By the time I made it to Twilight’s I had a trail of misery and tears behind me, when I came up to her door the guards stopped me but only for a second before they saw the state I was in. They personally escorted me to Twilight, one pony was guiding us while the other was asking me what had happened. I didn’t say a word to them, if I did they would throw me right out, no questions asked. When we came to the room Twilight was in they waited before permission was given to enter. Once inside they called over to Twilight who was currently reading a book in her library.
“Your highness, this stallion needs your help.” said one of the guards, “He appears to be in a state of shock right now but we’re not sure what happened.”
Twilight nonchalantly put her book down before walking over to us, she examined me before motioning her guards to leave, “I can handle this, thank you.” she said in a calm manner.
With a bow the guards left, closing the door behind them as they made their leave. Once gone Twilight walked me over to a table and pulled a seat out for me. She then told me to sit while she went to go fetch a book somewhere. When she left I just layed my head down and closed my tired eyes for a moment. They only opened when I heard Twilight returning in the distance.
Sitting up I turned to see her holding a rather outdated book that she placed before herself on the table, “W-what’s that?” I wondered with a shaky voice.
Twilight looked over and smiled from hearing me speak, “A book on healing spells, I never really got to use it all that much but I figured this is the best opportunity I can get.”
“So am I just your lab r-rat n-n-now?” I mumbled quietly.
Twilight only smiled as she flipped through some pages before turning to me, “This should restore some of your mental stability.” she explained as she cast an aura around me.
We waited silently as the aura was drawn into my head, as it shrank in size I found myself feeling almost normal now. My trembling was beginning to cease and my body was beginning to relax. My mind felt at ease once the aura was completely gone, I could think clearly now and take in a casual breath. This also meant I could focus on what’s at task right now.
“How do you feel?” questioned Twilight as she took a look at me.
“Much better haha...” I smiled with gratitude to her, “I think I should be able to handle myself for now.”
Twilight nodded and took a seat next to me, “Now then, would you care to explain what happened?” she asked kindly.
I frowned a bit now at her question, “It’s a long story but can it wait? Fluttershy really needs your help right now.”
“What happened to Fluttershy?” Twilight wondered, “Is everything alright?”
“You’ll find out once we help her, she’s in Rarity’s house right now and I don’t know how much longer she can last.”
Twilight needed no more explanation as she grabbed the book she brought and teleported us to Rarity’s house. I was a little surprised considering this was my first time being teleported to one area to another. It felt strange really, my body was tingling slightly but only slightly. My vision was somewhat blurry too but once everything came into focus I followed Twilight to the door.
We didn’t bother with the doorbell as Twilight flung the door open, Applejack and Rarity jumped from the sudden entrance but quickly guided Twilight to Fluttershy. I followed behind while Twilight was told of Fluttershy’s condition, currently she was fighting to stay awake as the concussion was worse than we all had thought. We were brought to kitchen where Fluttershy was currently leaning over a wall to fight the concussion. When she noticed Twilight she tried to smile but nearly fell to the floor.
I caught her mid fall and helped her to the table, “Are you still there?” I questioned calmly as I steadied her, “Can you say something?”
Fluttershy squinted her eyes before replying, “Cerulean...” she muttered, “Is...Derpy...Ok?”
My eyes widened with shock, this whole time under her condition she was only thinking about Derpy, “Um...Yeah yeah she’s fine.” I replied, “I’ll go get her ok, in the meantime Twilight will take over ok.”
Before I could leave Fluttershy suddenly grabbed me and pressed her lips against mine for a moment, I was caught off guard completely and wasn’t sure what to do, “I love you...” she whispered quietly as she pulled away.
My face began to blush with confusion, “I love you too.” I replied as I questioned whether she was delirious or not but she was smiling now.
