Epilogue Celestia’s Point of View
It’s been how long? What seemed like almost two years has passed…and nothing changes since then. I’ve changed…but I don’t want to…I don’t want any of this.
It was shortly after Twilight and the others vanquished Nightmare Moon. Of course I was happy to have my sister back and happy to share the power once again…but it changed… After a month or so I started to feel headaches, I felt tired all the time and food didn’t seem to satisfy any kind of hunger I felt. Eventually, they passed but…I noticed how I started to change in mind.
I started to feel…greed. I wanted all the power back…but I didn’t. It seemed that in my mind I wanted it all back. I controlled when the sun and moon were to shine, I didn’t have to share it. That’s what seemed…but it my heart I wanted no such thing. I love my sister; I want to rule by her like we’ve been doing again.
Within time, I started to feel cold. I started to disregard Twilight’s Friendship reports. I thought that her friends input on Friendship would help but I started to do the same with them as well. When I tired to read them, I would feel sick, even when I thought that they were learning very important lessons. Not in disgust but physically.
Within time I looked over a vast collection of books that my mother gave me. In time I’m supposed to share this collection with my sister but…I still haven’t…it’s mine…that’s what my mind says. The collection of books where of many one of a kind, they were all created by a number of explorers and scientists and one book by these people exists. I found myself looking at these books, I would actually forget to raise the sun and Luna had to remind me.
Within time I started to find more interest in one that talked about when they saw two mechanical beings that landed on the planet. There were sketches of them in the book. Little did I know that I would see one of them in person very soon…
When I learned of their existence, the talk of a large powerful mechanical being seemed not so farfetched, it was merely a sighting and sketch was also in the book… The book didn’t have a name but from deep in my mind I heard and felt the name…Unicron. I didn’t want to believe such a monstrous being could exist…I wanted it’s power…I wanted all of it’s power… This was the first time in so many years I felt completely helpless.
As time went on further…it only seemed to worsen. I wanted more than devastating power, I wanted authority…more than Equestia could offer. Ever since I learned that there are in fact aliens and other planets with race to command…I wanted it. But not in my heart, I wanted to stay where I was supposed to be. But I wanted it all somehow.
When the Transformers first came to Equestia I actually tried to kill them. I never wanted to do that to anypony or anything. When confronted with Starscream, I tired to make him disappear from existence…and it only turned him into a pony, both times. I felt a need to remove him from existence! But I’m so happy that Luna’s theory seemed to be correct, that they are somewhat immune. And Starscream’s prolonged exposure to the planet seemed to have only very mild effects of magic, so I didn’t kill him…I don’t want to kill him…but my mind did.
What made me terrified was that this all felt like free will. It doesn’t feel like I’m not in control…I feel in control but… it’s like…a Nightmare…
Author's Note- Well I guess I was being a little too vague at the end and many people understandably got the wrong idea. So I decided to explain it better without actually giving it away...Though I feel I now made it too obvious but whatever. Anyway, hope this clears everything up.