. His silence only made this even more of a pain than it should be, but I managed to hold on, I know Tavi sure wasn't.
I looked back down at my plate, more looking at the damn near thirty different forks sitting right next to it. I swear the rich have a fork for everything, including wiping their asses. I wasn't too sure with one to go with, but guessing by the order their in, I assumed the one closet to the plate was the one to eat with.
Don't know why you need this many fucking forks. I whispered to myself.
As the room grew more and more awkwardly silent, I began to feel a major itch on my right side. It felt as though my blood was itching. Why is this happening now of all times? I had my fix before we left. I'm not even high anymore. Was my body really craving the sugar that much.
The itching grew more and more torturing as the minutes passed on. I wanted to scratch myself so badly to get it to go away, but then it would really look bad on Tavi. She really has gone a long way to make sure that my first time meeting her parents went as planned. But, I doubt even she planned for this.
Clearing my throat, I looked up at Tavi's parents, "I'm sorry to sound rude, but, where's your bathroom?"
Tavi's father smiled at me, "It's down the hall and to the left."
"Thanks." I leaned over to Tavi and whispered to her, "Did you bring any spare tampons?"
Rolling her eyes, she reached into her purse and handed me one, "I thought you were gonna start carrying them in your purse."
"I forgot."
She rolled her eyes again as I got up and rushed to the bathroom, nearly slamming the door behind me. I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes were bloodshot, and small, dark circles began to form under them. I don't know why nopony said anything about it. Not even Tavi seemed to be bothered by it.
As I stared closer at myself in the mirror, the itching began to rush throughout the rest of my body. I slumped down on the floor and began to scratch. It barely provided any relief at all. I kept scratching and scratching for what felt like hours, but it only kept making it worse. Why the fuck was I itching this bad? I wanted to beat my head against the wall to kill myself. The itching started to get painful, and it began to get to the point that I was scratching my own fur off.
I heard a knock at the door, followed by Tavi's soft, melodic voice, "Vinyl, are you ok in there?"
The itching finally began to subside. I got up from the floor and opened the door, "I'm fine...just admiring the...toilet."
She looked over at the toilet and then back at me, a confused look on her face, "It's just a toilet."
"A toilet made of gold. How many ponies can afford to shit on gold?"
"Please, Vinyl, keep your language clean. I don't mind it at home, but we're here so that my parents can approve of you before I tell them we're dating."
"I know, I'm sorry."
She gave me a quick kiss before we made our way back to the dinner table. I sat down in my seat and smiled at her parents.
Tavi's mom smiled at me, "You alright dear? You were in their for a while."
"Sorry about that. I was just taking care of some...monthly maintenance."
"Well, I hope you're not feeling too bloated from it. Our chef has prepared one of his finest deserts, and I'd hate for you to miss out."
I smiled, even forcing a small giggle, "I'm fine, thanks for your concern."
Tavi looked at me and then at her parents. I guess she finally started to feel that they were approving of me. She took a deep breath before looking at her parents, "Mom, dad, I have something I wanted to tell you."
"Mom, dad, I have something I wanted to tell you," she looked down nervously as her parents gazed at her. "I-I'm not really sure where to begin. Y-You know how you guys said that...there was a um...certain subject matter that you weren't really too approving of?"
Her mom raised her eyebrow, "Yes, I remember it pertaining to same sex relationships."
"Good. I don't have to try to explain that part to you then. You see...I-I've kinda been keeping something secret from you two for a while now. Mainly because I didn't know how you'd react, but, I'm finally just going to come right out and say it."
At this point, her father began to take interest, "Are you saying what I think you're saying?"
Tavi took a deep breath, "I...I've been in a relationship with Vinyl for about two years now."
You could feel the tension in the air. Her parents traded glances between themselves and Tavi. I began to feel a little uneasy when they began to stare at me. I could see the blood lust in their eyes. Though they didn't want to be upfront about it, I knew that despite it being their daughter, they were far from approving.
