My great aunt died today. I don't know why she passed, but it was time anyway. it always happens and it inspires grief and sadness, but with every bout of grief, there is a time of clarity and strength. This surging feeling of strength is what helps us do incredible things. To push past obstacles and restore broken bonds and connections is what we need to do when confronted by grief. I am confronted by grief and am restoring lost connections with loved ones.

I cried for the first time in a while today. I was reminded of my brothers. I have 3 brothers, and I love all of them dearly. The problem is that I'm out of contact with one and I miss him. He is in prison for six years, a long time. I looked up to him, and now I don't have him for the support that I need now. He was the one I grew up with. playing games, doing chores with, and crying on the shoulder of in hard times. I don't have that kind of bond with any others. I played my first video game

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I have been really depressed for the last few days, as I've said I moved to Minnesota, and I haven't seen my family in Oregon for months and this is my first Christmas and new year without them. I have just finished the story Blonde Moments and I think I'm not depressed anymore. It was so beautiful.

I'm stable and thinking. Of what? A LOT. I have loads of convoluted thoughts that might form a story at one point or another, yet weather that story will ever come to light will be decided at a different point in time.

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I'm thinking of posting some random crap on here every now and then. I may not actually do it though. Wait, aren't I already doing it now?
I MIGHT post a story on here sometime, but i have to wait until my self confidence is high enough and I'm stable.