I've decided to drop my story yet again back into "hiatus" because - let's face it - for me to actually progress on the next chapter, I need several things to all occur simultaneously.

1. I need to have the free time and access to my PC to work on it.
2. I need the will to actually do anything beyond lie on my bed and wish I had the courage to build my "exit hood."

Read More

Generally whenever I get paid, I use my money to help the people I know who need financial assistance.

This time around I bought myself a little treat! I have wanted to buy a mock up of the famous SCE panel from the Apollo CSMs to mount next to my work desk and I've actually purchased one!

Read More

If you want a project written?

WRITE A FORMAL FUCKING DOCUMENT FOR THAT PROJECT.

DO NOT:

• Use periodic comments spread over a fucking week inside a Slack chat room as your official documentation.
• Use a string of emails as your fucking documentation.
• Ignore questions that you get asked, or worse get ANGRY when you are asked questions ... WHEN YOU HAD INSISTED THAT THE DEVELOPER DO SO IF THEY HIT ROADBLOCKS.

Read More

I've found that since I've been taking phenibut with my quetiapine each night to fight my insomnia, that:

• My bruxism is not as bad;
• I don't seem to suffer quite as much from xerostomia quite as much;
• I actually get three hours or so of unbroken sleep at a time; and

Read More

The blog title is simply a quote from the Ministry song I happen to be listening to whilst I am on my lunch break from work. The song is - of course - "Just One Fix." Lest it be said my music playlist is not confusing, the next song on the list is Don Henley with "All She Wants To Do Is Dance." Listen to these gears crunch!

Read More

I am going to get off my arse and continue working on my story, come what may!

My other major accomplishments have really been getting my Will and assorted documents in order, and enjoy my new job. Getting away from being a support agent at Netflix and getting back into Software Engineering has meant numerous improvements:

• I can use a restroom during the day without getting into trouble.
• My rate of pay has risen 400%.

Read More

I have been so desperate now to get back to writing for such a long time but I just cannot seem to get myself to sit at my PC, in peace and quiet, with free time all to myself, and actually type anything. I keep mulling over the aspects of the story that I do have a lot of notes for. The next chapter is of course all planned out - I just need to sit my arse into my office chair, and actually construct something with those ideas, beyond just complaining about not being able to do so.

Read More

I'm still recalling the first days I actually joined this site. I think I had tried one or two usernames and decided instead on one that had originally come from an old shareware CD from back in 1995.

The CD had one game on it that we were all very curious about. I cannot remember the name of the game - only the description.

"It is a silly little game."

Read More

Despair, noun

The overwhelming desire to vomit, after you spend thirty minutes trying to write a meaningful blog post to help free your mind and get your thoughts down ... only to accidentally close the FIM Fiction tab and lose the whole lot before you post it.

See also: Control-eff-four syndrome.

The title is self-explanatory.

I have reached that point.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Compassion_fatigue