Her mother cleared her throat before saying anything, "Vinyl, I thought you said you weren't a lesbian. Don't tell me that you were lying to us."
I looked down at my plate and rubbed the back of my neck nervously, "W-Well...I..I uh..."
"So what if she lied about being a lesbian? Big woopdy fucking doo! It's not like she's the only one lying about it," I guess Tavi picked up on her parents' disapproval.
Her dad slammed his hoof on the table, "Octavia, watch your language!"
"No! I will not watch my language! Just go ahead and admit it! You don't approve of our relationship!" Tavi was really beginning to scare me. I had never seen her this mad before. If she was this mad about her parents' disapproving of our relationship, then I can only imagine how mad she'd be if she found out about the drugs.
"Octavia, darling, we're not saying anything like that."
Tavi glared at her mom, an inferno raging in her eyes, "Bullshit you bitch, don't fucking lie to me!"
Her father got up from his seat and stormed across the room and knocked Tavi to the floor, "You are not to speak to your mother that way!"
I grabbed the sharpest knife I could on the table and rushed over to Tavi. I looked down at her and saw a little blood dripping from her lip. I looked up at her dad, knife in hoof, "If you dare hit her again. So help me Celestia, I will cut your fucking dick off and shove so far up your ass you won't be able to shit for weeks. I don't give a fuck if you touch me, but I'm not going to stand by and let you abuse your daughter, the love of my life." Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I stared into his cold eyes.
Her father stared blankly at me for a moment before clearing his throat, "I think it's best that you two leave. I don't ever want to see you two here again."
I helped Tavi up, making sure not to cut her with the knife, and we started to make our way out. I can't believe how badly this turned out. I know that you don't approve of the relationship, but that doesn't give you any reason to harm your only child. I'm just glad that I didn't have to stab him, I could only imagine what Tavi would say to me then.
As we went out the door, I scorched our names in a heart on their porch and windows with my magic before we started making our way down the street. I looked at Tavi, tears rolling down her face. I held her close to me, letting her know that I'd always be their for her.
"I-I'm sorry this has to happen," she whispered. "I thought that they'd be more understanding since I'm their daughter. I guess I was wrong. I failed you Vinyl."
"Tavi, you could never fail me. I don't care what your parents, or anypony else, thinks about us. I love you, and I always will. You mean the whole world to me. I could never find another mare as perfect as you. Without you, I wouldn't know what I'd do. Tavi, no matter what anypony says, you are who you are. Nopony is ever going to change that."
She looked at me, her bright smile forming beautifully on her face, "Thanks sweetie. I don't know what I'd do without you."
As we continued walking, I couldn't help but feel a bigger guilt weighing me down. There was still one lie left to be admitted. It is a burden that I'll have to carry for a long time.
We made it home, a dark depression hanging over our heads. I still cannot believe that Tavi's parents would do such a thing to her. She did everything that she could to make her parents proud of her, and it was all for nothing.
I look over at her, her eyes still red from the tears, "Tavi...I'm sorry...I..."
She gently placed her hoof on my lips, "It's ok Vinyl. It wasn't your fault. My parents are just..." Her voice trailed off.
"Tavi?" I placed my hoof on her shoulder.
She stared blankly at the floor. I can't blame her for feeling the way she does. Her parents just up and disowned her without even giving themselves a chance to let things settle in. Even though she was silent, I could hear the pain deep within her heart.
Tavi looked up ay me, a silent agony in her eyes, "Why did it have to be me? Why did I have to be a lesbian?"
My heart sank to the pit of my stomach. I didn't know what to say, I was just as emotionally damaged as she was. I scraped my hoof along the floor, desperately thinking of something to say to take her mind off things.
What could I say, 'Tavi, I'm sorry your parents hate you, but you will always have me.'? I was lost, with no chance of finding my way out. I looked down to the ground and shrugged my shoulders, "I'm not really sure I can answer that one." The pain in my chest grew ever greater.
