For almost 9 years six ponies have worked together on a show about friendship in Equestria. How will the lives of the cast and crew be after the show ends? Is friendship really magic?
Follow the celebrities of this show as they write into their personal journals of how My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic has changed their lives. See what entanglements have been censored in order to keep a PG rating for their brand.
MLP:FIM crossed genres since it began as a mix of a reality show as well as a lighthearted slice of life action drama. It started by following the unicorn, Twilight Sparkle as she was sent into the rural town of Ponyville. Since 2010 her character represented magic, an "Element of Harmony", along with Fluttershy as kindness, Pinkie Pie as laughter, Rarity as generosity, Applejack as honesty, and Rainbow Dash as loyalty.
Some say the success of this show was so great it even crossed over into an alternate universe and gave birth to "bronies." This rumor is still debated to this day.
As the final season of My Little Pony finishes up, Twilight Sparkle dreads the thought of it all being over and returning to her home in Canterlot. Will she still be friends with that joyful bunch from Ponyville? Will they move far from her to evade the swarming paparazzi? Only time will tell.
(Fourth Wall Break: To everypony reading this! I am accepting OCs as crew members for this story. Sending a message to FSkindness on deviantart will be the best way of contacting me.)
It has been such a long time since I have written in one of these. I actually needed to get a fresh new one just because I couldn't find my old one. I need this to get my thoughts out though.
Gosh, where do I even begin? I could close my eyes and remember my audition like it was only yesterday. A couple of months ago we found out the producers had no plans of continuing the show after this season which still has my head in a blur to this day. Has it really been that long already? We had so much fun the whole way through I guess somepony forgot to keep track of the time.
It was 2008 back when I was still going to magic school under Celestia as her star pupil. That part is true and I believe it's part of what gave me an edge over others in this series called Friendship is Magic. It was one of those reality TV shows that was kind of real but with a whole lot of added drama by the writers.
Even though I was a full time student I needed to find a job so I could start paying off those dang student loans. Even with my excellent scholarships, it was still not enough to pay for my tuition at the most exclusive and prestigious school in Equestria. That's when I found a flier for the casting call for the show.
I knew already they would make me travel quite a bit but that was okay since I was going to take the Summer off from school anyhow. I auditioned for the role and a week later found a letter in the mail that said they wanted to make a two part pilot with me about the Summer Sun Celebration. It was a hit and the show took off from there.
I still have glue left over around my ribs. Those alicorn wings are a b*tch to take off since they attach to my fur. Today we were recording a scene where I was flying over the whole of Canterlot while facing the latest and biggest monster of the entire series so far. I'm not sure if the director will have us finish that scene since we are being hit by budget cuts in the show's end.
I don't feel like I'm ready for the show to end yet. There is still so much creative potential we have yet to explore! The other ponies of the mane six had mixed opinions about the show's end. They seem to be more ready than me for the show to end, saying they're all partied out.
After leaving the studio, Rarity, Applejack, Pinkie Pie, and I all went to one of the fancy restaurants near the castle in Canterlot. It's an invite-only place which allows major celebrities like us a chance to be out but be swarmed by fans. Rarity was talking to us about the prospect of buying the place and expanding it out.
Rarity inspected the rooms, "It certainly is large enough for us to plan large parties."
The four ponies walked to their table which was on the patio, overhanging a steep cliff on the mountain top. Applejack sat next to Rarity and commented, "It's a shame the place is always so empty. I get that they want a safe place for famous folk like us but there's just not enough of those ponies that live 'round these parts. Nopony in Las Pegasus or Manehattan is gonna come all these way for a bite to eat."
Rarity pointed her hoof up, "And that is precisely why I am going to be the pony to reinvent this business! I'm the pony with enough capital to build more of these buildings all across Equestria!"
That was when I made my comment, "Um, Rarity. Don't you think that would have been done already by the current owners if it was a good idea? You'll most likely be losing money in the process. I don't think you would get that much business from a select few groups of ponies."
Rarity corrected me, "Twilight, you are missing the point. I want to make safe havens for us all around the world. Money is not everything."
Applejack added, "Sweet Apple Acres has become nothing but a tourist attraction. We had to hire guard ponies to keep trespassers out. It would be nice to be able to go somewhere else and be away from it all."
The room they were in was quiet, except for the distant murmuring of other ponies talking at other tables. We were out on the sunny patio but could still hear the relaxing music of the band from inside. I loved this place a lot but there was still something sitting at the bottom of my stomach that ached, keeping me from fully enjoying this moment with my friends.
Pinkie Pie finally spoke up, "Twilight, you look sad. What's wrong?"
My friends all looked at me. I could feel my ears flick back and my face get hot. I asked, "What's going to happen to us once the show is over?"
Rarity and Applejack looked at each other. Applejack said, "Well... For me and Rarity we won't need to worry about doing controversial things for the sake of a contract. We can finally get married and move in together."
Rarity took Applejack's hooves in hers. She smiled, "As if anypony couldn't tell from the start that we were a pair."
Applejack laughed. She recalled, "Oh boy those writers did everything to cover that up and make us look like we hated each other! Remember that episode in the beginning with the storm where it looked like we would never get along?"
My voiced jumped, "Want to do that all again?!"
They all looked at me again. "I mean the sleep over part. Remember? In that episode we were all at the Golden Oaks Library. We could do that again but this time with Pinkie Pie too! Does that sound like fun?"
Pinkie smiled, "That does sound like fun! What do you girls think?"
The pair looked at each other. Rarity groaned, "I'm sorry you two but we actually need to get to Manehattan for an appointment..." Rarity trailed off then looked to her partner for approval.
Applejack smiled then put an arm over Rarity, pulling her closer. She said, "You can tell them, sweetheart."
Rarity smiled brightly then said, "It is for an artificial insemination!"
Pinkie and I looked at each other with confusion. I said, "An artificial hoo-ah-whatah?"
"An artificial insemination!" Rarity announced, "The process of using a donor's sample to create an embryo."
Pinkie Pie's eye grew out of her head, "Wait. Are you saying you two are..."
The couple giggled then nodded in unison. Rarity squealed then held onto Applejack, "Yep! We're going to have a baby!!!"
