Take my poem. · 5:39pm
Take my poem and enjoy it.
There is a monster inside of me.
It wants to be free.
It wants to roam the outside of me.
It wants to murder me.
It wants my sadness to rule.
It wants my happiness to be gone.
I can feel it, squeezing me in it's deadly grasp.
Working it's claws down my very soul.
I try to keep the demon down.
But he constantly wants to rise.
That demon, you see, is me.
There are two parts of me, one that is good, the other bad.
The good side is the one i show to everyone.
Flashing it around as I love to see others happy.
I keep him out at all times.
The other side of me I keep down inside.
He wants me to inflict pain.
He wants me to bleed.
Within the past year, he has begun to rise.
His bubbling hatred flowing into mine.
As hard as I try to keep him down.
He finds a way to slip past my defenses.
I try to be happy.
He destroys it.
I fool myself into thinking I am truly happy.
He destroys it.
I think I almost find true happiness?
He destroys it.
I can only hope this darkness resides some day.
I hope a ray of light will someday come.
I want that ray to kill the darkness.
I want the darkness to feel what I want to feel.
That ray, you see.
What I have discovered · 4:46pm
The star system does not mean anything at all.
If I am able to touch one person with my story, my writing is all worth while.
So kids, rate it at whatever you want.
If you give it a low score, I will see it as a high score.
As I know I have still touched someones heart.
And also, a link!
Loneliness · 4:29am
Sometimes it feels like the world is out to hurt me.
Why are others allowed happiness, while I am left with sadness?
It seems like there is no one out there for me, no one for me to give my love.
I just sit at home, wondering why I am cursed as I am.
I am too shy to talk to girls, yet I used to be able to.
Now whenever I see women, I see monsters who are out to destroy my heart.
As that is the only thing that has been happening to me.
I have put my heart on the line for so many people.
And it get returns on a silver platter, crushed into dust.
There is a terrible emptyness that is growing within my heart.
A feeling I wish I could fill.
I try to fill it in with other things, but the hole only get's bigger.
I wish someone could understand my cry for help.
I wish someone would understand that I want to love.
The world is out to destroy me.
And, much to my dismay.
I fear it may be working.
Livestream · 1:57am
Well, today a pony will read my fanficton live on a livestream.
I would love if you ponies would join me!
I don't know which fanfictions he will be reading 1st, but I would love to see you there anyway!
It will air at 8pm central time.
Fan poem · 11:05pm
Check out what a pony wrote about my fanfic!
Waking up in a new world.
Everything is looking normal, except it is not.
The feeling is off, something in the air.
A door knock and cheeks feeling hot.
Yellow of skin, pink of hair.
Bright world I see.
With a friend by my side.
Flap of wings, she looks so free.
Colorfull in person with a smile so wide.
Heart pounds for sparkling and shy.
Cheeks turning red.
Avoid their pain, have to lie.
Hugging, tears I shed.
Keep the fan stuff rolling in!
Chapter 13 · 10:19pm
Chapter 12 · 8:13pm
Another one of my short chapters that I made short on purpose.
This chapter was to show the emotional side of lying, and how it will affect yourself, and the person you lied to. Or in my case, the pony.
And I am glad I got out of the house before Spike saw I made Twilight cry.
Chapter 11 · 7:16am
Oh chapter 11, you were fun to write.
I am introducing something new here.
If you are interested,after every chapter, I will be making a blog about it, so you can ask all your questions.
Now for this one-
I had a lot of fun writing it with my editor.
I just love the emotional trauma I am putting them through.