Part 19 to the Maybe series Follow the main character thought his newest trails as he tries to better understand the power he possess, and its affects.
Part 19 in the Maybe series. As our character finally has come to terms with what he really wants the question presents its self...will he still keep his mind set on acceptance as something life changing has happens?
To old readers I say this...Enjoy this series end and have fun waiting for the next one I also would like to tell you, the next two series will get your goat then ride it in front of you. (metaphors are magic). To new readers I suggest going back and starting an an earlier part this way you're not confused.
You have been silent since you left the library; Rainbow still walks beside, even she has worried look to her. But you don’t, you hold your head up away from the cold dirt roads of Ponyville and focus on the path in front of you. Each hoof you place brings you one leg closer to her and each breath warms you further to what you intend to tell her.
Rainbow has closely been watching you since you left the library, and she now seems unable to bite her tongue any more as she talks in her cracky tomboyish voice, “Are you ok?”
You smile at her comment as you think on for a moment, not yet Rainbow...not yet, “I will be.”
Rainbow squints a little at you comment, “You sure?”
You turn to her as you continue down the road, “Are you?”
Rainbow blows of your comment, “Twilight is one tough pony, nothing can keep her off her hooves for long.”
You take in the morning air with a sigh at the reassuring comment.
“Hello darling.”
You and Rainbow stop as the regal voice call out behind you. You wait a little anxiously as Rarity trots up with Spike riding on her back. As Rarity catches up Spike jumps off her back and starts walking fast down the road, “Come on Twilight will want to see us early.”
The four of you pick up your pace as the hospital comes into view, your heart pounds in your chest and your eyes widen as it continues to get closer.
You stare at the large building before you start down the short walkway down to the door. You take a deep breath as you place your first step on the path. You smile as you walk, why am I nervous? You stall at the door as you stare blankly at it for a few moments..
As you reach for it Rainbow opens it and put her hoof on you, “Wait...” You look over her face as her hoof stops you in your tracks, she has a concerned look on her face and her eyes are shifty.
You try to hold onto your smile as talk, “What Rainbow?” She continues to stare at you without a word. “Rainbow?”
You bring your face to the door as you push your way past her.
Inside Spike is sitting on the chair to your right with his head buried on his legs. Rarity seems to be arguing with the nurse from yesterday as you quickly get over to her.
“...Well why not?!”
The white nurse looks a little stressed as she snaps back to Rarity, “I have already told you, now please take your seat.”
You stare at the conversation and think, how did something happen I was outside a minute!? You spring into the conversation with an anxious call to the nurse pony, “What? What's wrong?”
She puts her hoof up to her head and looks annoyed, “I have already told your friends now please take a seat.”
Rarity look back to you and places her hoof on you, “You-...”
You quickly move her hoof from you as you talk with a raised voice to the nurse, “What room is Twilight in?”
Rainbow now stands beside you, “We should g-...”
You again ask, “Where is Twilight?”
The nurse picks up on your tone and finally answers, “Sh-shes in room one twenty seven, but..”.
You start down the hall she hoofed to before she could finish her comment.
The pony is quick to follow you, “...It doesn't matter, she not awake.”
You stop and turn back to her, your breathing is raised a bit as you turn, “What? she is asleep?”
Rarity and Rainbow exchange looks before they move closer towards you.
The nurse pony talks in a low voice as she begins, “Mrs. Sparkles is in some kind of magically induced coma th-...”
Your breathing almost stops at her words, you feel queasy and little off balance as you look at everypony's face around the room. Anyone who is talking just sounds like garbled junk to you as you look at their mouths, you turn back to the hallway behind you and think, no...no thats not true...I just heard her wrong...its not true.
You take down the hallway in a full gallop dunging other nurses as you run straining at the door numbers. Rainbow dash and the nurse both are now chasing after you.
Your breaths are fast and your heart a rapid beat as you reach the door. The two ponies are still after you as you dart into the room... On a bed you see her laying motionless, you stare at her unable to move as your heart drops.
Rainbow, Rarity and the nurse now stand behind you. The nurse puts her hoof on you as she talks, “The doctor didn’t say it was permanent...” She notices the feel of the room as she stops herself, “I-i’ll give you all some time.”