Applejack said, "We actually can't stay for food, the appointment is in a few hours. We just wanted to tell you both in person without having somepony listening in on us and spreading the news like wildfire."
Pinkie and I were both speechless. Rarity broke the silence, "It is something we've wanted for so long but couldn't because of the show. Now that My Little Pony is ending, we can finally do that without needing to hide it! We're finally going to be free to be together openly!"
I couldn't speak. Pinkie Pie was the first together words together. She smiled at the happy couple, "I'm happy for you two. It sounds like you are going to have a bright future ahead of you."
Rarity nodded, "Quite so! Anyways, it's been so fun but we really need to get going if we're going to catch our train. It was lovely spending time with you two!"
Applejack stood up then helped Rarity out of her seat. They said their farewells to us then went on their way to Manehattan. Pinkie Pie and I were lost for words, only staring down at the table in front of us.
My mind raced with so many different thoughts. Then my mind went blank and I looked back up to the restaraunt. I remember saying under my breath, "Everything is changing..."
Pinkie Pie could barely hear me and repeated, "Everything is changing? Is that what you said?"
My body grew heavy as I stared out to the restaurant, the tables, and the ponies around. My heart began to hurt and I couldn't think straight.
Pinkie got worried. She said, "Twilight you're crying. What's the matter?"
I wiped off my tears but more quickly well up behind my hoof. I choked up and tucked my head down. I told my friend, "I just wasn't ready for all this. You ponies mean so much to me."
Pinkie put her hoof on my arm, "It's okay, Twilight. We'll still be together after-"
"No we won't!" I interrupted her, "AJ and Rarity are going to be starting a family, Rainbow Dash is going on tour at conventions, Fluttershy is going to spend time running an animal sanctuary, and I have nothing! This show was the only thing keeping us all together and now it's going to be gone!"
I choked up and sobbed with my head under my arms. Pinkie let me cry it out a bit before saying, "You still have me, Twilight. I'm never going to leave you."
She hugged me and reminded me that we would always be best of friends. I cried it out a bit more then thanked her. She told me, "We are all busy ponies now but that doesn't mean it is over for us. We've been together on a beautiful journey for eleven years. You think that a silly show ending is going to change that?"
"Thank you, Pinkie." I wiped up some of my tears then gave her a big hug, "You've always been able to cheer me up. Thank you for everything."
She hugged me. Her hugs were as warm as cotton candy... Or maybe she just smelled like cotton candy... Wait, what is her hair made out of?
She smiled and patted me on the back, "You will always be my princess of friendship, Twilight. All of us know you took the principles of this show to heart and that's why you got the leading role! The elements of harmony might not technically be real but we will always represent them and our adventures are far from over."
"You're the best pony, Pinkie," I put my head on her shoulder.
She nuzzled me then said she wanted to spend that sleepover with me. We ate our food soon after but I can't remember what happened exactly. My mind was fixed to thinking of the friends I made over the years and trying not to worry about what was going to happen next. Pinkie was right though, I needed to get it through my head that the end of My Little Pony would not be the end of us.
We are the elements of harmony and we have spent our teenage years as well as our young adulthood together. We had made too many memories for it to just be over because a company said so. Our fanbase looked up to us and I knew they would always remain true to us. I will remain true for them. I will do everything in my power to keep the elements of harmony alive by keeping my friends close by my side.
Pinkie Pie had plans to visit family in Canterlot but promised we would do that sleepover another day. I'm going to send out letters to my friends to see who can show up next time. What mattered is that I got to spend the rest of that afternoon with that infinitely optimistic pink mare, Pinkie Pie.
I may write more into this if all goes well. For now I have a big get-together to arrange!
Hi there everypony! My name is Pinkie Pie and I'm writting this just for you!
Yes, so I kind of borrowed the idea of starting a diary from Twilight who I saw yesterday. It's not like I read into her diary, I just break the fourth wall a bit and get a little bit of extra insight to things. My diary won't be as neatly written as Twilight's since she's the book horse and all I ever do is read cupcake recipes.
Where do I even start with this thing? I guess I will start by saying what happened next when we were done at that fancy pants place. Twilight was feeling really sad so I spent a lot of time there with her and bought more food for us just so she wouldn't be alone.
That was when I realized everything we were doing was just a whole bunch of words on a screen to a fanfiction site! I thought to myself "That's neato!!! I want to do that too!!!" So then after our visit I went to the book store and bought five journals! One for me, Rarity, Applejack, Rainbow Dash, and Fluttershy. I'll bring it to them when we see each other at that sleepover Twilight was talking about.
So I went to the book store and bought five blank diaries as well as one of those big leather bags to carry it in around my side. To tell you the truth I wasn't really going to see any family after that. I just missed being up in Canterlot. The crowds of fans actually are not as bad as Rarity was making them sound. And up in Canterlot most ponies are either rich or already famous so there are not that many ponies who get super nutty when they see actresses like me.
I was walking through the streets, trying to find something yummy to eat but that was a really tough thing to do! Canterlot has some of the best bakeries you would have ever seen!
My head was tilted all the way back so I could see all the signs of all the buildings. It's always so fun to see all the colors and inhale the sweet smells of pie, doughnuts, and cookies! I guess I got a little too distracted because I ran over some little pony.
While my head was way back I didn't see this little pink earth pony. She looks like she is Applejack's sister's age maybe? I just felt so bad after. I totally demolished her, making her sunglasses fly off her face and her just getting spread across the ground. I got off of her and put out my hoof to help her up.
She didn't seem to notice my hoof. She told me sorry for running into me then put out her arms, as if she was looking for her glasses in the dark.
"Don't be silly! I ran into you! Sorry about that. Can I help you up?" I wasn't sure if she had noticed my hoof yet and swung it around directly infront of her.
She still wasn't able to see the sunglasses that were right in front of her and kept sweeping the ground for them. She said, "No I'll just sit right here for the day... Yes, I need help getting up, can you give me your hoof?"
I was reeeeaally confused because my hoof had been out that whole time. Then I said, "Oh nuts I hit a blind pony."
She sighed, "It's fine. Can you just help me find my glasses now?"
I helped her stand up then put the glasses back onto her face. I realized she was lost and asked her where she was going.
