Not Here

by ulcuran


Not here

I woke up with the golden rays of sunshine hitting my eyes and the sound of birds flapping their wings, wait... birds?

Opening my eyes almost instantly I saw the trees towering above me blocking the sun but allowing some light to pass through small openings.

''Fuckkk, trees!? am I... am I in the middle of a forest?!'' I scream at the top of my lungs, why am I here? I just went to bed last night, didn't I? Getting up and trying to find my way home seems like the only possible option but the moment I try to get on my feet I see what has happened.

I have no legs or arms, well not human ones instead I have a set of four tan-coloured short cylindrical legs, I scream.

''AAAAAHHHHHHHHH, WHERE ARE MY LEGS WHERE ARE MY ARMS!?!''

My breath becomes erratic as I begin hyperventilating, The sound of jagged, short breaths fills the air, and I panic.

''Wha-what happened to me?! Where am I?! Where are my hands and feet!''

The questions of how, why, what, when, and where are starting to repeat over and over and over, but eventually I barely manage to calm myself down. Alright, let's try to get up and find my way out of this forest.

*Thud*

I can't get up. I attempt to get up on my hind legs again.

*Thud*

I fall again, and my efforts to get up on two legs prove too difficult so I try to walk like a horse since I have 4 legs apparently.

*Thud*

This endeavor proves useless as well. What do I do now? Forget finding a way back I can't even walk. I spend at least thirty more minutes trying to get up on both two legs and four legs but to no avail.

''Fuck me...''

Finding no other solution I start crawling through the forest, left then right left then right slowly I drag myself through the forest, moving slowly I come face to face with my biggest boon yet... a river. On one hand or hoof? At least I have water to drink which I hope is clean enough since I cannot purify the water on the other how the hell am I going to cross this river? I can think of a solution while resting my body is demanding some rest crawling really puts a strain on your body crawling through rough terrain puts even more, finding a stray log near the river I crawl over and close my eyes listening to the river rushing and the odd sound of the forest calms my nerves a little.

''So how do I cross this river? or should I even cross it maybe just follow the river on this side?'' I mumble to myself while stretching my weird appendages. ''Actually what the hell do I even look like?'' Curious to know what has happened to my body I crawl over to the edge of the river and look at my reflection and it was my biggest mistake thus far.

''...'' I stare at the tan-coloured brown maned horse-pony in the river and I stare long enough to make it stare at me back. This is not me, I am human not... not whatever this is. I bring my hand to my face to see if this is real and lo and behold the figure brings its hoove to its face too, at this point I cannot bring myself to look at the figure any longer and break my gaze.

It takes me all my energy to not panic and faint right there but taking deep breaths and trying not to think about the image keeps me from breaking down. Don't think about it just focus on survival for now I push the thoughts to the far corners of my brain, I cannot even look at myself if I am dead I can worry about it later but now I need to find civilization. I won't die in this place, not here.

Wait, should I even find civilization? If someone sees me like this then I can kiss my freedom goodbye, but what if I am not even on earth anymore I don't think anything that can turn me into a goddamn horse. A debate begins inside of my mind but in the end, finding some type of settlement wins out in the end.

''I really hope that this is not earth and the people on this hunk of rock are like me in some kind of way and do not get freaked out at the sight of me'' I whisper to myself and start crawling.

Left, right, left, and right slowly I am getting better at crawling, heh if only the path I am currently going through was clear then crawling would feel a whole lot better, though calling it a path would be giving it too much credit, it's just some cleared dirt along the river the animals probably use, so it has a lot of small rocks and what-not and those rocks are starting to hurt. After more crawling, I find a clearing of sorts and drag my worn-out body there to rest.

I lay on the grass and turned my body around so that I was facing the sun. Wait wasn't the sun in the exact same position just some hours ago? And all of a sudden the fucking sun starts moving at speeds that my mind can't even comprehend and then after a minute the moon rises up and takes the place of the sun.

''H-how does that e-even happen!?!'' Seeing the night come in the blink of an eye hurts my already fragile state of mind.

Should I even continue on my path if it's night? Since this is a forest there may be predators and I don't know if I should take my chances at night since I can't see jack shi- wait is that light? I focus on the point where I think some light of some kind is coming from.

''Please be the light from a house, please be the light from a house'' I start crawling towards the light hoping that I finally found civilization. As I start getting closer to the light I finally get out of the forest and see a house with a green rooftop and a lot of windows.

''Oh god yes!'' My crawling becomes frantic and I use the last of my energy to make it to the house, following the path through the river I cross the small bridge and make it to the door of the house. I knock on the bottom of the door hard enough to make some noise and it works after about twenty seconds I hear the words.

''W-who is it?''

''Help...me.''

I force the words out of my throat and my exhaustion and stress catch up to me and after the words, my eyes start closing, I hope they will help me.

The last sounds I hear are that of the door opening and a woman gasping.