She let out a heavy sigh and started walking into the bathroom. I sat on the couch and turned on the tv to see what was on, though I wasn't really paying any attention to it. I just let my mind flow through the thousands of emotions. I felt regret, agony, anger, and a thirst for vengeance. Worst of all...I felt withdrawal.
I began to feel an intense itching all over my body. I had been feeling it all night, but I tried not to let it bother. But, it was starting to become unbearable. I began to scratch myself until I started to feel a litght trickle of blood run down my forehoof, but I continued scratching. I could feel a small chunk of skin come off, the pain only making the withdrawal fee worse.
I looked at the bathroom door, steam coming from the small crack at the bottom. If I was going to get over this, it would have to be sooner, rather than later. I got off the couch and walked into the bathroom, sitting on the toilet next to the shower, it was time to come clean.
"Tavi..."
She peeked out of the curtain, her emotional distress still plastered across her face, "Yes?"
"There's...something that I need to tell you...and...I'm not entirely sure how to tell you."
She turned off the water and stepped out of the shower, "What is it? Is something bothering you?"
I didn't respond. I couldn't think of what to say. How do you go about telling someone you love that you're a drug addict without hurting them? What would she think? Would shr want to leave me? Would she hate me for the rest of my life? Would she turn me in to the Equestrian police? Though, I wouldn't really blame her if she did. Hell...I deserve it...I was stealing her money to buy it after all, I was hiding it in the house, and she almost caught me with it six times already.
"Vi?"
I jolted at the sound of my nickname, "Y-Yeah?"
"What's wrong?" She looked down at my hoof and noticed the blood running down the side, "Vinyl! What happened to you?!"
"I-It's fine...I'll wrap it up," Tavi hands me the first aid kit and I start wrapping up my arm. "Tavi...have you ever had something that you wanted to tell someone...but you were scared of what would happen when you told them?" I mentally slapped myself as soon as I realized what I said.
"Current events should tell you that I did."
"I realized how stupid that question was, but that's beside the point. My point is...I'm scared to tell you what I have to say. But I'm not going to hide it any longer."
"Now you're starting to confuse me."
I finished wrapping my hoof up and I put the first aid kit away. I looked at her and sighed, signaling her to follow me to the guest room. Her confusion grew more in her eyes as she began to follow me down the hall. Although no words were said, you could feel the tension in the air.
This was it. I was finally going to get everything off my chest. I couldn't hide it anymore, the guilt was getting too heavy to hold. I was still afraid of what she would think, but I had to let her know. She needed to know. It was hurting her mote than it was hurting me, although she wasn't aware of the pain it was causing her.
We go to the bedroom and I sat her down on the bed, "Tavi...promise me one thing before I tell you this."
Her eyes narrowed slightly, but her confusion was still lingering, "Ok?"
"I want you to promise me you won't kill me over this."
"Vi...how bad is this secret you're hiding from me."
I looked at the nightstand next to the bed and I closed my eyes, a single though whispering in my head, It's a matter of life and death.
I looked back at Tavi, her eyes glued on me. I let out a heavy sigh and opened the nightstand drawer and pulled out the contents of my crime. I looked back at Tavi, her eyes focused on the bag I pulled out. I could tell by the look in her eyes that she had never seen anything like this before.
"Vi...what is this?"
"It's cocaine...it's..."
Tavi interrupted me before I could say anything else, "Y-You mean...y-you're...doing drugs?!"
I looked away from her, a tear flowing down my face. I couldn't say anything to her, all I could do was give her a slight nod.
"How long have you been doing this?"
I stayed silent.
"Vi, answer me."
"A few weeks now." A pain started growing in my chest. I could feel the storm coming on.
"Vinyl...h-how could you. After all this time. Wiat! Is that why all the money keeps disappearing from our bank account?!"
Tears began to roll down my cheeks. I sat on the floor and covered my face with my hooves. I was angry at myself for what I had done to her. Nothing I could do or say would make things any better. I was a liar, a cheat, and a thief.
