I had just received a letter from my father, he's been in the military since I've been a little filly, in this tour he was down in the Badlands giving out care and food for refugees from the war with the Diamond Dogs.
In his letter he had said how much he missed me and my mother, wherever she was...he mentioned how they might get sent back early for a month holidays with family, i had only hoped that he would be able to make it this time, he hadn't been able to the year before and i haven't seen him since last winter, i missed my father so much i took my to tears thinking about him coming home.
Living without any parents was ok, Rarity took me in like her own little sister, when Sweetie Belle was with her parents i had her room all to myself, even was she was here we had more then enough room to have both of us here. Rarity was calling for me for awhile before i realized it, it was time for school, coming down the stairs with my bag and scarf i made my way out the door with only a small blush and my face as Rarity smiled at me and laughed, "You will never learn, will you?" i giggled at the statement, no i probably wouldn't.
The first little bit outside was ok, the leaves were turning into beautiful amber oranges and yellows as the the wind drew a small breath and chilled anything it could find, making my way down the path towards the school i was greeted by AppleBloom and SweetieBelle like every other day, it started to become routine; Talk about yesterday, what we are doing to get our cutie marks...and the some school gossip. None of the gossip interested me, i never cared for anyone else at the school as they all had their own friends and issues to deal with...
Making my way into the schoolyard i saw everyone as they were, Snips and Snails were on the swings, Twist was talking to Dinky Hooves, and Diamond Tiara was being her old bossy self-but what i didn't see was Silver Spoon, normally she was with her-i felt a little concern but shook it off since its getting colder and ponies are getting sick and taking days off.
After Miss Cheerilee rang the school bell for us to come inside from the yard we all assembled into a line and trotted inside the school house, after we all found our assigned seating and quieted down down Cheerilee started her lesson, for the past week we have been learning about Remembrance Day and the current war going on, not many student had much interest in the war but i was all ears, "Now my little ponies, who can tell me what day is on the 11th?" ...No hands..i shot up my hand as i saw nobody knew, "Its Remembrance Day on the 11th" i said with a small smile, Cheerilee looked at me with eyes of understanding, knowing that my father is fighting in the war.
Slowly as the day went by we recited poems, crafted reefs, and practiced for the minute of silence that would take place soon, "So, how is you father doing scoots?" Asked the White unicorn i was well acquainted with, "He's been doing good, he might even be able to make it down for Hearths Warming Eve..." i said with a small smile, i knew my father put his life on the line to save ponies like me, but i never knew how it would feel to lose him...Putting that past me, "How are your parents Belle?" i asked cocking my head trying to move the conversation away from me,"They've been doing good, and since the moved from Las Pegasus to Canterlot, i can see you guys more often." I smiled at that.
As the school day ended me and the girls went out to Bon-Bon's candy shop, Twist worked here after school to help out, after we all bought a small treat of our own with our pocket change we all headed our own ways home, Applebloom went across town up the the ranch and SweetieBelle came with me to Rarity's, as we made our way down the walkway something was amiss, Rarity wasn't there to meet us and take us home, seeing this we made our way home quickly as possible, not stopping by to visit anybody we made our way into the Boutique and Rarity was on the phone, she looked disheartened she only signaled us to go to our room, "What do you think that was about?" SweetieBelle said with concern in her eyes, "I wouldn't know for the life of me..."
After about a hour Rarity made her way up, she had been crying. "S..s Scootaloo, may i speak with you for a bit?" Why would she need to talk to me? as i followed her down into the living room she had me take a seat, "I just got off the phone and i..i heard some very bad news..." News? what news could do this to Rarity? "What happened?" i said with concern in my voice.
"Its about your father...."
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"NO! It can't be true!" i yelled out as Rarity told me the news.
My father had been killed, struck by a missile his whole platoon had been wiped out with no survivors..."I-i- cant believe..." i started crying. "I cant believe he's gone!" i was bawling like a baby foal at this moment and didn't care who heard me, SweetieBelle came down the stairs wondering what was going on, but the second she saw me she knew it, she tried to come up and comfort me, but i stood up and ran, not caring where i ended up.
As i ran it started to rain, the rain in fall time was cold and unforgiving as it pounded every sorrow of the skies onto you, the amber skies of the afternoon faded and so did my vision...
I ran farther and farther into the night, rain was pouring on me and was starting to soak my mane, if i knew how to fly i would go off to the horizon wear no-pony would find me, but all i had were my hooves. I came to the Great Luna Dam from running for what seemed like hours, the rain was lighter here but the cloud cover kept on, there were a few ponies around the dam looking at the river that raged below, it was a wonder of pony technology, but i didn't care, nobody would care if i was gone, i found myself near a small railing that over looked the railing and contemplated jumping. The fall into the water wouldn't kill me, but the river eventually would.
As i stepped forward i saw a familiar face that was grim, Silver Spoon, she looked as if she had been crying all day-Maybe this is why she was here? Trying to forget something? Like I'm trying to do...I looked back over towards the river and saw my fate, we looked at each-other as i felt my weight slowly be taken by gravity...
I jumped...
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Memories, so many memories i had with my father, my first ball game, seeing a Hearths Warming Eve play...and my least favorite, they day my father left for the war...
"Why do you have to go daddy? Why cant you stay and play?" I was so innocent back then, clueless of what was happening..."Don't worry dear, i'll be back soon...i promise" The crimson stallion said as he tussled my hair, i loved when he did that, it gave my hair its own style...."B-b-but i don't want you to go daddy, i -Sniff- wana come with you..." i was silly for thinking of it, thinking he would be gone for a day then learning he would be gone for years..."Hey..Hey, Listen, Daddy has to go fight some bad people okay? Here..." He held me close, "Lets pray for Celestia's sake..." He cleared his throat.
