... · 8:42am Apr 18th, 2015
we’ll it been a while fimfiction hasn’t it
I’ve only been on to see if I had any notifications and try and keep up a few sputtering conversations.
a lot has been going on since i’ve been gone
I’ve finally stopped to convince myself I’m not depressed
today I pushed down my fear and took my first pill, a vomited it back after about an hour
anyways, I know what you’re probably thinking. oh joy, another one. another suicidal person who comes and mopes about all their problems on the internet
yeah, I didn’t really want to share this, I thought why of all things would I post about that, when people don't actually care that much ( I mean like people will always try and help you on here, but I don’t really feel like any of them know me) and with how people can use it as a ploy to get follower’s.
so why am I posting this?
I’m leaving,and incase I don’t come back, I want to say goodbye with a little explanation. and since I wont be here I won’t feel bad for any follows I gain because of my problems.
“oh noooooooooooo don’t comit teh suicides!!!!!!!!111!!121!!!!!111!!!!!!11”
I probably won’t, at least not really anytime soon. thats not what I mean by leaving, I’m leaving the fandom. maybe I’ll be back maybe I won’t.
Why? Well I’m not sure I was ever in this fandom for the right reason. I never really liked the show that much. I joined mostly because the fandom was cool and they had all sorts of neet stuff going on.
and now as I leave I kinda have these fanprojects that I’m still attached to but they don’t mean as much to me anymore. If only I could get back what it felt like to read fallout equestria or listen to the “hardests thing” crying my eyes out because wow, that song is like, me all over.
but now, I can’t feel much of anything.
the show really helped me at a low point in my life, but now… now the voices just seem annoying and the characters stereotypical, and that kinda just drags down all the fanart as I think of what it could be, what it was. and the fandom just seems like it grew too big and collapsed on itself.
as for my stories, I kinda feel like they were always just the names of characters from the show being slapped onto my own characters, so I probably won’t be finishing many of them. maybe one of these days i’ll stop editing everlasting winter and publish it. and maybe I’ll do artemis and apollo or that submachine crossover due to my immense love of submachine and mythology. but this is probably my last blogpost, and I probably won’t go through my feed, or even send pm’s. I’ll probably only get on once every couple of months, to just check for pms
so thats it. I’ll probably be on for one or two days to reply to comments if there are any. you can probably get to me at my email (terein337@gmail.com) faster. but i guess this…
this is goodbye
haha wow im still flippin cheesy