"What else have you been hiding from me?" Her voice was cold and distant. She was beyond furious with me.
"The bag that I got right now..."
"Yeah?"
"I-I slept with Pinkie Pie to get it!"
"You did WHAT?!"
It was over now. Time for me to build the casket, because my grave was dug the minute I pulled the bag out. I wouldn't blame her if she wanted to kill me. She had every right to feel that way. After all I've done, I don't deserve to have a life.
I looked back up at her, tear stains deep in my cheeks, "Tavi...I'm..."
"Don't say another word to me. I can't believe you'd do this to me. Did you even once think about how this would effect us? Do you even know what that stuff can do to you? It can kill you, Vinyl! That stuff effects your body in way you wouldn't believe possible. Do you wanna kill yourself, Vinyl?"
I scraped my hoof on the floor.
"Answer me goddamn it!"
"No!"
"Then why even start it in the first place?"
"I don't know. When I first did it with Rarity...it made me feel really good."
"That's what it's made to do. But that feeling comes at the cost of your health and sanity. How many ponies are you getting this stuff from?"
"Just Pinkie."
"Of course. That bitch only thinks of the short term happiness she gets out of it. Did she look like she was on death's door?"
"Mhmm. But she said that it was one of Twilight's spells gone wrong."
"And you believed her? That's the effect of cocaine, it causes your body to break itself down. First you start itching really badly, which I'm guessing you've been going through it. Eventually you'll start getting sick to your stomach and not want to eat anything. After that your body begins to shut itself down. The last step in this...you die. Is that what you want?"
I shook my head. There's wasn't anything I could say. Everything had been said. There was nothing left to hidr. The pain in my chest was even worse now than it was before.
Tavi began to leave the room, only stopping as she got to the door, "Vi...I'm giving you this one chance to say any last thoughts."
I looked at her, guilt in my eyes, "Tavi...I-I need help."
Tavi and I were sitting in the packed waiting room filled with ponies waiting to kick their addictions. Some ponies even as young as fifteen were waiting for their names to be called. This was for the best, maybe now I can actually get over this suffering.
"Vinyl Scratch?" Called the slightly nasally voice of the receptionist.
"You ready Vi?" Tavi put her hoof on mine, trying to calm my obviously shaken nerves.
I took a deep breath and looked at her. Her eyes staring deeply into my pained soul, letting me know that she was there for me. I gave her a hug before we stood up and walked into the doctor's office to finally begin my treatment. I sat down on the chair in front of the doctor, Tavi taking a seat next to me. I had a heavy nervousness filling the pit of my stomach. Tavi looked over at me, her face filled with worry. She placed her hoof onto mine, and I began to feel tears rolling down my face.
The doctor opened the door and looked at me, "Are you Vinyl Scratch."
I only gave a slight nod in response, my fear keeping the words locked in my throat.
"I'm Nurse Redheart, it's nice to meet you." She began flipping trough the papers on her clipboard, "So, what brings you into my office today?"
I continued to stare at the floor.
"We're here because Vinyl was hoping to get treatment for her...well..let's just say 'sugar' problem," Tavi's innocent voice further fueling the flaming pain in my heart.
"I-I'm afraid I'm not following."
I finally spoke up, my voice more than a little hoarse, "I have a cocaine problem."
Nurse Redheart looked at me in slight shock, "I see...well...um...what kind of symptoms have you been having lately?"
"Well...recently I've been having painful itching spells...this morning I could barely keep breakfast down...and...I-I've also been...well...feeling like I've been falling apart."
"Falling apart how?"
I scraped my hoof against the tile floor, "I've been falling apart emotionally...I've noticed that I've been...going through mood swings lately. Needless to say...breakfast almost ending in a trip to the jail house."
"Would you care to fill me in on the details?" Nurse Redheart took out a pen from her pocket and began writing in her notebook.
