Pinkie pie had been on Rarity's bed for hours, her eyes were glowing red for all the crying but completely empty. Voices echoing in her head repeating the phrase over and over. The night had just came to Ponyville. Luna had covered the sky with a black blanket decorated with small blinking lights, a beautiful sight indeed. Suddenly, a different voice appeared saying "Friends always forgive and trust each other, don't they?" It was Twilight. Her gentle and sweet voice make Pinkie Pie felt better, but when did she said that? "I don't remember her saying that... at least not to me, did I dream that? or did she actually said it?" she wondered for a moment. But quickly forgot about, it didn't matter when or if she said that, the important thing is that it give her strength to get up and try again. She was determined to fight for her friend. She cleaned up the tears from her face and got up from the bed... but got scared because she didn't actually remember get the on the first place, she didn't even knew where she was. She went to Rarity's house a lot of times, but never before she went to her room.
She walked down the stairs that led to the main room of the house/boutique, and there they were. Because of Pinkie not reacting, Rarity took the time to start with her dress making and using her friend to help her. They didn't hear her coming down, they just noticed her when she came a little closer to them.
"Hi, guys" She greeted rather shy, Her friends jumped and came to her to give her a big hug.
"Pinkie, darling, are you alright?"
"Yeah... no... I mean I don't know" Pinkie looked confused, she was kicking the ground and lowering her head.
"What was all that about anyway?" Rainbow Dash wanted to move on and actually help her friend, but she couldn't help without knowing what was going on.
"Well... I wanted to make Twilight smile and give a little surprise. I have a gift for her, but I thought the gift wasn't enough so I went with the party cannon. I didn't want to kill the book, I swear!"
Rainbow Dash gave a face hoof, she knew sometimes Pinkie's surprises could be dangerous but as much as she had told her over and over the earth pony never understood that.
"But why would you want to give her a gift? I know is non of my business but it isn't even near her birthday and you usually don't go around giving things to anypony... not me at least" Rarity was curious about the gift. Something about that seemed weird.
Pinkie was starting to blush and open her eyes wide open "Well... she misses her smarty pants doll and I... wanted to replace it" Her nervousness was clear as day. She smiled just like Applejack does when she lie, she was sweating and her hooves shaking.
Rainbow Dash flew and took away the dress she was wearing in a swift move, and continued with the interrogation "And why now? Why not waiting till her birthday?"
Pinkie was caught on the spot "B-b-because everypony gets gifts on their birthday. I wanted to do something special" She kept lying, but all the lies made things even worse.
"Why something special? Why now?" Rarity's curiosity showed up.
Pinkie tried to think of something that would help her out to get out of the situation, but she couldn't think of anything. She saw the door and thought to run away, but Rainbow had positioned herself on the direction of the door, probably she thought on preventing her escape before. Finally she gave up, it was time to confess.
"Okay, I'll tell you, but you have to promise not to tell anypony. Pinkie Promise!"
They rolled their eyes and began the pinkie promise at unison "Cross my heart and hope to fly. Stick a cupcake in my eye"
Even though they did it, she didn't feel comfortable, but she did said she would tell them the truth. She took a deep breath and told them "I... I have a crush on Twilight... I really like her, and I wanted to give her something she likes to see if she look at me the same way"
Rainbow Dash fell to the ground in surprise. Her eyes were wide open and her wings became stiff. Rarity's jaw dropped, she couldn't believe what she just heard. The room filled with silence, nopony say something nor do something. You could feel the awkwardness on the air.
"I know, I know. I'm sick. We are both mares and we are friends. But I can't help it, I try not to think about her and not see her in that way, but every time I see her my heart accelerates and everything around me becomes nothing"
The first one to break the silent was Rarity "What ever do you mean? You are not sick is just who you are, and nopony chooses who they love"
"Really? Do you like mares?" Pinkie asked back to Rarity
"Well not really. In my line of work I see all kind of ponies and some of them are not interested in colts, some even tried to hit on me once or twice" The earth pony was kind of surprise at the answer so she kept asking their friends "What about you, Dashie?"
"Me... I'm to busy becoming a Wonderbolt to think about something like that" Rainbow dash tried to keep herself calm when answering, but she still was thinking about her friend just confessed.
"And what are you going to do now?" Rarity asked when seeing the pink pony going to the door and taking her saddlebag.
