burning
"You worthless little-"
fear
"I hope you die you can't even-"
pain
"Shut the hell up-"
dying
Impact after impact Oceanlight finally fell to the floor of her family’s small cottage on the other side of the Everfree forest. She didn't move or talk or even think of trying to fight back, there wasn't any point. It would only make things worse. As ocean tolerated the hard pounding hooves against her she was beginning to wonder if it was wrong or okay. She had tried to convince herself her whole life that what her mom said and did to her was okay and completely understandable but as she got older and the longer it went on the more she doubted herself.
She just... Lied there, taking the hits one after the other. She had never seen her mom so angry before. Sure, she had a temper and yes, it was quite bad but now before her she knew her mom was breaking apart... Many years ago, her father had an affair and left her never looking back. Her father wasn't a great stallion he was an alcoholic and often caused more bad then good. Her mom was devastated after the event and eventually ended up taking her anger out on Oceanlight and her older brother Technolight, who was now away in Fillydelphia for college. Leaving her to face her mom alone.
After her father first, left ocean and her brother had to take care of themselves and they're bed-ridden mother as well. They made food and walked to school and asked around town for work so they could help pay the bills.
Sandypool was having one of her episodes but this time it was worse... She had nothing holding her back pure rage in her eyes. She screamed and hit like someone fighting for their life. The things her mother said to her were hard not to take personal... After hearing how worthless and useless she was day after day it was impossible to believe it wasn't true. Oceanlight suffered from having no self-esteem and severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from everything her parents put her through. She was already so terrified of everything and it didn't help that she had no friends or family she could trust or depend on.
She was totally and completely alone in the world and sometimes she wondered if it would always be that way. She was so so tired of everything, of existing, of fighting, of being invisible, of being alone, of fear and of being her mom’s punching bag even though she knew inside she deserved it. Was it so selfish to want to be loved? Was it selfish to want to run away? As Sandypool continued to scream and lay slaps and kicks across Oceanlight she started to drift away into her own head. She had the strongest urge in her life to run. To escape. Her gut was yearning to use every bit of her remaining strength to get up and slip out of the open door and run until she passed out. It was now or never....