I miss you
Our Visits
I miss you
I grin at my latest creation. The living chocolate bunny hops around seemingly unaware that it is doing exactly what I had hoped. It’s little ears moves slightly as it hears another sound and it hides behind the granite marker. I watch as it peers over it as somepony flashes into being.
“Discord.”
Ah, so it’s Sparkler. I turn to look at her as she nears the site.
“It’s been a few millennia, why are you doing this to yourself?”
I let out a sigh and look at the marker.
“Do you really want me to answer her? I know, but she’s changed. She’s not the insufferable know it all that you knew and loved, she’s a completely different insufferable know it all that gets very annoying.”
“She’s gone. Discord, she’s been gone for a very long time. Your daughter, Stormy, is the only part of her alive.”
“See what I mean Fluttershy? She’s convinced that that she knows everything. It’s very annoying.”
There’s a feeling of a hoof on my chin and I turn to look at her.
“I miss her too. I miss her, Rainbow, Applejack, Rariy, and Pinkie. There’s not a day that passes by that I don’t miss them, but I know that life goes on.”
I look at her, and I shake my head. She doesn’t understand. She’s immortal, but not eternal. She doesn’t see everything I do. She never will, or she won’t if I don’t show her. Perhaps she needs this as much as I do. I lay my claw on her hoof and will a little chaos to enter and do the magic I need it do.
She backs up, her ears pointing in every direction.
“F…. Fluttershy?”
I smile at her. She can hear her as I do. Especially on days like this, when I’m able to make her happy.
“But… how… What… why?”
“They’re never really gone Twilight, they continue on. Time never really ends. It cycles, recreating, reforging, and moving on. What happens during it is nothing but luck. Time in and of itself, is chaotic.”
I see the realization on her face. I am Chaos. I see all things in time, and I see what exists just outside of it.
“What about… What about Shining Armor? Does he… Or do the girls… Discord… This is… how?”
I grin at her, spread my hands causing a rainbow of candies to appear and float in the air.
“Magic.”
“I’ve got to tell Cadence about this! She’s going to want to know that she can still talk to Shining Armor! I’ve… What was that Fluttershy?”
I watch my dearest friend tell the insufferable know it all something that I’m sure she wasn’t expecting.
“But, she’s been so lost without him. She’s still doing her job, but love isn’t spreading like it once did.”
She sits on her haunches and looks at the ground.
“I guess that you’re right… She would want to be able to touch him again. I just wish that I could make her happy again.”
I reach over and hug her. She returns it and looks up at me.
“Thank you.”
“You’re welcome Sparkler.”
“I still hate that name.”
“I know. Angel, come here.”
The chocolate bunny hops toward us both and stops. Twilight watches as he twitches his nose and then looks up at her.
“Is that really Angel?”
“Not really, but it’s close.”
She watched as the chocolate bunny hopped over to her, smeared a little of its chocolate skin on her coat, and then fell onto its back laughing.
“It sure acts like Angel.”
It’s hard not to reach out and try to touch Fluttershy. To want to cross that seamless divide that separates her from where I am. I know I could, but then there would be no chaos, and the world needs chaos. At least until Stormy is ready to take over. Perhaps then I will make the attempt.
I see Twilight looking at the ground, trying very hard not to cry.
“What’s wrong Sparkler?”
“The girls must think that I don’t like them anymore.”
“Not at all. They understand that you couldn’t see them before. It was beyond what you were capable of doing, but now, for a while at least, you will be able to see them and talk to them.”
“What about… Do you think that he hates me?”
I look at her, and Fluttershy reminds me that Twilight really needs a friend. She’s right of course. Sparkler could use a shoulder to lean on now and again.
“Twilight, I can promise you that he doesn’t hate you. I’m sure seeing you move on hurt somewhat, but it is something he wanted you to do.”
“What about you?”
I shake my head knowing that I allowed her to turn the tables on me.
“Twilight, I want to spend my time with Fluttershy. I can see her, talk to her, and I enjoy our talks. I enjoy almost smelling her, almost being able to touch her. I want to spend my time with her, and time is something I will never run out of.”
She looks at me as if I had just told the very secret of the universe. Her eyes open wide as she comes to grips with what I have said. I have time. I have time in the abundance that no one shall ever know or see.
Still, I suppose that’s why I have enjoyed our visits. Her coming and reminding me of life going on, and my listening to her talking about the everyday events. Even as an immortal she still sees things like the mortals do, like Fluttershy still does.
It’s a flame that burns brighter, hotter, and quicker than any other, but it’s still beautiful all because of those reasons. I suppose that Celestia and Luna do the same thing, occasionally, but I have a feeling that they are becoming more and more withdrawn from everypony. Maybe I should have shared my gift with them.
“No, I suppose you’re right Fluttershy, I suppose that letting them experience this when they don’t completely understand would hurt them.”
I watch as Sparkler looks back at me and Fluttershy one more time.
“I miss you.”
She takes off, and I watch as my Fluttershy waves at her.