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Nibrudly


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Tying up loose ends · 8:16pm Apr 2nd, 2013

No, I have not returned. I am merely doing some house keeping and doing what I came to do here in the first place.

Call it selfless promotion, but hey, we all do that sometime, right? You can read if you want to, you can spurn it if you don't. In either case, I finally finished my story. The description says it all, so I need not bother telling you here. Just visit my story tab. (I forgot how to do the dern links.)

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Comment posted by Biglulu deleted Apr 21st, 2015

We've finally started working on that story again, yes.:raritywink:
Thank you for the staying interest, and may the best of fortune be with you~

Dear Nibrudly:

It's been a while. That's kind of an understatement, but hey.

I've been thinking about you recently. Please excuse me if that sounds weird or anything. I just wanted to let you know that I haven't forgotten you. :pinkiehappy:

Since I know you probably won't respond to me — and that's okay, I'm not asking for one — then I figured I might as well tell you how I'm doing in life, if you're still interested in me.

I guess all in all, I'm actually doing... much better than I ever expected to be doing. I've seen a lot of good weather recently. Things have been turning around, and I feel... happy. Not from any one specific source or event or anything like that, but happy with life in general. I feel like I can do anything now. I feel like I can conquer the world! (Mwhahaha :scootangel:)

All kidding aside, I really am doing quite well. But it has nothing to do with my environment or any changes with my living conditions or anything like that. It's because I changed my attitude, and I see the world in a different light now.

See, before I was always completely bogged down with fear and apprehension whenever I did anything at all. With my writing, I was so afraid of people not liking it or thinking I was an idiot or stupid or something like that. I was so completely terrified of failure. Therefore, I did everything I could to make sure it was absolutely perfect. Perfection is unattainable though, and so I always got stuck and gave up within the first chapter or two on any project I attempted to undertake.

I don't remember if I told you about this one, but I had a similar problem with people. Even though I love people and think everyone is beautiful in their own way, I could never approach them. I was terrified of talking to anyone except the people I knew relatively well. I guess you could say that was because I didn't know if they actually wanted to talk. What if they just wanted to relax after a stressful day, or think about something, or just didn't want to spend the effort needed to talk to someone?

It sounds totally stupid, but there it is. :derpytongue2:

But... I'm overcoming that fear now. It's a slow process, and I'm still working on it, but I somehow learned to just... let go of it and not let it bother me. It's still there as strong as it always was, but now I just push it aside and tell it to shut up.

And you wouldn't believe how drastically that changed my life. I'm writing again. And drawing. I'm doing the things I love again, and I can't get enough of them. It makes me wonder why I even stopped at all.

This time, however, I'm not doing these things for an audience. I really don't care whether some reader likes or dislikes my writing. I'm writing the stories I want to read and the ones I would enjoy. And if someone else likes the same stories I like, then that's a nice bonus. If not, it really doesn't matter. I have nothing to lose. Because at the end of the day, I enjoyed writing and reading them.

Of course that doesn't give me an excuse to lax in quality. I enjoy things that are exceptionally well done. :raritywink:

And as for people: perhaps I will slightly inconvenience them by talking to them. But if I can make them feel better about their day or whatever problems they might have, then I think it's completely worth it.

Speaking of making people feel good, I'm putting my newfound confidence and vigor to good use. I am applying to one of the most prestigious culinary schools in the world in order to become one of the best chef ever. To be able to give a person pleasure and happiness by the simple act of consuming food: that, to me, is magical. I want to be able to create this magic. I want to be able to turn something as necessary and mundane as eating food into something enjoyable and invigorating to the senses

This would just be a small and simple way to make people happy, but I think it would be completely worthwhile nonetheless.

And I definitely, never ever, won't let this new attitude of mine slip away. Sometimes it feels like it might, but I won't let it. I won't go back to being afraid; I will do something worthwhile with my life.

Anyways, that's the current situation on me. Seems kind of awkward putting all this in public, but I know you don't read your PMs, so this is the best place I could put it.

I wish I could ask you what's going on in your life. I'd like to know how you've been doing since we last spoke. But of course, it's your choice and I won't be the least bit offended if you decide not to communicate.

Until next time! :twilightsmile:

Your friend,
Lulu

Oops.:facehoof:
I responded to the PM out of habit.:twilightsheepish:
Thank you.:pinkiehappy:

743947 :flutterrage: GAAAAH!! Will I ever be able to creep in peace?!

*ahem* Do pardon me.

To my knowledge there are two ways to get your fic in a group folder:

1. Ya go to the story page, hit the 'groups" button (located towards the bottom of the story profile), look at the list, check the boxes and BOOM! It's put there. (Which I have taken the liberty of doing since you have waited oh so patiently. My apologies)

2. Turns out they hide the "add story" button in the actual folder. So you just click on the folder, open it up and in the top left corner you'll see the button.

Now that that is taken care of, I go back to my regularly scheduled ghosting. POOF! :moustache:

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