Your Fault

by GodOfBBQ


The Guilt

It was a late, rainy night as a familiar blue unicorn mare stumbled down the Ponyville streets. This mare's name was Trixie Lulamoon and ever since the Alicorn Amulet incident some would think that everything turned out great for her but in reality, it only went downhill from there. Sure she was forgiven in Ponyville but everywhere else, she was loathed and disrespected by everyone she came across. She had treated the folks she met with respect and patience like she learned to do, but every time she did she would always be ridiculed and hated.

Now, a few years later she returned to Ponyville to repay the Princess of Friendship Twilight Sparkle a visit to tell her the problems she has encountered. Trixie wasn't only angry or jealous of the Alicorn but furious and vengeful to Twilight. Ever since she heard word that Twilight had become an Alicorn she has been loathing Twilight ever since. Why did Twilight become the Alicorn? Why does everything nice and great happen to the purple unicorn and not the blue one? Trixie has always had to work to the bone of her hands just to sleep in a bed, but that "Princess" Gets everything served to her on a silver platter. When was it Trixie's turn to be happy?

While Twilight earned wings and royal power, Trixie earned many bruises and wounds along with becoming a drunk, depressed, and having to sell her body for bits so she can afford to sleep under a roof. Her self rant and angry mumbles ceased when she came across Twilight's palace doors. Trixie glared at the large shiny doors, mocking her in their beauty. Trixie was once as beautiful, shiny, and new like the doors of Twilight's palace; but ever since she was released from the Alicorn Amulet nothing went right for her.

"Th-think you're better than Trixie? Think you-you're better than her? With y-your... Doors! And your pretty little crown and princess label! You don't know what it's like! She doesn't know what it's like! I know she doesn't know what it's like, that's why we're here!"

She raised her dirty blue hand and sloppily slammed on the large doors. Almost instantly she was met with a royal guard in purple and gold armor, with a spear to match the colors.

"State your business here citizen."

Trixie only glared at the stiff and serious stallion. She finally lifted her hand pointing to the sky.

"THE G-GREAT AND POW-POWERFUL TRI-TRIXIE DEMANDS TO SEE THE-THE BITCH WHO LIVES IN THIS GIANT T-TOY PALACE!"

"Ma'am I believe you are drunk, please return to your home." The guard replied sounding irritated now.

"TH-THE GREAT AND POW-POW-PO- TRIXIE WILL NOT BE SILENCED!" As Trixie and the guard continued their argument and rants Twilight has ventured to the door herself, being woken up by all the commotion.

"What's going on Private? Who's at the... Trixie?"

Trixie staggered in place as she took another drink from a glass bottle of vodka. After her long gulp she pointed with the hand that held the bottle and began her rant.

"You! Do y-you unders-stand what I wen't th-through? Just to sleep in a bed! You an-and I need t-to talk!"

Twilight only stared at the drunken mare, for reasons even she couldn't explain she let her in.

"Let her in Private."

~***~

Twilight and Trixie settled in a giant sitting room of the palace, the chairs were made from the finest leather Equestria had to offer. A chandelier hung from the ceiling lighting up the entire room, dark violet walls and dark oak wood floors built the room and made it more exquisite.

The two mares sat across from each other. Trixie was slumped on a velvet wood chair looking as if she were to fall asleep that moment. Twilight sat sophisticated and pridefully upon her modest but more grand chair. The room stayed silent and motionless until Twilight spoke up.

"So... How are things?" She obviously had nothing to say. Who would?

"You know damn well how "Things" are." Trixie replied with quotient fingers in the air.

"I don't think I know what you're talking about Trixie."

"Don't play stupid Sparkle! You know what you and your little friends did to me. I came to this town hoping for a good life, some fans, and adoring audience! All I did, was show off some tricks, and you and your friends couldn't handle that? Couldn't handle someone presenting themselves? Then later that day, you run me out of town for the ursa minor problem! Which might I add, was the making of those two retards Snips and Snails! Tell me how that's fair Sparkle!"

"You were showing off! You were flaunting your powers! Challenging others to make yourself seem more great and-" Twilight was cut off.

"What's wrong with doing that!? Everyone here in this little town you call your kingdom does the same! They lie about themselves to make themselves seem more amazing or more important. Last time I checked, your friend Rainbow Dash does the exact same thing. The only difference is she doesn't challenge others."