"Dear Celestia, please keep my little filly safe from all harm, please help her grow and find who she is, and please, let me die in the sky so i can see her before i go to heaven..."
Silence. Thats all there was at that moment, i was crying to much to say another word until he stood up and left the door, "Goodbye Scootaloo, i'll be back..."
Why did i do this? my father died only to see me take my own life, i wish i hadn't done it, i was falling into the white mist bellow, and then darkness....
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Black. So this is how it ends? Living a short life to disappoint everyone i knew? It didn't matter, the white noise of a rushing river took me away... Wait, River?
When i awoke i was dripping wet, beat up and bleeding, but how was i on shore?
Why did it feel someone else was here? why was there more breathing then my own? And why was i being shaken?
"Wake up! Oh sweet Celestia don't die..." It came from a filly, but who? that all i though before everything went black again...
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"Nurse RedHeart!!! i need you now!" all i could hear was rushing of many people...i knew where i was, i was in the hospital, somepony saved me..but who? "What happened to you two?" Wait, she was injured too? Saving me? "She jumped off the dam, i went to save her...i cant let her take her own life..." the voice again...who was it? i needed to know...
I could feel multiple ponies working on me, stitches going into me, pieces of rock coming out... all i could do was wait until i was awake to know how bad off i was.
"You are a hero for saving her you know, but we need to tend to you too..." i heard the nurse say, that was all i could remember from that point on.
It had been a day since i jumped, i finally awoke to the sound of the monitor checking my pulse...the ceiling was a washed white and nothing else, wall were white, floor was white, the filly sitting next to my bed was grey...Wait a second.
"Your awake!" The filly spoke, i knew her, knew her all to well... "y-y-you didn't..." thats all i could muster up and say, but she stopped me. "I saved you because i know i've been a bad pony, I'm trying to be my best now..."
Silver Spoon, i knew it was her, with my vision so blurry from the medication i was on it was all i could guess. "Listen, you need rest, i'll be back again to see you..." She said in a whisper...
The next day in the hospital went as expected, sat in bed all day and ate, slept and read, except for one thing...Silver Spoon was at my bedside keeping me company, I appreciated the gesture, but why would she stick around? I never did anything nice for her...but she seemed just happy just to see me well. A few hours later visiting hours were open for the public, and as expected Applebloom, Sweetie Belle and Rarity came to visit me. The first to speak was Applebloom, "What in the hay happened to you Scoots?!" I didn't bother responding, she would learn about the story soon enough. Sweetie Belle just looked at me with sorrow in her eyes, she knew what I did...or tried to do... Silver Spoon had left to get some stitches out and Rarity was overlooking us all, "You girls will stick together forever, won’t you?" That made me smile, we had been friends since I could remember...
Soon after everypony went away to let me get some more rest and eat for the night, but something was amiss. Spoon wasn't here...her room was next to mine so I stepped out, exercise would do me good right now...Before I got to the door though I could hear the sound of an augment.
"Where have you been? The kids at school keep bothering me without you around..." I knew that voice, Diamond Tiara in her prime, "I-i-i I've been here the last few days...I saved somepony and got hurt in the process..." it was Spoon. "So what? Forget them, they were stupid enough to get themselves hurt in the first place an-" -SMACK- Spoon had hit her, Tiara's eye widened at that. "BECAUSE SHE ALMOST DIED, don't you get it? You've been so spoiled you don't even know what pain is...you don't know what it’s like to lose somepony…”
Tears ran down the grey fillies face as she walked away from the awestruck Tiara, and what did Spoon mean by losing somebody? She didn't know what happened to me yet...or did she lose someone close to her?
Silver Spoon came running down the hallway into my room and stood before me..."C-could i stay in your room tonight?"
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Spending the night with Spoon (It was the name i gave her since she saved me) Was like any other, we played cards, talked about school and we went to sleep, it was a long night as sleeping in the hospital beds were cramped, But i know she needed comfort.I let her use my pillow and i slept near the foot of the bed. Later on into the night i could hear sobbing, it was Spoon, she was still upset at what happened, too much for her to take, i tried talking to her but she was half-asleep, i did the only thing i could do...i hugged her and didn't let go until she stopped crying...
Morning came and both of us were still in the bed, only from when i feel asleep hugging Spoon...she was now hugging me, I blushed....Wait..i blushed? Just seeing her at peace while she slept made me even blush more, when she is without her glasses she is..cute...i knew what this feeling was...i had a crush on her..in fact, this was my first crush ever...rolling back over(Since i couldn't escape her grasp) i lazily closed my eyes again and dozed back to sleep, it was all i could do while i was in here...
When we both woke up we knew it was awkward, being in that embrace we parted and both waited for the scheduled 11:00 Breakfast, i had a bowl of cereal and Spoon had some Eggs and Oats.Finally one of us spoke. "Sooo...are you feeling alright?" I had to know, she saved me because she cared...i could do the same... "Yeah..i think so...Tiara bossed me around for the last time...im not friends with her anymore...i dont think i ever was..." She finished off with in a small voice, seeing how she might cry again i pulled her into a brief hug, "It will be ok, you have me now..i guess..." I said with a small blush,was that a smile? i swore i saw one, she hugged me back as if we were the best of friends..."Yeah i guess so..."