She said, "My dad gave me money to get a treat. Don't worry, I'm very good at tracing my steps. I've just been trying to get to this cotton candy I've been smelling for the last few blocks. I think I'm close, it smells like it's really close."
I stuck out my nose to the air and sniffed. I didn't smell any cotton candy.
That little girl sniffed a few times. She turned her head left and right. She got closer to me and smelled more. She frowned, "Are you kidding me?????"
I asked her what was wrong. She shouted, "You're the cotton candy head! Oh for pitty's sake now I'm lost."
"I thought you were great at retracing your steps?"
That little pink pony frowned some more and crossed her arms, "Maybe if somepony hadn't knocked me over I would know which way I was facing!" She turned to all the different directions. I could tell she was scared and was just upset with me. I told her I could help her find where it was if she told me where her parents were.
"Thank you, Candy Head. Um. They were... They were in the main plaza which isn't too far from here. Do you know where it is?"
I shook my head, "Not really but I'm sure I wrote about it later in this diary! Let me just scroll through for a second."
She looked around dizzily, "Wait what?"
I put my hoof as far as I could down the page as I could. The text was a bit too far. I squinted way down at the words down the page and asked, "Can you read what it says down there?"
She said, "I can't even read period! What the hay are you doing?"
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"Oh okay that's what we're supposed to do!" I smiled.
That little mare almost said something but I quickly put a hoof in her mouth. "Don't talk! It's supposed to happen in this paragraph!" With that we started walking down one of the middle paths towards the plaza, just to the left of a cotton candy stand.
She said, "I really think I smell cotton candy now."
"Me too. Hey so what's your name little pony?"
She walked close to my body so she wouldn't get lost in the crowd and held my hoof. She said, "My name is Shady. I'm sorry I was being rude too you, Miss Candy Mane. I was just-"
"Nothing to worry about little pony! My name is Pinkie Pie! You might have heard of me, I'm on the show Friendship is Magic."
Shady tilted her head as she thought about it, "It sounds really familiar. I don't ever watch that much TV, as you would probably guess."
"Because there's never anything good on?"
Shady seemed confused with me. Her ears flicked back, "What? No, because I'm... You know what nevermind. Thank you for bringing me back to my parents, Pinkie Pie. It means a lot."
We walked until we got to the plaza. Shady's parents saw her right away and greeted us. The father said, "Shady, I thought you were going to get cotton candy."
I smiled and shook his hoof, "She did! My name is Pinkie Pie!"
Shady's dad seemed to recognize me. He seemed pretty excited and so was the mom. They asked what I was doing the rest of my day. I told them that I did not have any plans so they invited me to their home for dinner.
I couldn't be out too late but food did sound really good so I went with them. They were so nice to me and made the yummiest hay sandwiches I ever tasted!
"So what are you doing once this show ends, Pinkie," the mom asked me.
I didn't know what to say to her. I thought about it but never really settled on a decision when she asked me this, "I'm not so sure, ma'am. I've spent half my life on this show. It was all going so well I never went to college when I got to that age."
"Well it's never too late to get back on the horse?" The dad stuck his teeth out in a silly grin. Nice dad joke.
I laughed a little but it was such a cheesy joke. I thought about it, "I don't know if I even want to. I want to get back to baking with the Cakes but something just feels so different with the show coming to an end. It's hitting Twilight the worst but everypony else seems to be okay with it."
The parents both stayed quiet for a little while. The mom said, "Why don't you go spend some time with them? I don't follow celebrity news that much but I'm sure whatever they are doing can't be too important to keep them from speaking with you. You have seen each other through thick and thin."
I smiled but groaned a little with nervousness. Sighing, "Yeah. We haven't really spent any time at all with each other off set. Twilight and I are hoping we can see them soon. I think I will ask them why they aren't as worried as us about the show ending. Thank you for sharing dinner with me."
The mother, "For the element of laughter, anything. You're always welcome to come back next time you find yourself in Canterlot."
I hugged them all then said goodbye. I went outside and stopped to check the diaries I had in my bag. While looking at each of them I heard their front door open.
Shady walked outside and called my name. "Yes, Shady?" I turned to her.
She looked up in the direction of my voice, "Candy Mane! You're still here. I... I wanted to thank you again for helping me find my parents. And I'm really sorry for being rude to you at first. I really shouldn't have gone wandering off."
"It was nothing, Shady!" nuzzling her mane.
She blushed and nuzzled back up to me. Smiling, "Really though, you really helped me. I wanted to give you something." She handed me a piece of paper.
The paper she gave me had lots of scribbles all over the front. It was a drawing of some sort. She blushed intensely, "My friends in school talk about your guys' show a lot. I didn't remember at first but now I know who you are. I just wanted to thank you so much for what you've done for everypony and I drew you a picture. It might not look so good but I wanted to give you something."
I took a second look at it. There were two ponies walking together and some other doodles on the side. It was very clear that is what she was trying to make using just the feeling of where her hoof was moving across the page.
Shady blsuhed intensely with her head held low while I looked it over. I just gave her a big hug and said, "That's us walking together isn't it?"
She shrieked out with happiness and hugged me. "I actually made a picture?!"
"You made a wonderful picture, Shady. Thank you for it."
She was just so happy she couldn't even believe it. She said her parents said it looked good but that she wasn't really sure. I told her, "It's a really good picture, Shady. Thank you so much. It was nice to meet you."
She thanked me for everything again, "You're the best, Candy Mane! Thank you for meeting me!"
I gave her another hug then told her goodbye. For whatever reason that little pony made me feel so happy. This picture I held in my hoof was so pure and sweet I didn't know anything could be that great in the world.
Maybe that's what Twilight needs. Maybe she needs to see that there's so much more in this world to discover. This was better than any made up lesson in friendship some writer made for a studio. This was real magic. I'm happy to have met Shady today and become her friend.
To anypony reading this I am so sorry for what I am about to do. I'm not sure if this diary will even exist for others to read but it's what I need to do. I'm just so afraid and I haven't been able to think since this year started. My thoughts are so jumbled up together right now, I guess I should just start from the top.
Today is April 28th and it's the last year Friendship is Magic will still be around. Not only is it the last year but it's also the last month. May is coming at me like a train and if feel like I'm tied to the railroad. I'm anxious, afraid, and helpless.