Twilight was speechless, as much as she didn't want to admit it Trixie was right. Rainbow had a tendency to over her stories; especially if they were about herself. Once again, an awkward silence fell over the two mares. Neither wanting to say anything to each other. Almost sounding like a murmur, her voice rose to a respectful volume.

"I have no where to sleep... I try my hardest not to sleep under a bridge. But now that I think about it, compared to the things I went through just to sleep in a bed... I would take a sleepless night under a bridge than do what I did."

"Don't you have your caravan?" Twilight asked sounding more concerned for the now hungover mare.

"Did, did is the key word Sparkle. A few weeks after I left Ponyville after the amulet event, some thugs found my home... And burned it down. Ever since then, I didn't have a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in, food to eat, water to drink and bathe in. I had nothing... Then I heard of you, becoming an Alicorn... See the difference between you and I Sparkle is that in the beginning you had everything served to you on a silver platter. See I saw your little, screw up at the magic tryouts. But Celestia took you, under her wing. Took you under her guidance! Leaving me! Leaving me to work my ass off just to earn a few bits to support myself!"

Anger filled Twilight as well.

"Are you saying that I didn't work hard to get where I am today!? I studied day and night, missed the opportunity to socialize with others! Besides, at least you were free to do what you want! I had to constantly study and work my way here!"

"SHUT UP! You shut up Sparkle! You can't even fathom the pain and sadness I had to go through! I went home that day to get beat by my parents! Lets go a few years later to when I was the performer you first knew me as! I was sometimes loved, sometimes loathed by most. But then you and your friends happened to me! I lost everything Sparkle! You think you had it hard? All you did was sit on your lazy ass and stare at words in a book! In a warm room with a loving family to help you get there! Lets go back to last year, I was homeless, living in Manehatten selling my body just to afford food and shelter! I worked as a pole dancer! I earned little to nothing Sparkle! Where were you meanwhile? Huh? Where were you? I think I know, reading your books in your warm home, with loving friends and family surrounding you!"

Trixie paused, wanting to say something else but hesitated. Finally after gathering up the bravery she continued.

"I once had to spend everything I had... Everything I earned to abort an unborn child. I had become pregnant Sparkle! Given my current situation I couldn't take care of the child. I had to let it go. I had to end an un-lived life. Where were you while I went through that? Where were you when I had to play god? Simply reading books, in a warm home, with family and friends surrounding you!"

Both Trixie and Twilgiht had tears going down their faces. Heavy breathing came from Trixie trying to recover from her rant. Twilight only looked at the ground, never making eye contact with the former showmare.

"Get out... Get out, get out, GET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT!" Twilight shouted, still crying. Trixie back up a few steps in surprise and slight fear. Then a giant scowl grew on her face.

"Wow Sparkle, I thought you were the "Princess of Friendship" Guess I was wrong huh?" Trixie said smugly. After her taunt, she stormed towards the room's doors but stopped and glanced back to Sparkle.

"One day Twilight, one day you'll know what true pain feels like. What it feels like to be left alone, to lose all your friends. Mark my words Sparkle, while you're 1,000 years old but you still have some youth and all your friends are dead and gone... You will know, what true loneliness feels like."

She finally turned her head and walked out the room, closing the doors with her magic behind her. Twilight was experiencing a wave of different emotions. She was sad, angry, guilty, and confused. She didn't know what to do, she only stood in the middle of the room and stared at the closed oak wood doors. Suddenly, with anger taking over she screamed and kicked at a chair knocking it over.

Trixie who was only down the hall, was once again tearing up from the sound of the screaming Alicorn.

~***~

It was nearly sunrise when while Trixie stood on a near hill staring at Twilight's palace. She took a long drink of whisky this time as she continuously stared at the tree like castle. She stood near a tree, about 4 feet taller than herself. Her glance fell onto the branches of the tree she stood near, she stared at it for the longest time before using a simple conjuring spell. She dropped the empty whisky bottle to the ground and in her hands appeared a thick rope.

With her magic, she tied it into a noose and tying it to the tree. She used a levitation spell to reach the branch of the tree that the noose was tied to. She took the loop and slid it to her neck. Holding onto the branch, about to take the fall she began to mutter to herself,

"Merciful god in heaven, please forgive me for I have sinned. I do not deserve the luxury and graciousness of your kingdom lord father but please accept me into your arms as I commit to this act. I pray for those who go through the same as I, I pray for Twilight and her friends, please forgive them for their sins lord father and when their time comes, please accept them into your kingdom as well lord. As I commit to this act, please capture my soul and take me to the gates of heaven.

Amen"