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Esalen


Spitfire is best pone, Rarity is worst, and no, I'm not changing my mind. Art by Magical-wings06 (Commissioned from: https://www.deviantart.com/magical-wings06/gallery)

Jan
3rd
2022

Way Too Good at Goodbyes · 5:45am Jan 3rd, 2022

I never know what to say, when it’s time to say goodbye.
Alright, I say, It was nice to see you.
Or maybe a Well then as I stand.
Sometimes I just smile and wave
And don’t say a thing
And watch as the headlights back down the driveway
Until they’re swallowed by the night.
I love you, or I’ll see you next week, right?
Okay, Tuesday then? A quiet hug?
All of these, and I still can never decide.
Adieu, Farewell, Auf Weidersein, Goodnight?
Or do I end with later, alligator,

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Jun
8th
2021

It's over. I'm out. · 1:34pm Jun 8th, 2021

Didn't think I would be making one of these, but here we are.

I can't do this any more.

I'm putting down the pen and walking away.

I'm leaving the creation/social side of the fandom. I admittedly was never super present for the creation side, but I have no real reason to remain.

The core of this is mostly mental health. I'm burnt out, I've made people upset, and sometimes I feel completely useless. I want that to end.

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Apr
26th
2021

Follow up time · 5:01am Apr 26th, 2021

So, here I am again, and you probably think that I have something to say.

You're right. Gold star.

As you may or may not know, I've been struggling with myself and trying to figure out my brain and how it works. One of the big topics that was on my mind, at least a couple months ago (less so recently, it'll all been chemistry) was polyamory and basically everything about it and how it related to me.

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Feb
7th
2021

Why I wrote Troubled Griffs · 5:47am Feb 7th, 2021

I did promise a blog about Troubled Griffs.

So, here goes.

Troubled Griffs was originally written for the basic contest I hosted in Quills and Sofas, with the prompt "Just breathe, we'll be okay". Even before the contest launched, I had a vision in my head that involved Gallus discovering that he was polyamorous and going to Trixie in order to cope with the feelings. They'd talk and Gallus would eventually come to terms with his sexuality.

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Dec
16th
2020

Poggers · 6:23pm Dec 16th, 2020

Meaningless blog here, just here to say y'all are poggers and to antagonize Brick by saying poggers.

Poggers, PogU, Pogchamp, Pog, and a healthy dose of dabbing.


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Dec
10th
2020

Youtube Channel · 7:12pm Dec 10th, 2020

Hey guys,

I sometimes do readings of stories from Quills and Sofas, so here's my youtube channel if you want to listen to those. Eventually I am going to branch out into other content.

Nov
29th
2020

Burnout · 3:00am Nov 29th, 2020

Anyone else just completely burned out on existing? It's not one specific thing, just y'know.

Everything.

Burnt out on video games since I have been grinding basically non-stop in Destiny 2 for the past two weeks.

Burnt out on school due to distance learning and difficult topics with little support because I can't bring myself to go to office hours because of pride, depression, and time conflicts.

Burnt out on interacting with my family due to the quarantine.

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Nov
16th
2020

Don't interact with this person. Seriously. · 2:20am Nov 16th, 2020

Hopefully this will just be another recap of something you all know. If not, well, you're about to know.

An on-site user, whom shall only be known as PinkieAnon is harassing and threatening other users both on and off-site. These threats include but are not limited to doxxing, death threats, and other triggering topics such as rape.

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Nov
10th
2020

New story that I'm announcing a day after release since I'm lazy · 6:15pm Nov 10th, 2020

Party Hard!

New story, and actually kinda proud of it. People thought it was good so I'm actually publishing something (shocker, I know).

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Oct
19th
2020

50 Questions Because Why Not · 3:39am Oct 19th, 2020

CW: Swearing for all you young'uns out there.

1. What is your real name?
Not going to share my real name, so just call me Cara.

2. Age?
18.

3. What country?
USA.

4. What do you look like?
Can't fool me, you'll never know.

5. What do you wish you looked like?
Honestly? Dysphoria gonna fuck with me no matter what way I look, but I wish my face was a bit different and my hairline was a bit farther forward.

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