Rarity has her hoof up to her mouth as she stares at her friend. Rainbow shares the same kind of look but she can’t really look at her friends. You on the other hand can’t come to bring your eyes away from her.
The room is silent as you take heavy steps towards where she sleeps, each step you get closer your mind races...but you don't hold a single thought as you look her over.
Your eyes are brought to her horn which still flickers a few green and purple sprakes from it. You hold back your sobs as you stare at her closed eyes, “This is all my fault.”
Rainbow has slowly moved to your side and now talks in a low sweet voice, “It’s not your fault...”
Your mind wraps around only one thought...I let her use that magic...I didn’t stop her...You turn your watering eyes to Rainbow as you in a breaking voice, “How is it not?”
Rainbow stares at you in silents.
Your voice now starts up as you talk, “How is it not?!”
She moves her eyes from you as she talks, “It's not.”
You give a chuckle as you feel the first tear start to form, “ya, lie to me Rainbow...”
The room’s air is heavy as you continue, “Tell me that it wouldn't had been different if I never came here.” You turn back to her now as you talk, “Tell me that Rainbow, tell me that this would had still happened.”
Rarity doesn’t move as she watched Rainbow shift for an answer.
After a few moments of the cold silence of truth Rainbow finally blurts out her response, “Then why did you stay?”
You stop for a moment as a tear runs from your face, “Be-because...” You turn back to her, “...I love her....” You hold your head to her closed eyes as you feel yourself about to break down.
As you are on the verge of a collapse you feel a hoof touch you. You turn to Rainbow’s soft pink eyes and listen to her, “...Don’t forget to say that...” Her pink eyes flicker orange as her words echo in your head for a moment...
You open your eyes slowly as the morning sun hits your eyes from the window. You feel a warm stream on your face from where a tear has rolled; the feelings that are now flowing into your still sleepy body are starting to overcome you. You bring your hooves to your eyes as you rub them, as you rub you think to yourself, it was a dream... that's all it was.
You give a slow exhale as you try to forget your nightmare.You bring your hooves from your face your vision of the window is blocked by a cyan wall of fur, “R-Rainbow?”
She begins her head down to your face as she talks in a loudish voice, “What the hay are you doing? I have been outside yelling don’t forget to get up, for like the last hour!”
You stare at her, “How did you get in here?.
Rainbow rips the covers from you as she talks in her normal proud tomboyish voice, “Duh, I cam in the window?”
You smile as you think, note to self, Rainbow Dash breaks into house while you sleep.
She nudges you from the bed as she continues, “Now get up everypony is waiting outside.”
You look back to her as you talk, “Everypony?”
She stares at the unmade bed, “Ya, we have all been waiting for you outside.” She looks back to you, “Did you sleep ok?”
You shrug at her comment, “Not really.”
Her eyes lighten as she talks, “Listen, Twilight’s fine she just had a bad spell, alright?”
You bring your head away from her as you talk, “ya.”
She walks next to you now as she talks,“Twilight should be up by now, so lets go.” She pushes you to the stairs as she talks.
You stop at her comment and shake the dream from your head one last time before following her outside.
As you walk outside everypony stares at you for a silent moment. The silents doesn't last long as Pinkie is the first to spring into a talking mood, “Oh my Gosh! Whenweheardwhathappendyesterdaywewhereall! AHHHH! butnowweareall. Twilight?! And how are you are you ok?” She grabs hold of you in a tight hug as she waits for a response. “Because Spikehadtroublesleepinglastnightanditwouldbereallybadifyouahdthesameproblem.”
You try to speak in her grip as you push away from her, “I’m okay.”
Applejack holds Pinke back as she tries to grab at you again, “Pinkie, he don’t need ya breaking his ribs in a hug you know.” She looks to you as talks now, “Mind telling us what happen? Rainbow just kind of swooped me out of bed saying Twilight was hurt.”
Fluttershy, Applejack and Pinkie all stare at you anxiously awaiting an explanation. You stammer as you try to talk, “Um, well Twilight...” Your stammering is brought to an end as Rainbow talks for you. “We woke up the Usar Minor and Twilight over did herself with a spell and got a little tired. Now lets go, we don’t need to ask him questions when we can see Twilight.”