I'm sure I'm not the only pony who feels like this regarding the show's end. Other ponies have tried telling me that it's no big deal but I think it's a big deal dammit!
This show has given me everything. It gave me a important values on life, taught me how to care more about others, a blooming career, and most importantly it gave me the best friends anypony can ask for. If this show never happened then I wouldn't be the same Twilight Sparkle today.
So with everything it gave me, why am I so heartbroken over its end? Well, everything it gave me is probably going to get taken back with its conclusion. I'll still have my career and I'll still have these lessons it taught me but what about my friends? They are what mattered to me. They are what gave me life. They are the reason I could get out of bed no matter how bad a day I was going to have.
With everypony leaving me... I can't help but feel like... Like it was all fake. Like it meant nothing to them at all. That's the part that hurt me the most and it's why I've decided to leave Hasbro. I'm not going to be part of that dumb show with any of those stupid mares that don't want anything to do with me. They'll just have to find a new princess of friendship.
I knew a storm would be coming as soon as I made the announcement which is why I packed everything up before leaving to the studio. I told the executive producer and the director I was leaving for good and ran out before they could summon their horde of lawyers. I left Canterlot for good that day.
Where was I going? Certainly not any bustling city like Manehattan or Fillydelphia. No, I was heading for one of the few desolate places that was still relatively safe, Appleloosa.
Way back in 2011 when we all met Braeburn we were already seeing the escalation in the popularity of the show. I knew it wouldn't take much time for it to reach the top as the number one watched show in Equestria which is why I brought my entire tuition with me on our way to Appleloosa. The idea was to buy a safe house in the event shit ever hit the fan. I wasn't very well known as an actress back then which is how I've been able to hide it from the writers of the show and the paparazzi.
It was a numbskull idea at the time but it seems like I made the right choice. Friendship is magic only became more popular, I earned back my tuition money in only a few months of acting, and I have a safe haven to go that was totally off the books.
I wore an ominous hooded robe and sunglasses as I carried my bags to the train. I purchased a one way ticket to Appleloosa and that was that. I had enough cash to retire on and nopony would ever bother me again. Well, at least I thought that's how it would go.
I never felt so sad before in my entire life than on that train ride. Everything that made me happy, everything that put a smile on my face, I just told it all to go to hell and was leaving it all for forever. I needed to stay strong. It was going to leave me. My only option was to leave it first. That way I could feel some form of power over it.
There was no victory in what I was doing though. There was only a massive amount of bitterness that would sometimes replace my sadness. By the time the train reached Appleloosa, the entire world around me was numb.
The desert wind was as dry as the dead bushes that littered its sandy plains. The world was dead. All except for the ponies of the town and the train station. I wanted nothing to do with them.
I walked a straight line through the town without paying any attention to the small town folk that wanted to probe me for information about myself. Nopony could understand the bitterness, anger, and saddness I was feeling so why bother explaining it to them?
I got to the edge of the town and to an old dirt road. I followed it out of the town, walked for about a mile or two, and behind a few hills until I reached the house.
The white paint of the home had chipped off decades ago and its windows were dirty and scarred from generations of wind eroding at its glass. The house was small and worn but it had held up surprisingly strong throughout the years. There were no breaks in anything and it was closed up tight to not allow bugs or other vermin inside. It's obvious attraction however was that it was away from the noise of society. I thought it was well worth the money spent on it.
I got inside and put all of my things away. The home was barely furnished with ancient items. I would certainly need to put a lot of work into it if I was to call it my new home. This would be where I will spend the rest of my life.
I looked out the old window and out to the hills of the desert. The day was slipping away into night and would soon be April 29th. Just another day closer to the end. Am I sad? I can't even tell anymore...
I spent hours sitting there by the window, with a heart that stung and a mind that couldn't function. My head slumped down and I almost fell asleep when an unexpected visitor arrived. Knocking at the door jolted me awake.
Who the hay was there? Who knew where to find me? Why were they here? These were thoughts that made me more afraid than ever. Was it it a lawyer threatening to take this one and only safe place I had left if I didn't play my part on the show? Or worse, was it one of my friends who were mad at me now?
I almost couldn't move but I knew I had to. I got up and hesitantly cracked the door open, "H-Hello?" I looked out. There was nopony there. I opened the door all the way and looked around. Still, nopony was there. I thought perhaps a couple of rocks or something blew into the door.
I closed the door and turned back to go to the window. I almost sat back down where I was when a certain draconequus's face appeared behind the window only inches away. He exclaimed, "Miss Twilight Sparkle!"
I jumped away and ran right into the wall. Shivers shot through my body like war cannons. Not that dough-head!!! I ran to one corner room of the house.
Discord was waiting in there for me. He looked down at the old sofa, "You certainly have a unique taste for um... Authentic decor." As he said this a spider jumped out from the couch and onto his eyeball. At the same time a trail of dust was flying up into his nostril from the room. He looked at me with a casual smile as his eyes watered.
I shook my head three times then ran back from him, into the kitchen. He was there at the stove and wearing an apron. With a hand on his hips he looked around the cupboards, "Good heavens, Twilight, how do you plan on living here without any food? I've seen shelters pack more than this."
I grew hot with anger and shouted at him, "Discord!!! What are you doing here???"
"What? I can't come drop in on a good friend?" He scoffed with his arms crossed, "I see how it is then."
"Discord... Why are you here?" I said in a softer tone.
He looked down at me, "Well I heard somepony thought they were getting too good for us and decided that it would be best to leave forever!"
His words nearly made me tear up instantly. I coughed a bit then shouted, "I DONT WANT YOU HERE!!! Just leave me alone!"
I turned away from him and sat down. He teleported in front of me with his paws crossed. He said, "Twilight Twilight, you can't run away from your problems, especially not like this. Tell me, what are you doing this for?"
I gave him a mean look. He didn't seem to care. I told him, "First tell me how you knew where I was going."
"I was there when you made your big fuss at the studio and simply boarded the same train as you. You are smart but not quite so stealthy, Twilight." He poked my nose.
I swatted his paw away, "Okay fine. Only because I know you can respect secrets am I even considering telling you. Do you promise not to tell anyone else where I am?"
