It hurts to look at her... Talking to her is torture but yet she feels no sadness...
I feel like she didn't love me, because I'm still trying to get over the fact that I lost her...

Anyways... I was kind of interested in this other chick before and idk... it's been 3 days since the break up but would it be wrong to just go for this other chick?

First of all, this weekend and today I've been taking medication to get rid of my acid reflexes, well today the medicine is just breaking down my god damn pancreas, hurts like a bitch.

Anyways, I skipped half the school day which the first half is just the classes I had with my ex... Didn't technically skip, I got called in and shit but yea...

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This isn't another blog showing my problems... I need to vent but this isn't the place...
Instead this blog is a promotion for a story. I told him I would promote it later since I already went over my limit of 2 blogs a day.
Nox Aeterna: It's not bad, nothing too special, but it was worth the time spent reading it.

All I wanted for my birthday... a simple thing... to spend time with the girl I loved....

But all I got was my heart broken... and told to never speak to her again...

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it's 8:30 in the morning on my birthday. I am sick, I feel like I'm going to puke.

I haven't talked to my girlfriend since Friday in anger that she lied to me and other stuff.

I have family over right now.

I basically dropped from the face of the earth this weekend and no one has seen or heard from me.

6 years ago marks my first suicide attempt.

10 years ago marks the first time I inflicted pain. (accident)

8 years ago marks when I purposely first hurt myself.

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Love is a parasite, a curse that we have been forsaken to take on for our entire lives.
It will bind you, it will break you, it will make you cry and eventually make you die.
Poison your soul, ruin your lives, force you to do things you wouldn't for another.

Love is controversial, some say they feel it, some say that feeling isn't love at all, but a mimic.

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All around me, I see two things: Happy people and fake smiles.
Sometimes I wonder, which is the fake and which is the truth?
You give me your emotions and either way I will find a way to make it funny, make you laugh.
I'll be a funny dick and you'll see my smile, you'll think I'm happy, you'll think I don't care.
I've cared for far too long for far too many people, even my enemies have my sympathy.

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Here!
It isn't so great towards the end...

Anyways, my problems in real life are situated for the moment. I've decided to start writing again today because I have nothing to do right now.

I am working on the next chapter of Conscious, even if I get it done I won't be releasing the update until after those huge stories get out of the feature/popular. Lyre Tattoo, Monster, Regent, ect.

Anything you want to know? ask me as writer's block is common right now.

Some of my stories gained dislikes relatively the same day...
That's so mature...