Pinkie burst out as Rainbow motions to start moving, “Did Twilight's horn fall off?!”
You stop as you stare at her, can that happen?
Spike brings his claws up to his mouth as he talks in a low voice, “Ca-can that happen?”
Rarity stands beside him and places a hoof on the small purple dragon, “No she’s fine.” She motions to Rainbow as she comforts Spike.
Rainbow push Pinkie down the road as she whispers to her, “Cut it out Pinkie, Spike didn’t get any sleep tonight.”
You follow the group in silents as you push everything negative out of your mind. You give a low exhale as you try harder and harder not to think about your dream or any other though you have had over the past few weeks. Your mind is set alittle on ease as Pinkie slows down to walk next to you.
Surprisingly she is not as hyper as she was a few moments ago and you can actually understand her this time, “Sorry if I scared you, I just have to blurt out any thought. It helps clear my mind.” She smiles widely as she waits for your approval.
You nod you head as you continue walking.
She hoofs to the satchel draped across her, “Twilight said she enjoyed the cupcakes so I made her a fresh batch. Want to try one?” You shake your head but before you could say no you feel a warm cupcake being stuffed into your mouth.
Pinkie smiles as she walks back to the from of the group, “They’re bite size so you won't choke!”
You chew on it for a few seconds before swallowing it. Oh man, I am hungry...did I even eat yesterday? Your stomach now starts arguing against you as you feel mind stressed with the suppressed hunger of yesterday boiling up to give you a headache...thanks a lot Pinkie.
As the hospital comes into view you feel your mind battle starting to become a lost cause, you bit at your lip nervously. You pick up speed with your heart pounding as you take to the head of the group, you almost fly to the door at the speed you just galloped in.
But as you reach for the door you freeze completely, like as if there was a barrier holding you back from opening the door. Which giving the fact there is magic is not impossible. But you know the reason, you feel queasy as you place your hoof on the door. Your body is silently fighting your actions as you push against the door, to you this door means more than a piece of wood between the outside and the inside.
This piece of wood is now the real weight of all of your nightmares and all of your worries rolled into one dull piece of dumb wood...and you know beyond this wood frame will only be sweet relief...or the combinations of all of your fears from the past weeks.
You wait for a moment at the door for the others to catch up, your heart pumps and your ears warm as you push against the door. Your mind holds an uneasy feeling as you walk to the reception desk, your voice is a bit shaky as you talk to the white pony from yesterday, “I-is Twilight Sparkle...up?”
The pony looks down at some papers before smiling, “Yes, she woke up a few hours ago.”
Your face cools and your heart steadys from your chest as the white pony walks from the desk and motions to follow her down a hallway.
Everypony behind you gives a slight sigh as they follow behind you.
The wall is not long as the nurse stops outside of a room, “The doctor will be here shortly to decide on releasing her.”
You nod your head as she walks away.
This time you feel light as you place your hoof to the door with a smile and open it, “Twilight?” You stare at the bed in the middle of the room, from the brownish colors sheet you can see her purple hair poking out from it. Again you call her name a little more quietly, “Twilight?”
You watch as the hair turns away from you and her face now looks at you, her eyes have their soft purple sparkling color, she smiles lightly as she talks in a sleepy voice, “Good morning.”
She yawns as she stares at you, “You're up early.”
You smile back as you stare at her bright face, but you don’t say anything. You just stare at her as you finally let yourself relax for a moment.
“Twilight!” Pinkie charges in behind you towards her friends bedside, “Twilight? Are you okay? Is your horn okay? How many hooves am I holding up?!” She flaps her hoof in the air rapidly as she cuntunes to talk in faster tone, “Ifyousayoneyou’recorrectifyousaytwothentheymighthattocheckyourhead...”
Pinkie is silenced as Applejack pulls her from Twilight, “Whoa girl, Twilight probably needs her rest.”
“You okay sugarcube?”
Twilight nods as gives a giggle to Pinkie being held back.
A sense of relief washes over you as you continue to watch Twilight’s friends crowded around her. She laughs as Pinkie continues to try and talk through Applejacks silencing. You step aside from the door as everypony else comes in.
“Twilight!.” Spike runs to Twilight and hugs her as he sobs a bit, “I thought I would never see you again.”