Discord used a literal zipper to zip his lips shut. I squinted at him, "Okay then... I left because this show became part of my life. A huge part. Since the cast is casually leaving it as if it was nothing I'm wondering if they were really my friends or if they just put up an act for the show. I don't want to be anywhere around them anymore."
Discord unzipped his lips then scratched his head. He thought about it then replied, "So you are afraid that a special part of your life is not being taken seriously by others."
By this point I wasn't mad at him anymore. Instead the feelings of saddness were welling back up. I looked down at the ground, "It's not even that. It's like my whole life is getting taken away from me. Finishing this show... Finishing this show would be like watching myself die. If that makes any sort of sense."
He scratched his chin some more, as did the spider that was still on his eye. Discord flicked off the bug then said, "It's a shame this happened to you. It sounds like in the end it took a lot more than it gave. Here you are in an abandoned house in the middle of nowhere, alone."
Grumbling, "What is your point, Discord?"
He announced, "I am the master of chaos and, as you know, have the ability to bend reality to my whim. I can grant you freedom, Twilight, away from this if your ultimate fate now is to live such a sad life."
This idea ignited like wildfire in my mind. I jumped up with tears into his arms, "Yes Discord, please! Just take it all away! I don't want to remember any of it! I wish I could have lived without the show ever happening!"
Discord looked down at me and accepted my hug indifferently. He said, "You can't possibly be serious about any of this."
I got angry with him. My body was already crumbling with the thoughts of my friends abandoning me all over again. I cried and cried. I shouted at him, "I am serious! Just do it already, you dumb dragon thing!"
Discord shrugged, "Well alright then. You will never be the princess of friendship again."
I stood up and stared at him. My thoughts started coming back to me in clarity. Wait- What was I giving up?
"Discord, I-" before I finished speaking, Discord snapped his fingers. With a flash of white I was gone.
Discord noticed a book laying on the counter which he picked up. After realizing it was a diary he said, "I guess I'll just have to write in for her what happened today."
-Written by Discord. -Possibly amended later by Twilight.
That's probably not the right way to start a diary but it's not like I'm gonna get graded on it.
How do I start a diary anyway? Eh who cares it's my story so I guess I can start anywhere.
Things have been pretty weird with Twilight lately.
It started two days ago on the 9th. She was kind of... lost. She kept hounding me on what she was forgetting. She said she absolutely knew she had to be somewhere that day.
All of her assignments for the princess's magic school were done and I already fetched her the books she was fixed on reading.
She kind of just nodded at me then went to her room. She looked out the window for hours and hours until the sun started to go down. I kept on checking up on her but she didn't really want to talk.
She was looking down the mountains and to all the valleys.
I thought it would be a good idea to give her company so I sat down on her bed. Her head was held up by her hooves at the edge of the window.
I guess she had been spending a lot of time looking at a tiny little town near the horizon. She asked me what that place was.
I hadn't really noticed it until she pointed out. I said, "Ponyville. What about it?"
She stared at it intently. It pained her at trying to answer my question, "I'm... not sure. I can't remember, Spike."
There was something about that little place that she could not look away from. She just stared at it, clearly in desperate thought to remember something.
Ponyville is nothing special other than that it was hosting the Summer Sun Celebration tomorrow.
I thought it would be a get her out of this sudden little rut she was in so I did something a bit dishonest but I didn't really have any other choice.
I was going to pretend that Princess Celestia had sent us a letter. Yeah, I forged a letter from the princess but as long as Twilight just gives me a letter to send back then I can probably hide it. Hopefully.
If we were going to go anywhere then it might as well be Ponyville seeing as Twilight is super interested in it.
I got out a paper and wrote the letter for Twilight about how she had to inspect different parts of the preparations. I knew that every year there would be a pony for food, clearing the weather, the decorations, and music.
This would give her a good enough to-do list to check the place out and get out of the house.
I rolled it up into a scroll and walked back into her room. She looked at me and I got a bit nervous.
"A letter from the princess!" I handed it to her.
She opened it up. She squinted at it with a frown. "Princess Celestia wrote this?"
"Um. Yeah, I think so."
She lowered the parchment to look at me, "Spike, "Ponyville" isn't even spelled right. And this isn't even in her writing."
I knew the gig was up but I still tried my best otherwise. "Oh that's right! They got a new pony to write her letters for her! Yeah um. He's not very good at it yet though."
She raised an eyebrow at me and I looked away. She looked at the paper with a bit of distrust.
I thought she figured me out until she just shrugged and said okay. She went to bed early saying we needed to be up in the morning to get there before the event started.
I was in the clear. Luckily Twilight wasn't as socially smart as she was book smart. That's another thing I put on the letter, that there's more to life than studying.
The next morning I woke up about an hour before Twilight. The sun hadn't yet been risen so I needed to turn some lights on to do things.
I washed up then made breakfast for the two of us. Twilight didn't get up at her normal time. I waited for a while then started to eat. She was always down to eat breakfast with me.
I finished my food and she was still not here. I went over to her room to see what was going on.
That purple pony was still tucked under her bedsheets. She was still asleep which was pretty out of character for her. I got to the side of her bed and nudged her a couple of times.
She groaned then buried her face into the pillow. "Twilight it's time to get up."
She moaned then got out of bed before I could say anything else. Her hair was messy and and her eyes had dark circles underneath.
She went straight to the entrance and picked up her bag of things. She thanked me for making breakfast but said that she wasn't feeling well. She just wanted to get going so she could get home sooner.
I didn't really know how to help her feel better as she walked out. Before leaving I made sure to grab a few snacks for her to eat later when she got hungry. I put them into her bag when I got outside.
She didn't seem to care. Her hair was still a mess. I pointed it out to her but she didn't respond. She held open the supposed letter from Celestia and looked at it with a blank stare.
She put it away in her bag then started down the road towards the train station.
There's not really much to it other than watching the sun start to rise. We easily found great seats on the train with how early it was.
Twilight's eyes kept on shutting as her head would grow heavy. I asked her if she was okay. She shrugged and gave me her best attempt at a smile, "I'll be okay, Spike. I just didn't get any sleep at all last night."
"What's the matter, Twilight?"