The sun was just barely starting to peek over the morning sky, the songbirds were warming up the voices for the day, and the air was calm and still. I was sitting in the guest room, holding a picture of me and Tavi from the day we first became marefriends. I held the picture closer to my chest as tears began to flow down my face.
I heard a slight knock at the door, causing me to nearly jump out of my skin. "Vi...You in there?" Called her angelic voice.
"Yeah...I'm in here."
I heard her trying to open the locked door, "Why is the door locked?"
"I just need a little alone time."
"Vi...what are you doing in there?"
I unlocked the door and nearly ripped it off its hinges with my magic, "I'm not doing anything, damn! You're acting like you didn't flush away my cocaine!" My nostrils were flaring and my face was red.
"Vinyl, what has gotten into this morning."
"I just wanted some goddamn alone time to think about things, is that too much to fucking ask?"
She looked at the floor,her ears dropping to the sides, "I-I just came to tell you that breakfast is ready." She turned from the doorway and made her way to the dinning room.
My heart sank to my stomach. I just yelled at her for no reason. What the fuck is wrong with me? I put the picture back down on the nightstand and made my way to the dinning room. I saw Tavi placing our plates on the table, "Tavi...I'm sorry...I shouldn't have yelled at you like that. It's just...I'm nervous about going to the doctor later."
"I-It's ok..."
"Tavi?"
"Vi...I know you're going through withdraw right now...I know that you're going to be a little moody for the time being. I honestly can't blame you."
I sat down next to her and placed my hoof onto hers, "I still shouldn't have yelled at you. So, what's for breakfast?"
"Well, I figured that since you'd probably end up being sent to a rehab facility today. I thought I'd make your favorite breakfast this morning."
"W-Wait...rehab? Can't they just give me some kind of magic pills to help me get over my addiction?"
"Vi, I hate to really tell you this, but an addiction can't be fixed with just magic. It takes a lot of work to get over the damage that the addiction causes to your body and mind."
I picked up my fork and began to pick at my food, Rehab. Nopony ever told me about that. D-Does that mean that I'll be away from Tavi?"
Tavi placed her hoof on my shoulder, "Vi...are you alright?"
"I just never thought that I would be taken away from you."
"You won't be gone forever, as long as you do the best you can to work through your recovery."
"But what about you?"
"What about me?"
I stared into her eyes, my emotions becoming more and more evident, "I worry about you Tavi, I don't want to be away from you."
She gave me a comforting kiss on the cheek, "I'll be fine. I'll visit you every chance I get."
"You won't come every day?"
"You know that my job may require me to stay for long periods of time."
"Now I get it."
She tilted her head in confusion, "What do you mean?"
"You think your fucking job is more important than coming to see me in rehab!"
"Well, if you're going to be gone, I'm going to have to work extra hours to make sure that things are taken care of."
"Why? You're already making like a million fucking bits a year? What more do you fucking want?"
Her look began to grow with fear, "Vi, please calm down and eat. I don't want you to be late for the doctor."
"You fucking knew I'd be going to rehab, and now you're planning on taking on more hours at work! I see what you're really up to!"
"I'm not up to anything."
"You can't play dumb with me cunt!"
"Vinyl!" Her fear began to build up to rage at this point.
"You've got a side bitch don't you! You knew I'd go to rehab, and the 'extra work hours' are to go see your whore!"
"Goddamn it Vinyl! I will not be spoken to like that!"
I grabbed her by her hooves and pinned her against the wall with my magic, "Don't you fucking yell at me!" I started to form a magic ring around her neck.
"Put me down Vinyl, or so help me Celestia I will have you put in jail!"
"Fine!" I let her go and she fell to the floor with a loud thump.
Nurse Redheart looked at me with shock and horror, "Alright...well...um...I can see that you're not wanting to go to rehab."
I looked back up at her, my voice becoming hoarse once again, "If that's what will help me...then sign me up."