Twilight hugs Spike tightly as she talks, “That would never happen.”
Rainbow nudges her as she talks in a proud tomboyish voice, “Ya, they all got sappy, but I knew you would be fine. You’re always fine.”
Rarity blows at Rainbow, “Don’t let her tough girl attitude fool you, she was just as concerned yesterday.” Rarity looks around the room for a moment before continuing, “Are you okay to leave today?”
Twilight taps her hoof to her face as she talks, “I have to wait for the doctor It think.” She looks to you as she talks, “They just wanted to run one more test to make sure I’m ok.”
You walk closer to the bed as she finishes talking.
Rainbow stares at her horn as she talks, “So what did they say was the problem anyways? A bad spell overload?”
Before Twilight can answer a male voice is heard from behind you, “You would be correct Rainbow.” You turn to a caramel brown unicorn with brown hair, he is floating a clipboard close to him as he talks. Your eyes are drawn to his cutie mark, which looks like a heart monitor, you laugh a little as you look around the room, how advanced is pony medicine?
The pony looks up from his paper as he looks around the room, “Hello Rainbow, remembering to fly safe right?”
Rainbow looks a little annoyed as she answers, “Yes Doctor Stable.”
He looks to you as he stops, he smiles as he looks you over, “You’re a new face. New to Ponyville?”
You shake your head.
He nods with a smile.
“So doc, can Twilight go home yet?”
Stable looks back at the sheets of paper as he talks slowly, “Yes, well Twilight can go home at anytime she feels comfortable.” He again stops as he look up, his voice is now serious as he talks, “You should never try a spell like that again. Do you have any idea how dangerous that was, especially this far in?”
You smile a little wider as the doctor continues his lecture to Twilight.
Twilight holds her head down to the bed, “I won't be trying anything like that again soon, trust me.”
He puts the clipboard in a slot at the end of the bed as he talks, “Honestly you would think a unicorn such as yourself would know not to use big spells this late in a pregnancy.”
“WHAT?!” Twilight almost jumps from the bed as she screams.
The room’s air becomes shallow as everypony takes a large gasp.
Doctor Stable looks around at everypony’s reactions and is a bit taken back, “I...I take it you didn't know?”
Everypony stares between you and Twilight in a shocked state for a few painfully silent moments. Your smile slowly fades as Stables words finally settle into your mind...You feel your breath become deeper as your mind completely blanks. You stand in the room as nothing more than a furry statute as the conversation around you picks up.
Twilight shacks as she again calls out to the doctor, “I can’t be pregnant!”
Stable again pulls the clipboard up to himself as he reads it silently, “Well, your test say you are.”
You're still frozen as you look at everypony's faces. Rainbow Dash's jaw is wide open and her wings stand out to the side with the tips to the ground. Rarity holds her hoof up to her mouth and she stares at Twilight motionlessly. Pinkie is laughing out loud on the ground. Applejack shifts her eyes uneasy and Fluttershy stares at you with a blushed expression, her lips whisper the words “oh my.” As she turns from Twilight and you.
Twilight now sits speechless as the doctor finishes what he was saying, “...You can come in tomorrow and we can re-test you if you would like. But I would advise you to not use magic as much as you do. If the foal is a unicorn using too much magic could stun it’s growth.”
Stable looks around the room and gives a nod as he walks out, “Have a nice day.”
As he leaves the room Spike looks to everypony, “How did Twilight get pregnant?”
Rarity gives a nervous laugh as she pushes Spike out of the room, “Oh um...Hey Spike you should come gem testing with me ok?” As Rarity pushes Spike out of the room she pokes her head back in, “Um, congratulations Twilight.”
Applejack drags Pinkie out of the room as she is still on the floor laughing hysterically, “I think we’ll give you two some time alone, um glad to see you feel better sugarcube.”
Rainbow pushes Fluttershy out of the room now as she too has taken a stance like a unmoveable statute, “I’-I’ll see you two tomorrow.”
You have not moved a muscle since your mind fully grasped what was said but as everypony leaves the room you loosen up a bit and try to talk, but your voice is a cracky high pitched voice, “...hi.” You feel dumb for saying that but right now your mind is not working.
