On August 9th, 9yrs ago my mother died of complications of diabetes brought on by Colon Cancer. She fought to the end. Afterwards the framework I built fell apart. I turned into a miserable bastard. Others in their own mourning and facing their own issues turned from me. This drove me deeper into that dark place. Notjohnharker was my rock, she refused to leave no matter how hard I raged or tried to get her to leave. There is a reason for my devotion to her. But the memories of that