I walked into the daycare…I saw all the children too young and carefree to understand…even as all of them dogpiled me and asked me to play with them…
So I did, because they should know what parental love should be, what being happy feels like in these times of war…
The children asked me if I was alright.
I'm fine.
I walked into a school, seeing all the teens and young adults learning their skills, talents, and just learning about the world. The headmaster asked if I could teach the entire school on some important things.
I did, because the next generation should know better, should learn and understand both the past and present to make a new, better future.
One of the students asked if I was alright.
I'm fine…
I walked into the Training Halls, seeing all sorts of races training together to become strong, either for the War or for the ever growing world we are trying to build.
A general asked if I could help train the soldiers, as I am one of the few with the most combat experience and can help show them how strong they can be.
I did, because our soldiers need to be ready, they need to be strong for the battles ahead, they need to be prepared for what's to come and what might be.
A medic asked me if I was alright.
I'm…fine…
I walked…and met more of my family, as they were all roaming around and doing their own thing. I was asked to help out with preparing for a celebration, cause the work load was a lot bigger than they thought.
I did, because I loved my family dearly and wanted to help out, as I got the preparation in order and got everyone to do their specific duties with utmost efficiency.
One of my kids asked if I was alright.
I'm…
I'm fine.
I walked…I walked into a large room filled with my spouses, all cuddling or in some slow and caring love making. They all smiled at me and asked if I wanted to join their cuddle session.
I did, because Cuddles were always a good thing and I was always ready for some cuddles or some gentle love making.
One of my spouses asked if I was alright.
I'm…
I am fine…
I walked…
And walked…
I saw my family, I helped them…I answered that I'm fine…
I am not fine.
I know what I'm doing…even when people are close…I'm doing this for them…
I am not fine…
I…walked into Eclipsa…they're smile turning into a look of worry. Eclipsa asked if I was alright…
I answered I am fine…
I am not fine…
"No." Eclipsa said, grabbing me and slithering off. "You are not fine."
"I am fine." I retorted, even though I didn't struggle against her. "Why are you doing this?"
"Because your not fine…your keeping everyone at arm's length…"
"No I'm not." I denied, not wanting to hear that I'm keeping everyone away from me even though I've been helping everyone all day. “Why would I ever keep you all at arm's length?”
“That’s what I’m going to find out.” Eclipsa told me as she brought me into a private room.
I walked…
I found Cript, Lord, Vincent and Gray…they didn’t ask why I looked like shit…
I’m not fine…
I asked them to show me what I really need to do, since the four of them all knew I still held back because I cared.
Cript asked if I was sure about it…I was…
And then they showed me…I saw it all…I saw it…
I…
I’m not fine…
To be continued...