Twilight continues to study the bed spread beneath her two front hooves as she talks, “I-I can’t be pregnant.”
You swallow as the hamster in your head starts to run, “Twil-...” You're cut off by her as she hoof to the clipboard, her voice is almost sad as she talks, “Could you give me that?”
You hover the clipboard over to her and wait as she looks at it.
Her eyes study the writing thoroughly as she goes over the papers what seems like hundreds of times.
You again try to talk as you notice her eyes starting to get stressed, “Maybe you should just lay down...”
Her purple magic wraps around the board as she lifts it up and hoofs to a line, her voice is excited as she talks, “Look see I can’t be.”
You nod your head to her. But still are not fully aware of the conversation.
She moves from the bed as she places her hooves on the ground, “Lets go home I am going to look over something.” She looks determined as she walks towards you.
You try to talk in a low voice as she walks past you, “Are you sure you’re okay?”
She rolls her eyes as she stops at the door, “I’m fine now lets go.”
You are slow as you follow after her.
She turns her head as she walks, “The doctor said I could leave when I wanted.”
You follow slowly behind her as you still try to fully understand what's going on. You eyes drift to her as she walks as you start to think, Does she look bigger?...no its the light...well...no...Your mind drifts on its own as you focus on the lavender pony in front of you.
Rarity stands near the waiting area as you near the door she call out in a questioning tone, “Where are you going darling?”
Twilight doesn't stop walking as she talks, “Home.”
Rarity holds her hoof out not understanding, “Why?”
Twilight calls out as she walks out of the door, “Studying!”
As you enter the library Twilight quickly darts into the main section, “Where are you.”
You quietly close the door behind you as you listen to the sound of books crashing in the other room.
You walk to the threshold of the door and stare at the scattered books around the room.
Twilight sits in the middle of a book circle floating purple aura books past herself as she reads the title, “no...no...no...no...no...no”
You stand at the door silently as you watch her frantically searching the titles.
“...no...no...no”
You watch as the books she has stopped look at float over into a messy pile across the room. You walk over to the pile and pick up a few books with a purple grasp. “Hey, I need those.” Twilight has stopped her searching as she looks back to you, her face is fixated on the books you hold off the ground. You blink at her and then drop the books. She gives a quick smile,”Thank you.”she then goes back to her search.
“What are you looking for?” You ask in a low voice.
Twilight stops her search again as she looks back to you with a little bit of annoyance, “I’m looking for a book on mare...” she shifts a little at the word and doesn't say it.
You answer for her, “Pregnancy?”
She exhales loudly as she again stops her searching, “YES.” She stops mid way through and walks over to the podium she writes her letters at, “I’ll send a letter to Celestia, now hospital should lie to their patients.”
You look down to the pile off book she has already gone through, your eyes fixate on a book as you bring it to you, the title reads, “Unicorn Pregnancy” you stare at the title a little bit more and notice something strange...”Canterlot library.” You stare back at Twilight with skeptical eyes, but before you speak you hear a knock at the door.
Twilight brings herself from the letter to you, “Can you get that?”
You nod as you go to open the door.
Standing in the doorway is Pinkie pie, she smiles to you as she talks, “Hi!” She pokes her head inside as she talks, “Where is Twilight, Rarity said she went home.”
Twilight comes to your side as she talks, “Hi Pinkie, i’m a bit busy, can we talk later?”
Pinkie takes the satchel from herself as she blows at her, “talk? I just can to give you this cupcakes, I know you had a craving for them so I thought they would be a nice treat.” She smiles as she talks in a baby voice to Twilight, “Isn't that right?...”
Twilight’s eyes shrink as she talks, “It’s not cravings I just wanted a cupcake...” she looks at the bag, “I don’t want them anymore.” Twilight turns and walks from the door as she calls back, “Now I am a bit busy so bye Pinkie.”
Pinkie’s face turns a sad as she hold the bag in her hooves, “But you didn’t even try one?!”
You float the bag from the pink ball of fluff as you talk, “Thank you Pinkie.”
Pinkie whispers into your ear as she talks, “I put special sleeping powder on the cupcakes.” She smiles with a squeak, “Trust me it will help.” She wiggles her hoof goodbye as she darts from the door.