"I'm going off to Twilight's. I need to find a way to make it up for her"
"Don't you think is a little early? She's probably still angry"
"No, I can't let things this way"
The unicorn and pegasus were surprised of how mature her friend was acting. Rainbow Dash didn't say a word, the idea of her friend being so different was still hard to sink in for her, but seeing how determined she was about her objective they would let her go "Thanks for bringing me here, I'll make it up to you to. Laters" Pinkie left the building in direction of Twilight's library/house.
Once she arrived, she saw Spike coming out from the front door "Hey Spike, is Twilight home?"
"Hi, Pinkie Pie, yes. But she has been in the basement since the afternoon. Feel free to go"
"Where are you going?"
"The cutiemark crusaders ask me for a favor. I'll be back in a while. Later"
The dragon ran off leaving the door open "We are going to be all alone" she thought "Maybe this wasn't a good idea" She considered going back and try tomorrow, but she was already there and there would be no interruptions. She took all her courage and entered the tree. She left the saddle bag next to the entrance and headed to the stairs leading the basement. The whole place was quiet... perhaps too quiet, kind of creepy actually. She carefully opened the door to the basement, she sneaked up slowly until she saw her friend right in the middle of the room. She felt relief at seeing nothing really creepy is around but now she had to come in.
She approach her slowly and tried to this time not scare her "Hey, Twilight" Twilight jumped again... she failed "I'm sorry, I didn't want to scare you this time, I swear!"
Twilight looked at her and took a deep breath "It's okay Pinkie. I'm actually happy you came"
"You are?" She was surprise her friend actually wanted to see her after what she did.
"Yes. I wanted to apologize about what happened earlier. This important is very important for me, is the dearest belonging I have.You see this is the very first book I had, my parents gave it to me when I was a filly and I love it. It's called: The filly princess. Is a great book and I read it every once in a while... or I used to. I know you didn't want to did it. I got mad and I yelled at you, it wasn't fair. I'm sorry"
Instead of feeling better because of her friend apologizing, she felt even worse. Before, she only knew it was very important book, but know she knows is the most important thing for her "I'm really sorry Twilight. I didn't know" She felt even more depressed than before.
"Pinkie, I said it's okay. Don't worry about it" Twilight put her right hoof on her friend's cheek and showed her a big smiled. This cheered her up a little, but she still felt guilty "I know what I said hurt you. I don't want to do that again to you, I really want to leave that on the past"
"How did you know that?"
"Rarity came by a while ago. She told me how bad you were and I couldn't forgive myself... I thought you wouldn't like to see me again"
A part of Pinkie felt kind of happy, her friend cares about her just as much as she does, but it was still a hard situation for her "Twilight... I wanted to tell you..." before she notice she was about to tell Twilight her true feelings, the words came out her mouth all of the sudden. She stopped once she acknowledge what she was about to do and wondered "Wait, is it really what you want to do? What she would want?... What if she says no?... Too much risk!"
"Yes, Pinkie?"
"That... I'll make it up to you. I don't know how yet, but I will" and she smiled. She decided not to confess to her.
"You don't have to"
"But I want to. Don't worry, I wont miss this time. I gotta go" Pinkie Pie didn't want to be there. So many things were on her head and she needed time to settle things. Although she loved the lovely eyes of Twilight, she felt ashamed.
"Do you really have to go?" Twilight wanted to spent a little more time with her.
"Sorry, Twi" Strange enough she didn't say anything else. She left the room in a rather fast pace. Leaving Twilight alone there.
Pinkie left the house without looking back. Her head hurt, her eyes hurt and now her heart hurt. She needed to clear her head out, but she didn't know how. She just kept galloping forward.
Later that night Spike came back to the library and found Twilight laying on the couch in the living room "Hey Twi, are you okay?"
Twilight looked back at Spike and smiled to cover her thoughts "Yes, I'm just... what do you got there?" Spike was holding a white saddle bag with blue balloons on the sides, clearly Pinkie's bag.
"Oh, I found it next to the waaah!" Spike tripped with some books that were laying on the floor and dropped the bag. A black doll came out of it and fell near Twilight.
Twilight used her magic to bring it closer to her to examine it "It's an Ursa minor doll... kind of cute" She found a gift tag on it's ear and it had something written on it, and she read it to her self "To: Twilight Sparkle From: Pinkie Pie. I know is not your Smarty Pants doll, but I wish this can make you feel better. Love, Pinkie Pie" A single tear rolled through her cheek and a small but really bright smile appeared on her face.
"Twilight, are you okay? What's that?" Spike seemed worried about his friend
"It's my new most dearest belonging"