Nurse Redheart stared blankly at me for a moment to try to process what I had said to her, "So, you want to go to rehab?"
I looked over at Tavi and then back at nurse Redheart, "If it's what'll help me get over this, then I'm willing to do anything."
"We do have other treatment options available that can help you as well. That is, if you'd be willing to try them." Nurse Redheart reached into her desk and pulled out several different pamphlets of treatment options.
"Thanks, but, I think I'll just go with rehab." I looked over at Tavi and gave her a weak smile, "I think it'd be better for the both of us if I go."
Redheart began to click her pen on the desk, "Well, if that's what you're interested in, then I don't want to force you into anything else. Let me check and see if the rehab center here in Ponyville has any openings." She sat her pen down and got up from her desk to leave the room.
When she left, I looked over at Tavi to find that she was lost in deep thought, "You alright, Tavi?"
She glanced up at me and then looked back down, "I-I'm alright."
"You sure? You look a little out of it."
She looke dout the window and sighed, "I'm just worried."
"About?"
"About you leaving for rehab."
"Why would you be worried about that?"
She looked back over at me and placed her hoof onto mine, "Because of what happened this morning."
"Tavi, you and I both know that I'm going through withdraw right now. I think it would probably be for the best of us if I'm not at home."
Her tone was now one of worry, "But, what if I can't come to see you?"
"You said it yourself, your job may want you to be gone for a long time. I can't just expect you to jump at the beck and call of visiting hours."
"But..."
I softly caressed her cheek and gave her a bright smile, "I'll be fine, trust me."
"O-Ok."
The door opened behind us as Nurse Redheart came back into the room, "Well, the rehab facility here in Ponyville is filled up. But, I managed to find you an opening at the rehab facility in Filldelphia."
Tavi looked up at Nurse Redheart with a faint smile, "Thank you Nurse Redheart, we really appreciate your help."
"I've just got one question."
Nurse Redheart looked over at me curiously, "Yes?"
"When do I have to leave for Filly?"
She shifted through her papers for a couple of seconds and then looked back up at me, "You'll be leaving this Friday."
I looked over at Tavi and smiled, "That gives us at least one more day together before I get sent off."
Tavi gave me a weak smile before turning her gaze back out the window, I wish it was longer.
Tavi and I were sitting on the couch watching a movie, trying to get our minds off of everything that has happened recently. Neither of us had spoken a word to each other since we left Redheart's office, but we knew what was on each other's minds. I looked over at her, her expressionless face telling all too clearly what was burning in her heart. I knew she was scared, and I didn't blame her. I was feeling the same way. I was scared of leaving her. I was scared of how she was going to handle things while I was gone. But most of all, I was scared that she wouldn't be able to look at me the same way again.
I placed my hoof on hers and gave her a faint smile, "It's going to be alright, Tavi, I know it will."
She looked over at me, her expression unchanged, "I know, Vi. I'm just worried."
"About what?"
She let out a soft sigh, "I'm just worried that things won't be the same when you get back. I know it seems odd of me to think that, but I just can't shake the feeling that things are going to be different after everything is done with."
I wrapped my hoof around her and pulled her close to me, " Tavi, I promise that no matter what happens, I'm still going to be the same me that I was before drugs came into my life."
She looked down at the floor and scraped her hoof on the ground, "I just don't know."
"I know what might cheer you up."
She looked over at me, slightly puzzeled by what I meant, "And what would that be?"
I gave her a lustful smile as I leaned in and gently kissed her soft lips. Her eyes widened slightly, be she offered no resistance as she wrapped her hooves around me, letting a light him escape her lips. I leaned her back on the couch, letting my body overtake hers as I began to feel my inhibitions wash away. I lowered my hooves down her soft body and started rubbing her flanks.
She broke the kiss and looked at me, a deep blush burning across her grey coat, "You certainly weren't lying about cheering me up."
"We're only getting started," I said with a devilish tone.
"Oh?"