You look at the bag, note to self, don’t eat yet.
You close the door as you walk back to the main library, “Well that was rude.”
Twilight sticks has her tongue out as she writes, she looks back to you as she talks, “I’m too busy for Pinke right now.”
You set the bag down on the table as you sigh, you float the book in front of Twilight and set it down on top of her letter. She looks over the title and talks in a dramatic voice, “Oh you found it.”
You take a seat next to her as you grab her hoof, you feel a little uneasy as you think over what you're about to do but you have already been planning it since you left the hospital, “Twilight...we need to talk.”
Twilight pulls her hoof from your grasp as she walks to the middle of the room, “Talk? Talk about what? There is nothing to talk about.”
You swallow hard as you get comfortable mentioning it, “About...about you maybe being...”
She cuts you off, “I’m not, look at me do I look pregnant?!”
You stare at her and don’t know how to answer her.
She holds her head up high, “See.”
You take your head from her as you give a chuckle, “Twilight...”
She again is quick to cut you off as she opens the book, “Fine lets look through the book.”
Your ears perk up as you listen to her.
“...Signs that might mean your pregnant. Back cramps.” She looks to you and smiles, “Nope.” She continues, “Milk production.” She again smiles to you, “See nothing.”
You stare at her until she continues.
“...Cravings.”
Before you can speak she cuts you off, “I already said I don’t want a cupcake.”
You nod as she continues.
“Weakness...” She pause for a moment but continues, “Mood swings....” She doesn’t bring her head up as she studies the book, “Some unicorns may have trouble with magic...” She waits for another moment before reading on, “...”morni...” She shakes a little at the sentence and is unable to complete it. You stare at her as she keeps her eyes fixed on the book, her voice is slightly cracky as she try to talk again, “M-morning sickness...” At the end of her sentence you hear a light sob.
You sit up more in you chair towards her as you talk, “Twilight?”
She plops herself on the ground as she continues to read, “...S-some mares also g-get headaches.” Her sobs get a little louder towards the end of her sentence.
You bring your head from her as you feel guilty for making her read it, “Ok, Twilight...”
She continues to look down at the book, “Unicorns may also have tender hor-horns...” Her sobs are now evident as a teardrops on to the page. She brings her head up to you now and you can see the damage, the white area around her soft purple eyes are now red and her large eyes are water as she talks in a cracky voice, “Y-you know I got this book from Canterlot...”
You try to talk but you can’t look at her sad face, “Don’t cry Twilight...”
But she talks through her failing voice, “I-i grabbed it just because I knew pregnancy could affect a unicorn's magic.”
She looks down to the book now, “Well...I guess I grabbed the right book.”
Your silent as you wish for her to stop crying.
You feel her eyes peering at you as she talks, “I...I don’t want to be some herd pony.” She breaks out into a louder sob as she finished her sentence.
You look at her with a breaking voice from her sobs, “W-what do you mean?”
Twilight holds her head to the book as she talks, “Well...I’m pregnant...so that means you're going to leave me.”
You stare at her trying to come up with the right words...,”Why would I leave you Twilight?”
Her voice is almost completely broke as she talks, “...You and Rainbow...”
Your voice is more stern as you move closer to where she sits, “Twilight...I would...”
She breaks your voice as she sobs again, “It’s not like we’re married or anything...why would you stay w-with somepony who got pregnant on hearts and hooves day?”
You bring her face up to you as you talk, but she looks away from you trying to hold back her tears, “I would never leave you...I love you....”
She stops sob her sobbing as she look back to you, “...w-what?”
You swallow hard as you talk, “I have for a long time Twilight...I-I just could never say it before...”
She continues to look at you as you begin to lose the battle with your eyes,, “ I could never leave you.”
Her eyes are still watery and her breaths are fast as she is almost hyperventilating while she tries to talk, “I-I love you...”
You press your lips to her to stop her for her continuous crying. You hold the kiss for a few moments before you take your head from her, you no longer have something telling you that what you did was wrong...you only feel right in this moment, “Don’t cry Twilight.”
She continues to try and collect her breathing as she opens her eyes, “I want a cupcake now.”
You both give a light laugh. You smile to her as you stare at her, “Alright.” You press your wet lips to hers one last time.