Schizophrenia

by ProtoFelix

First published

Have you ever thought about why the voices choose to say what they do? Is there someone that drove them to say it? They have feelings too maybe even a life of there own...

I wrote this short story which I could easily expand into a small series but I don't think I would like too.

SD: Have you ever thought about why the voices choose to say what they do? Is there someone that drove them to say it? They have feelings too maybe even a life of there own...

If you find this offensive in anyway please let me know. I do not intend to be offensive to anyone

Please tell me..

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"I have to admit trotting is quite fun, especially when trotting around Equestria." I say taking the gentle summer breeze

"What are you talking about? This is extremely boring!" I say to that stupid full of life pony that has got his head above the clouds

"Don't you think today is amazing?" I exhale towards to the dark coloured earth pony that clearly was having a bad day. I feel sorry for those who can't enjoy life as much as I do

"I'm roasting in my own skin here, don't you ever bring water?" I spit back at the lightly coloured pony that stood ecstatic in front of me.

"I hate to be negative, but please I wish you would just leave me alone" I say directly towards the other pony that had been following me for god knows how long. Actually I do not remember when we met to be fully honest he was just there for me. He always has been.

"Well we are who we are, we exist for only curtain purposes, maybe I am here to show you something or help you." I exhale in one breath trying to say something totally ridiculous

"Well just try not to be so negative all the time!" I spit at him, but I didn't want to hear his stupid remark when he tries to attack back at me

"Well I'm sorry I just can't help it's just who I am!" I shout at the pony. "You don't even know me!" At this point I wanted to kill someone literally! Maybe that's something we could both agree on. "Would you ever kill someone if they had done something bad?" I imply towards him

"I mean depending on the circumstances in place I would why do you ask?" I ask the dark pony who shocked me with the question in hand, but come to think about it I properly would if I had the chance.

"I was just thinking of things where we could be in a perfect equilibrium and it just happened to come to mind" I informatively suggest towards him hoping for an answer that wouldn't put me in the dark

"You think it's healthy to think about this stuff. We aren't murderers!" I stop and look towards him in fear

I didn't realise he was going to take it seriously! "I wasn't being serious I was just asking you a question!" I plead towards the white pony that stood looking down on me raising a hoof like an inferior child to his supreme strength.

"I know its okay. I understand what you feel, but it's your choice to express them or not" I imply towards him hoping that he understands not to go through what he was thinking. "The paths you choose change your life for better or worse. Choose to kill someone and be chased for the rest of your life. Choose to bottle the feeling is to choose a life full of cowardice and fearing those around you, but remember you get to keep the ones close to you safe." I say only fearing the outcome myself. For as long as I've known he has had no one to turn to.

"So what you're saying is that whatever I choose in life it affects those around me and myself?" I look up to him like he was my older brother, but instead he just looks on into the distance as the sun begins to set.

I had no idea how to reply to that. Was I meant to tell him what he was meant to do with his life?

leave him to his own devices? I fear for him will all my heart or just act strong and leave him in the dark of the light of the truth. I manage to build up the courage to say these few words

"I will trust all your decision's life with reason and help you in need. It's up to you to choose what you do. The consequences that follow are the result of cause and effect face them head on and if you are ever in need of help. I will be here to help"

I leap forwards and hug the pony that stood before me and shed a tear whispering in his left ear in a soothing calm breath "Thank you for saying that"

... I'm sorry this is goodbye

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Part 2

23 days later...

"Put your hooves up and step outside the property! You are surrounded!" The man demanded with a loud tone. I don't know what to do. I'm trapped!

"Buck!" What are EPD (Equestrian Police Department) doing here? What did he do? I turn towards him the pony looking at his hooves in shame tears falling from his eyes. "What did you do?"

"I couldn't help it!" I shouted to him. He has no idea what's going on and why I did it. That poor innocent child helpless and he was just being beaten and beaten. "They had no right" I say my voice trembling in fear of what's going to happen next?

"Did you" my heart hate increasing "Ki-kill some-one?" I feared for both of us to ask the question. I couldn't help myself, but ask him if he had.

"Y-yes" I drop to the floor and if I wasn't already crying, I was now.

I drop towards the floor and hug him and whisper "It's all going to be OK. We are going to walk outside together and you are going to tell them everything." I feel a tears start to form in my eyes, taking in short breaths. "OK?"

"Will it all be over if I do?" I ask hoping for him to shed some light on my current situation.

"Yes" I stay locked to him for a moment, the police getting more frustrated and demanding he would show his face. I raise myself up and pulling him with me wiping the tears off my face trotting towards the door I hold a hoof out to him and ask "Together?"

"Together" I tell the pony who is the only one who means anything to my right now.

I place a hoof on the door handle and open it and take a step outside. "Stay strong" I say looking down in him below

I step outside to be blinded by the noise of the sirens and all the fanfare that followed, the sound penetrating my mind.

A boom shatters the atmosphere and the pony that stood next to me and fallen to the ground the moment lasted forever watching him fall and his breathing slow "No. No ... NOOOOOOOOOO"
I dropped to the floor and took him into my embrace and looking into his eyes with sorrow and despair

The pain that overwhelmed me and began quickly receding as all I could think about was him staring at me, tears falling from his eyes. With my last few breaths that I had on this planet I only had but, one thing to say... "Thank you"

Notes!

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If your reading this thank you for reading this.

12/04/15 - I just want to point out because if you have read this and have no idea who's speaking because there are no names included of each character just the description of them i.e - The dark pony or the lightly shaded pony. That is because they are the same person but separated into two living in someone's mind. If you want me to colour code each paragraph to show who's speaking at once give me a message and I will do that for yall' (I am not a cowboy :P)