And if I don't belong...

by RejectOwl


Stability

"So, Twilight, how have you been doing lately?" Sparkling Apple asked gently.

"I'm... really good actually!" Twilight smiled happily.

"That is wonderful!" Sparkling Apple smiled. "Have you gotten into any new hobbies? I know last time we discussed you finding something to occupy your time."

"Oh yes! I've been doing crochet! I mean, I'm really bad right now, but I'm getting better!" Twilight answered with her ears perked up happily.

"That's good! My mother likes to crochet, I have so many scarves and socks. They're quite warm." Sparkling Apple said with a smile.

"Aren't they? I made myself a scarf after I gave one to my friend Rainbow. Oh yeah! I actually finally made up with my friend who ditched me!" Twilight said happily.

"Have you? You can never have too many friends, so that is wonderful news!"

"And my old friends from Ponyville, they all like my new friend Pearl Shine. She's a little, well, she has self-esteem issues, but my friends still really like her! I wish she didn't think so badly of herself though, she's so nice." Twilight frowned. "I...I actually made her feel really bad when we first met, she called me Twily, and I didn't even think and I just snapped."

"Why would that be?" Sparkling Apple questioned.

"It... it was what my brother used to call me." Twilight mumbled.

"Ah, I see why that would be triggering. How did you snap on her? What did she do after?"

"I screamed at her to never call me that and she felt so bad, she tried to leave. I decided I was going to take her to Golden Corral to make up for being such a bitch and we just really hit it off from there! I... still haven't told her why I snapped, just that it was family issues." Twilight looked down nervously.

"Do you think you have to tell Pearl Shine about what you've been through?" Sparkling Apple asked.

"Well, I mean if she's my friend, shouldn't I be honest with her?" Twilight asked.

"I'm a therapist, not an adviser unfortunately, you'll have to figure that one out on your own Twilight." Sparkling Apple smiled sadly.

"Oh. That stinks." Twilight sighed. "Do you... do you think I'll ever be totally okay again?"

"I think if you continue your therapy and medication, you will finally have stability Twilight."

"You can't give direct advice or answers, can you?" Twilight asked.

"I cannot." Sparkling Apple smiled.

"Damn." Twilight sighed.


"Hey mom." Twilight smiled as she trotted out of Sparkling Apple's room.

"How did it go today my daughter?" Luna asked giving Twilight a quick nuzzle.

"Good actually. At least, there were no tears or flashbacks!"

"Come on, I'll buy you some cookies for having a good session today." Luna said walking ahead of Twilight.


Twilight munched on her giant cookie, peanut butter cup with caramel drizzle, and gazed around at the bright noon day, ponies bustling along, unaware of any of Twilight's struggles, unaware of any of her progress. It seemed quite strange to her.

Twilight's entire world had changed in just a few short months, but the world went on just as it had before.

"Twilight, are you okay?" Luna questioned.

"Oh, yeah, I was just thinking... a few months ago I was incredibly depressed, tried to kill myself even, and now I'm doing so much better and in therapy and ... look at them Mom, they're just going on like everything is the same. My entire world changed, but the world itself just... didn't. It's kinda weird."

"Indeed." Luna smiled. "The world goes on, just as it always has, and presumably always will."

"Assuming a certain mare doesn't go crazy and try to cause eternal night again." Twilight grinned at her mother.

"Faust, you try to cause enteral night, and subsequently the end of the world, one time and your daughter will never let you live in down."

"Never." Twilight cackled. "Also, technically it was twice."

"You are lucky I love you Twilight." Luna smiled.

"It's nice to have something to you know, ground myself with. The moon and the sun will rise and fall, the seasons will change, the world goes on and on, ponies love and learn and fight and grow. It's always changing, but it's always staying the same." Twilight sighed as she stared at the ponies going about their busy days.

"I am glad you are recovering Twilight. It is good to see you happy."

"I think... everything's going to be just fine." Twilight smiled as she sat with her mother.