Her smile broke and she looked down. She looked out the window as trees and hills passed by in the darkness of dawn. She said in a low voice, "I don't really know, Spike. I feel like I'm supposed to be doing something really important today. It's like... It's like... I'm wasting the day and, well, I don't know. I feel like I'm going to miss out on something great. I feel like I'm alone."
I didn't really know how to help her. I didn't even know she was this depressed. How long ago did she start feeling this way? What could I do to fix it?
Twilight smiled and patted my head. She said I was so sweet. "You're the best friend anypony can ask for."
I felt pretty happy when she said that and I might have been blushing too because my cheeks got hot.
She smiled at me, "Oh and... I know that letter wasn't from the princess."
I looked at her surprised. She just held my hand happily and quietly, finally dozing off to sleep.
Our train arrived at Ponyville in a grinding halt. Twilight shook her head and looked around dizzily. We go toff the train.
The sun was up by now for morning. We walked a bit aimlessly away from the train station. I asked what she was going to do if she knew the letter wasn't really from the princess.
She looked down at the dirt as we walked. She said in a mumble, "I don't know, Spike. Even though it's not mandatory, I still feel like I should be here."
We walked through the main road of the town. Twilight seemed to be in deep thought as she looked to all of the little shops, the ponies, and the buildings. It relaxed her in some way.
A pink pony trotted along towards us. She stopped in front of us and said hello.
Twilight looked at her with wide eyes then stared down at the ground nervously. I nudged Twilight foreword. Twilight gulped then looked at the pony, "Um. Hi, yes. I'm Twilight Sparkle. I came here to check in on the preparations for the Summer Sun Celebration."
That pony raised her brow at us as if we were talking nonsense. She asked, "Is this a game? Spike is this a game?" She looked over to me.
Twilight and I both became visibly confused. Twilight asked, "How do you know Spike's name?"
She giggled, "Okay, silly head. Applejack would have been making food over at her orchard that way." She pointed to one end of town. The pink one said goodbye then left.
We were both a bit shaken by that encounter but did not have much of a reason to do anything about it. I suggested that maybe she had been somepony we met a long time ago.
Twilight looked to the girl as she walked away. She looked her over, "Maybe. She does look familiar."
Twilight sighed and shrugged it off, saying we should probably just forget about it and head over to find Applejack.
We walked all the way to the edge of town until we came across the orchard. An old sign swung above a walkway which had the cutout shape of an apple in the middle.
Twilight stared at the sign for a long while and then to the barn up on the short hill. We walked up towards it until we saw another pony at the treeline. She tucked her hind legs in then bucked the tree behind her. Apples broke off from their stems and landed into buckets under the tree.
Twilight approached the character with a smile, "Good afternoon. My name is Twilight Sparkle."
The farmer took her hoof and shook it vigorously. She introduced herself, "Well howdy doo, Miss Twilight! A pleasure making your acquaintance! I'm Applejack. We here at Sweet Apple Acres sure do like making new friends."
Twilight tried to speak but wasn't able to. Applejack finally let her hoof go, "So what can I do for you?"
"Um. Well, I am in fact here to see how the preparations are going for the Summer Sun Celebration if you don't mind."
Applejack perked her head up proudly, "Not at all! We sure are excited to see what ponies think of our food. Would you care to sample some?"
Twilight smiled and nodded, "I would love too, Applejack."
Applejack rang a triangle and called out, "Soup's on everypony!" A stampede of ponies broke out as they rushed over. Before eating we were introduced to the entire Apple family. It felt more like a bombardment with how quickly we were introduced to each.
Twilight shook her head, she was extremely tired and couldn't pay much attention to what any of the names were. She looked a bit overwhelmed.
At that moment I thought Twilight was going to make an out for us and try to leave. I could tell she was thinking that but she must have changed her mind and instead sat down at a table where all the food was piled up.
Applejack sat next to Twilight and told her the entire story of Sweet Apple Acres. I couldn't help myself and got to eating right away. It smelled so amazing with all the cinnamon and brown sugar used with all the apple foods.
Twilight didn't touch any of the food. She just quietly listened to Applejack as she talked. There was a smile on her face and she even began to cry.
Applejack interrupted her own story time to ask if she was alright.
Twilight wiped off the tears. With a big smile she hugged Applejack, "It was so nice to meet you. W-we have to get going now."
Applejack looked to me for an answer. I shrugged, "I've got nothing."
Everyone said goodbye and then we left. I asked Twilight what happened but she didn't talk to me. She still had a bedhead and at this point her tummy was growling loud enough for me to hear. I couldn't imagine why she didn't want to eat any of the food.
I asked where we were going now.
At that moment we saw a blue pegasus flying around, doing flips in the air. I thought maybe she would know the pony in charge of clearing the weather.
We walked over to where the pegasus played. Twilight looked to her, "Um, excuse me? Would you happen to know who is in charge of clearing up the clouds?"
The pegasus looked down at her, "Who's asking?"
Twilight looked to me a bit anxiously, "Um... N-nopony. I was just wondering that's all."
"Well that would be me actually. My name's Rainbow Dash. Don't worry I'll do it after I'm done practicing."
Twilight, "My name is Twilight. What are you practicing for?"
Rainbow Dash smiled with glee and pointed to a poster, "The Wonderbolts! They're going to perform at the celebration tomorrow and I'm going to show them my stuff!" She ended that statement by flying up and doing a backflip.
Twilight smiled then teased that the Wonderbolts wouldn't want a pony who couldn't keep the sky clear for one measly day. Rainbow Dash claimed she could clear the sky in ten seconds flat. Twilight told her to prove it. Rainbow Dash accepted the challenge and zipped through the air, clearing away the clouds at lightning speed.
Our jaws dropped open as we had never seen anypony fly so fast before. Rainbow Dash flew around us, "You're a laugh, Twilight Sparkle! I can't wait to hang out some more."
The next thing on our list was decorations but we didn't have any idea of where to go for that. So we just started walking until we found something that looked interesting.
We reached a fancy circular shaped building with lots of snazzy architecture. If that wasn't where the decorations we being made then I didn't know where else it could be.
We entered into a room full of flags and banners. Their designs captured historical symbols but were also strikingly vibrant and attractive in their color.