With that I slid myself down her body, planting light kisses along her chest and stomach, finally coming to a stop between her legs. I looked at her glistening marehood, her juices flowing down her inner thighs. I placed my hooves on her lips and spread them open as I begin to teasingly lick her moist inner folds, eliciting a few soft moans from her.
"A-Ahhhh...Vi...t-that feels so...ohhhhh!!"
I felt her body begin to shiver as I pushed my tongue deeper into her love tunnel. I began to feel my own pussy get wet as I ate her out. I reached my hoof down and began to rub my clit as I ran my tongue along Tavi's g-spot.
"Ohhhh Celestia...d-don't stop Vinyl..yes...eat me...eat me like the dirty girl I am."
I liked listening to her talk dirty, it was always such a thrill to see her go from a shy and quite mare to the ultimate freak in bed. I began to thrust my tongue in and out her as fast as I could, vigorously rubbing my clit. I knew she wasn't too far from cumming, but I wanted to make this moment last as long as I could. I pulled my tongue out of her and gave her a quick lick along her folds before staring up at her.
"W-Why'd you stop, I was so close."
"I know, but did you really think I was gonna let it be over that quickly?" Her blush deepened as I sat up and spread my legs, showing off my moist treasure, "Don't forget I need some attention too."
She turned herself around and positioned her head between my legs and quickly got to work licking my up and down. A shiver of pleasure burst up my spine as I felt her tongue lap away at my clit. I placed my hoof on the back of her head and began to grind my hips on her face, letting out a loud moan as her tongue slipped deep into me.
"Ohhhh Tavi...right there baby...yes...yes...ahhhhhh!!"
She looked up at me as she suckled and licked my clit. She really knew how to turn me on, her gaze was just so innocent as she started to tongue fuck me as hard as she could. I felt a pressure building up in my body and I knew I was getting close. My horn lit up and I began to focus on my magic on her clit, making her body jolt in surprise.
"T-Tavi...I-I'm so close...d-don't stop...I-I'm gonna...ahhhhhhhhh!!"
In no time at all I began to squirt my juices all over her face. As she began to lick them up, her body started to shake hard as she began cumming hard from my magic. Both of us were an exhausted mess as we lay back down on the couch in each other's hooves.
Tomorrow is my trip to Fillydelphia. I'm really nervous about it. I thought I was prepared to go, but I'm starting to have second thoughts about it. I'm not sure what it is that's bothering me the most about leaving. I don't know if it's the fact that I'm not sure if it'll actually work, or if it's the thought of being away from Tavi.
Ever since she and I met, we've hardly been apart from each other. She's always been there for me as I have been for her. I love her with all my heart and soul, and the thought of leaving her really has me on edge. I know it's silly to be afraid of that kind of thing. Hell, our careers sometimes require us to be gone for a while and I've never been bothered by it. Yet, for some reason, this all just seems so different to me.
I don't know why I feel the way I do about it. I'm not sure where these thoughts spawn from. But it's been a burden to me since the day we went to see Redheart. I've been repeatedly asking myself if I'm prepared to face my fears and just get it over with, but I'm finding the answer really difficult to find. I'm not even sure if I'm making any sense to myself anymore. I feel as though the black clouds that loom over my head will never disappear.
Maybe there's a lot more to all of this that I'm just not seeing. Maybe there's a deeper answer as to why this all started. Was it really my own curiosity, or was it the devil on my shoulder driving me to my own self destruction. Sometimes I wish I had never gone to Rarity's house that day. None of this would've happened if it wasn't for her. No...I can't blame her for something that I chose to do. But she's the one that told me to try it. But, I was the idiot who didn't say no.
There's just way too much going on in my mind right now. I'm not sure if it'll ever get better for me. I just hope I can find an answer as to whether I can truly get over all of this or not. I can't promise anything, the only thing I can do is wait and see what'll happen. I just hope that for my sake...and more importantly...hers, I can overcome these demons that pleagu my mind and become a better pony.