Taking my leave I went to go find Derpy, it didn’t much effort considering Rarity’s house wasn’t as big as Fluttershy’s. I found Derpy in Rarity’s bedroom by herself, she was silent of right now but her eyes were red from the overuse of tears and emotion. When she saw me she became tense but seemed approachable.
I carefully walked over to her and took a seat on the floor, “You doing ok?” I asked, “Did anyone manage hit to you from earlier?”
Derpy was distant but not so distant that she couldn’t respond, “You nearly killed that pony...”
I frowned at her words and sighed, “Yeah...If Fluttershy hadn’t been there who knows what could’ve happened.”
“Why?” questioned Derpy.
“Why what?” I replied.
“Why were you so angry, I understand that you feel bad for me but what made you lose it that badly?” Derpy’s voice rose up with each word, “I know he hurt Fluttershy and he said all those things to me, but why were you going so far with it?”
I wasn’t sure how to explain myself, at this point I wanted to tell her who I really was. What my past was like and the trouble I went through before Fluttershy came into my life, I wanted to tell her everything but Celestia was keeping me from saying a word. I gritted my teeth in hesitance before leaning back, my head was beginning to spin and I felt a seething rage building up again. My arms began to shake and my head felt like it was being hammered now.
I looked over to Derpy, I could feel more of my rage building up but when I spoke it was suddenly gone, “There’s more to me than what I led you to believe...” I said quietly, “What I’m about to tell you is something that must be kept a secret, do you understand?”
Derpy raised a brow at me in question, “What are you talking about?” she wondered suspiciously.
I wasn’t sure where to begin, “I’m not really a pony,” I explained, “I’m actually a human.” I could see Derpy wasn’t following too well but I continued, “I come from another world, one filled with violence, anger and madness. I started out with a family but my mother and father didn’t love me, they actually tried to sell me for something called drugs when I was two months old but my brother and sister took me away and we left them. A few years later they died in an accident and a few more years later I lost my brother and sister, I was on my own after that until I came across a mare that changed my life.”
Derpy began putting the pieces together, “Fluttershy...?” she muttered quietly.
I nodded my head and continued, “At first we didn’t say much to each other, I wasn’t really the talkative type and well you already know of Fluttershy’s shyness.” I couldn’t help myself as I began to smile, “As time went on we finally said a few words and those few words turned into conversations and those conversations formed into a relationship I can’t even begin to explain. She calls it love but I’m not exactly cupid so I had no idea how to handle that.” my face blushed when I remembered the first time I kissed Fluttershy, “We spent the next 40-50 years together, I aged to an old fart while Fluttershy stayed the same. We never knew why but it was rather sad because we feared that I would pass away soon and Fluttershy would be alone after that.”
“Wait 40-50 years?” interrupted Derpy, “How old are you?”
I laughed at her questioned, “Well i’m going to say maybe 70-80 at most, really I lost count but I didn’t learn how to count until Twilight taught me math.” Derpy was even more confused now but continued to listen, “So like said, 40-50 years pass by and i’m old and Fluttershy isn’t, we weren’t sure why that was the case but one day, after so many years her friends finally found us. With them were Celestia and Luna,” I paused as I grew a little tense now on this part, “Celestia did most the talking while Luna kinda just sat on the side lines along with Fluttershy’s friends. Celestia and I talked about things and I told her that Fluttershy wanted me to come with her to her world, this turned into a argument as Celestia said it would pose too many risks. It soon led to Celestia attacking us and I managed to take her down but I couldn’t end her...”
Derpy was now a little scared to where this was going, “Cerulean...What are you trying to say?” she asked nervously.
I paused, really I wasn't’ sure what I trying to say to her, “I guess...I guess I wanted to tell you this because I couldn’t hold this from you anymore.”
“But why?” she wondered, “Why are you telling me all this?”
“I figured that if I were to be taken back to my world, I’d at least want my friends to know the real me, not some lie Celestia made me out to be.”
“Why is this all pointing to Celestia?” Derpy asked, “Why do you despise her?”
