I have so little self respect left and the jerks are going to suck it right out of me. Isn't that rich? To add insult to injury they always push you so far you'll wound yourself. Plus, Nobody ever stays committed, they just keep something up and forget about it after a week. It's also fantastic how they berate you when you are already down in the dumps. Ah yes, people.

I am so fucking mad right now.

For 20 years now I've suffered the obstacle course known as living. I may be better off not existing.

I got mad at myself today and I debated killing myself. One Day I'll actually do it.

Having issues with phone. Pop up that says "Signature is incorrect." Keep showing up but I don't know what that means.

Monday: Upsetting
Tuesday: Regretting
Wednesday: Wanted to get jabbed
Thursday: Hoped to be stabbed
Today: Had epic Blowout with my family and now I'm going to beat myself up over it.

By the way my OC will be back. Get out while you still can.

I am literally a burden to everyone, No matter what I do. One way or another I will disappoint people. I'm at a Brunch right now, I'm the only one of my generation, They had to make an extra chair for me and not to mention I'm a loser. See, This is why I am Hoping for Death. I'm useless to my family and my bosses and you.

I have a new story idea based on a dream I had. Get this, Flash Sentry walks into the classroom at CHS to find an OC female as leader of a club where the members are her servants. Maybe one of you should write it for me because...

A) I don't normally write that stuff.

B) I suck at writing anyway.

C) Please

So what are you waiting for?

I don't know why I'm blogging this, I'm not even sure where to start.

Depression has been on and off for me the past week. Between writing this and watching Warped just minutes ago I felt just a smidge better. Damn my life is going everywhere.