The most beautiful mare I had ever seen stood at the end of the room. She used her magic to float streamers of different colors to her gaze. She rejected each one as she looked for one with the perfect shade.
Twilight approached this unicorn to greet her. The pony asked for a moment, saying she was in the zone. She finally found a red ribbon she liked and tied it to a post in a perfect bow.
For the first time she turned to Twilight to meet her. Before she could say anything else she gasped with horror, "Oh my stars! Darling, what ever happened to your coiffure?"
Twilight just stared at her blankly. She look into her deep sapphire eyes, unable to speak.
The unicorn went to fixing Twilight's messy bedhead. Twilight's eyes opened widely. She looked to the unicorn, "Rarity? Oh goodness I'm starting to remember now!"
Rarity looked to me with a frown. She looked back to Twilight, "I'm afraid you've broken the simulation, darling. We'll have to send you back again now."
I sighed and nodded. Twilight looked to me with visible confusion but also a great bit of fear.
I raised two fingers together then snapped. White light filled the room and then everything was silent...
Hey guys it's me! Your favorite dragon!
That's probably not the right way to start a diary but it's not like I'm gonna get graded on it.
How do I start a diary anyway? Eh who cares it's my story so I guess I can start anywhere.
Things have been pretty weird with Twilight lately.
She spent the night looking out the window. I don't know why but she had been giving me weird looks.
I asked her what was wrong but she didn't really seem to know. She knew that things were not right.
I wrote her a letter to try and get her out of the house. She was suspicious of it but she accepted its instruction and went to bed early. She seemed sick to her stomach throughout the whole thing.
The next morning I made the two of us breakfast but she was not hungry. No matter what I did she just could not seem to get her mind off of whatever was bothering her.
We took a train down towards Ponyville. It was a long ride but she insisted on staying awake throughout the entire ride.
Is there even a point in pretending that I am the real Spike as I write this? Perhaps the reader understands this by now anyway and it's not like it would make any difference to Twilight.
I was sitting beside her and she kept on giving me these glances. It was as if she knew I wasn't who she thought I was. I didn't really have much control over that so I tried my best to just relax her.
We arrived to Ponyville and got off, repeating what we had done the first time around.
Twilight was very quiet until stating that she felt like she was here before. I didn't want her to notice a complete repeat of yesterday so I lead her down a route which was slightly off course of where we had been going.
Ponyville in the year of 2019 was so different from how it was nine years ago I hadn't realized I messed things up by taking this alternate route.
Every road was familiar to us in Ponyville but this road in particular I should have instantly realized where we were going, only I didn't until we were too late.
We approached a library that was carved out from a massively thick tree. It was the Golden Oaks Library. Upon seeing it I covered my face in a hand, "Oh no."
Twilight's eyes widened with her jaw dropped open. She stood there for some time, frozen in place.
Perhaps she didn't fully remember what this place was? I waved a hand in front of her.
She asked absent-mindedly, "Is... Is this a place we've been to, Spike?"
"No. It's just an old library. There's absolutely nothing special about it," I tried turning her body around.
She resisted and began walking towards the building. Why was she making it so difficult?
I clapped my hands twice and, behind Twilight, Pinkie Pie appeared from a cloud of smoke.
Pinkie Pie tapped on Twilight's shoulder and said hello.
Twilight turned to see who it was. When Twilight saw the pink mare she froze again.
Pinkie smiled, "Welcome to Ponyville, friend! My name is-"
"Pinkie Pie," Twilight finished for her.
Pinkie and I looked at each other with frustrated expressions.
Twilight's ears flicked back as she looked up to the tree house, "I remember now! This is where I lived all those years ago! You threw me a surprise party here when I first came to Ponyville, Pinkie."
Twilight became extremely worried and looked back at the two of us. She looked at me, "What's going on here? Where are my wings? Why is everypony acting like it's the past?"
Pinkie Pie groaned at me, "Discord, you can't even make a proper simulation. How are we going to get Twilight to live in a world where she never unites the elements of harmony?"
I shook my head at her, "You ruined the first day by being self-aware. Besides, she's too strong willed. It's going to take a while to get through her thick skull and accept this new reality as her own."
The purple unicorn fluttered her eyes and shook her head, "Wait. Discord? What's happening?"
I put two fingers together. Pinkie Pie smiled at Twilight, "You're about to get Thanos snapped." I snapped my fingers once again. A blinding white light sent everything into a deafening silence, followed by darkness.
Hey guys it's me! Your favorite dragon!
That's probably not the right way to start a diary but... Ah screw it you already know what's happening.
Twilight was alone in her room as I wrote yesterday's failed simulation in this diary. I wasn't worried of her finding me down here writting because even if she found everything out I could just reverse time for her again in this phony world and have her forget again.
I want her to really see if she can actually live a life without her friends. If she can then by all means I'll leave her here forever like how she would have wanted. If not then, well, I could snap her back to reality.
At around this time I would have gone up to see how she was doing and then see her near the window, staring down at the world below. I decided this time around to see how it would go if I gave her more time to think by herself.
After a bit of waiting I went up to her room. I knocked twice and then entered. I was shocked by what Twilight was doing.
Her window was wide open and she was outside, standing on the outer ledge of a beam that supported our structure. The only thing keeping her from falling down into the abyss was her two arms that were behind holding the window.
"TWILIGHT!" I shrieked.
She turned towards me with a face full of tears and shouted, "Stay away from me! I... I don't know who you are but I know you aren't the real Spike!"
I was careful to not step any closer than what she allowed me to. I just took one step, both hands up to calm her down, "Twilight! You aren't thinking clearly. Just... come back inside."
I took another step and she tensed up, "Don't get any closer! You're the one making me feel this way aren't you?"
Clearly I made a mistake in leaving her alone for too long. Seeing as how I was going to restart anyways I decided to come clean. I transformed back into my dragonequis self, putting two paws on my hips.
Twilight's pupils shrunk to tiny pin needles, "You're... You're real. You're the monster keeping my in this nightmare."
"Monster?" I was offended by her words, "Monster? I am a beautiful creature, Twilight. Just because I look different does not mean I don't have the same inner beauty as any pony else."
Twilight began to hyperventilate. She said, "I... I don't know you... But I know you're keeping me trapped in this place."
i rolled my eyes then started walking towards her to get her back inside.