“Because it was her that sent Fluttershy over to my world,” I replied, “it was all a set up. The years we spent, were just data to her as it was a test to see if humans were ready for ponies.” Derpy’s eyes widened as I continued, “When Fluttershy and I found out, I was broken, shattered to pieces as I wondered what was real and what was not. To make it worse, Celestia assigned me watcher's, one of them being Fluttershy and the rest were her friends. They are all supposed to teach me something about life so that I can fit in this world, i’m also supposed to have tests and if I pass them I assume I can stay with Fluttershy but if I fail, I’m brought back to my world, no way of coming back.” I had tears in my eyes now as I began to finish, “The scary thing is, I don’t know whether this is a test because I still don’t know what’s real and what isn’t. There’s so much wrong with this I don’t even know what to do, I don’t want to go back, i’d rather die than go back into that hellhole that is my world!” I couldn’t speak now as my throat tensed up from the tears.
It was a lot for Derpy to take in, honestly I wasn’t sure how she was handling it all but when she saw me break down something in her awoken. She stood up and came by side and stood firmly before me, “You fight for freedom.” she said, “I don’t know how but you have to fight Celestia.”
I managed to utter a chuckle, “That’s what I said when Fluttershy and I found out but how can I take her on?”
“That’s up to you,” Derpy replied as she placed her wing over me, “but know that i’ll be by your side when the time comes. Me, Fluttershy, Applejack, Pinkie, Rarity, Twilight and whoever you meet along the way, we’ll all be by your side as long as you keep fighting and never lose hope. If you do, then it would have all been for nothing.”
I was a mess of tears at this point as I tackled Derpy to the floor, I sobbed uncontrollably from her words. Derpy only held me until I stopped, much like Fluttershy ironically. When I settled she sat me up and smiled, “I don’t know what will happen in the future,” she said happily, “but I can guarantee you that i’ll be by your side all the way. Even when i’m not physically there, i’ll be in your heart ok?”
I wiped my tears and sniffled, “Alright...” I muttered as I began to smile, “You mind not telling anypony about this?” I questioned with a reddish face, “The last thing I want them to talk about is how I cried like a baby right now.”
“Awe, but what if I like seeing you open up?” said a familiar voice.
My eyes widened at the voice as I looked over to see a yellow mare with a pink mane and calm blue eyes, “Oh god...” I uttered as my face turned dark red, “H-how long were you there F-Fluttershy?”
Fluttershy simply smiled and walked over to me, following her were the rest who were all smiling as well. They all surrounded me before they charged in for a hug that nearly ended me as I could feel my eyes were about ready to pop out. The only thing that was missing was Rainbow Dash but knowing her she would be balling as hard as I was. She would then pretend she wasn’t crying and try to make fun of me for it until Fluttershy says something back that completely shuts her up.
“We know this is a heavy burden,” said Twilight.
“but like Derpy said,” said Applejack.
“we will always be by your side.” said Rarity.
“As long as you never lose hope or stop smiling,” said Pinkie.
“you’ll one day rise up and get the freedom you deserve,” said Fluttershy.
“AND WE’LL ALL BY YOUR SIDE WHEN THE DAY COMES!” shouted everyone.
I was fighting back the tears that were forming again but when I turned to Fluttershy I couldn’t help myself as I tackled her to the ground now. This only led to a dog pile on us as everypony piled over one another. We nearly squeezed Fluttershy flat with our combined weight but we quickly pulled out and had a good laugh.
Afterwards we took a moment of silence as we look at one another, if only Rainbow were here, I mumbled to myself as I kissed Fluttershy’s cheek. This provoked the others to make kissing face at us and other gestures that were questionable. It got awkward when Pinkie began riding Applejack for some reason, I actually understood what she meaning but it was so uncalled for. This left everypony in a awkward silence as we all just exchanged awkward glances to each other.
“Let’s go get Rainbow Dash.” I said quietly.