Twilight looked at me with absolute terror in her eyes. Her breathing slowed as she started to cry harder. She let go of the window and dropped down to the ravine below.
I couldn't do anything but jump after her but it was already too late. I watched her fall helplessly to her death.
Before she could hit the ground I instinctively snapped my fingers, engulfing the world in another white light.
That was an absolute disaster. With that last snap I made sure to try and erase as much of her memory from the 2010s as much as possible. I was determined to send her back to the days before the show if that was what she really truly wanted.
Perhaps instead of waiting for a long time I should have gone up even sooner than average? I jumped to my tiny dragon feet and ran on my way towards Twilight's room.
Twilight stood in the hallway in front of her room, staring at me.
I slowed into a quick stop. This wasn't part of the plan and it actually scared me. I stammered with my words, "u-uhm... H-Hi Twilight! What's going on?"
The mare stood there quietly. She held a menacing stare on her face while she looked at me. There was no way she knew, how could she know?
She approached me, "Who are you and what have you done with Spike?"
I wasn't sure of what to do. I stood up with confidence, "What do you mean? It's me."
Twilight's facial expression changed a few times as she began to pull her thoughts back together. She opened her eyes and looked down at me with anger, "I remember what happened! Just now you revealed yourself as an ugly dragon thing! And then I tried to kill myself by jumping! You are not a changeling you are something so much more demented!"
Her horn glowed as a cutting knife in the kitchen was raised. It flew to her side, floating and pointing at me. She backed me up into a wall, "What kind of dark power is this? What are you doing this for, demon?"
I gulped fearfully as she backed me up to the corner. The tip of the blade touched my throat. Nervously, "I-I-I'm trying to help you, Twilight! You asked me to send you back in time so that you wouldn't have to hurt like you did nine years from now!"
"You're terrible at lying, creature! The future is wonderful, I saw visions of it! You can't keep me contained within this box no matter how hard you try to wipe my memories." She gritted her teeth and made a foreword force with the knife against my neck.
My fingers were already up in the air. Just fractions of a second before the blade could cut into my flesh I had already snapped.
That was scary. I don't know how but Twilight is breaking out of this fake reality I've designed for her. Maybe this proves that she really does want her friends. Even without actual memories of her pals she very well knows something in her fate is not as it should be. She really is one of the most gifted unicorns in history.
My snaps are having less affect on her with each use. At that moment I realized two things: 1) That she probably remembers right now that she wants to kill me. 2) The lights are turned off.
It was dark in the home and I could barely see a few feet in front of me. I changed out of my Spike form and into my normal self. I flew up to the ceiling so that nopony on the ground could touch me.
It was either my own body making sounds but I heard a noise just as I flew upwards. Using my own magic I created a firework sparkler at the other end of the room which shot out glimmers of pink light. Between the flashes I saw a face directly underneath me of a crazed mare that stared directly at me with a big smile.
I shrieked loudly. She hovered several blades near her face that were all pointing up at me. She shouted, "I'm going to kill you, you demon!"
The blades shot up through the air. Coming to another close and gruesome death, I managed snap my fingers to send us back.
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So you know me but who are you? What did you do to me?
Twilight, listen. My name is Discord. I am on your side. Okay? This is all a sort of dream you're in that I'm controlling.
What is this for then? Do you enjoy making me hurt?
Twilight I would never do that. You are the one who asked me to do this. I don't know if I should give you back your memory or not but in the real world it's October 13, 2019. Your heartache was so bad you couldn't handle life anymore. You begged me to send you back to the way things were before you met your friends. So you would never lose them.
Discord I... I don't think I want to be trapped in here. I can't remember these ponies no but if it hurt that bad to lose them then I'm sure the time we spent together made it all worth it. Please just... Just give me my memory back so I can see.
Okay Twilight but don't say I didn't warn you.
. . .
I see... That was. A lot to take in.
Do you remember now, Twilight?
Yes. I remember it all now...
Thank you, Discord. You are such a great friend. I'm sorry I acted this way.
It was only a dream, Twilight.
Still... I think I'm ready to go back to the real world now.
With a flash of white light we both landed on the floor of her little home. We were back at the outskirts of Appleoosa. Twilight felt immensely dizzy and nearly threw up.
I had been used to such reality changed and landed comfortably on her couch. With a final snap of my fingers to end the day I summoned a tall glass of chocolate milk in my hands.
Twilight rolled around for a little bit on the ground until she wasn't dizzy anymore. She grabbed ahold of a piece of furniture and helped herself up.
"Feeling better?" I asked.
She looked down at the ground, a bit anxiously. Without looking at me she said, "Discord that was a pretty nasty trick."
"You said you did not want to be with your friends anymore and that is what I gave you is it not?"
She looked down at the ground. She shook and then teared up, falling to the floor. She covered her head as to not be hurt by me.
This hit me in my heart with a powerful blow. I set my cup down then got up, gulping. I got to her side and put a paw on her shoulder, "Look, Twilight. I never meant for that to go the way it did. I really wanted to see you live a life for just a little bit where you could see those ponies, confront them, and then not need them like how you wanted."
Twilight shook her head slowly. Tears dripped down her nose. In a normal voice she said, "That's such a dumb idea! How could you think that showing me my old friends wouldn't cause me to be upset?"
"You mean to say that deep down you couldn't stand really losing your friends for good?"
"Well of course not! I-" her eyes popped open. She turned and looked up to me, "I... I need my friends."
This made me smile. She looked down. She gritted her teeth and swung at me, landing a good punch to my muzzle. A shrieked and clutched my nose.
She yelled, "Don't you ever do that again! That is not how you teach a friendship lesson!"
My nose hurt but I couldn't help but laugh. I asked, "So what are you going to do now?"
She stood up with her chest puffed out, "I'm going to go get my friends back!"
Twilight turned around and rushed out the door. How wonderful, I managed to turn her only negative feeling into anger towards me. She'll be mad at me again and I'll poke more fun at her and then she'll hate me for even longer. For now though I helped her realize that she must return to her friends.
This was certainly probably the best worst thing I ever did with my magic. What do you think, reader? Was that evil or did I do what was right to help Twilight go back to her friends?
