The cobblestone path stretched before us as we trudged up the steep incline. Farm fields on either side of us stretched as far as the eye coud see. The Sun, high in the sky was warm against our flesh as the cold air hit against us.

"Not this dream!" I muttered under my breath as a knot formed in my throat. It did have to be this one... The vaccation town.

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*SCREAMS*

Now that that's out of my system... I wish I'd never left.... except for the fact 1. It wasn't safe. and 2... I was an emotional wreck. So being home and locked in my room wasn't helping anyone.

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Love it when you are typing a rant and it deletes itself...

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I'm going home!

I've only been living with my grandparents for 5 months... It's going to be good getting back home, though I know not easy. I've got 5 months of dust, dirt, grit, grime... and everything my mother could not get to trying to run a one-man three-ring circus without her lion tamer.

I couldn't be happier though. Dad is supposed to come get me here shortly. Then I'm going home.

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So today was one of those long days that I'm personally so glad is over. I got the news at about 10PM last night that they'd found something so Dad was going into surgery first thing in the morning...

Then first thing turned into 4PM

They took Dad back and... honestly I was a basket case... I did find a story and managed to console myself. But I was at the hospital with Dad from 9AM...

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He'll be going into Stent Surgury later this afternoon... it was worse than what the doctor originally thought.

I wish I had a better way to name some of these blog posts sometimes...

I guess I kinda just need to vent. This past year has been one daja vas moment after another. Moments... events from the year of tears are once more being slammed into my face one after another.

The year of tears were nine events back to back over a span of actually 5 years where it seemed every time we turned around something new had happen to knock our feet out from under us. And these were not little either.

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I was with him most of today. Then came home around four and just crashed and slept. so news is a might old.

Dad was admitted, and got to see the doc. Doc says it wasn't a full blown heart attack, praise God. But rather a mini warning one. He has had an heart attack before... and his behavior now and then were very similar. Same bad jokes... last time however if they had not done something he would have died.

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I woke up this morning to the phone ringing... Dad had a heart attack last night and is the hospital.

Not again... Not so soon after Jimmy! I...I can't keep doing this!

I always thought I'd understand,
How it'd feel to hold your hand,
To listen to your voice once more,
And let you teach as you had before,

But like the grass you've withered away,
A shadow of your former days,
A man of sorrows, grief, and pain,
But the sun once more has turned to rain.

In my heart I always knew
You'd eventually wither as all things do
Before my eyes, you've done just that,
And now a shell, where you once sat.

I was a sprout when your eyes first gleamed,

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For the first time in 3 months I FINALLY got to go home... be it only for 2 hours and 4 min...

My sister's birthday is this week, so my grandparents traditonally take us out for our birthdays. So, since they had to go up there anyway, I decided to stop in and clean my room. And test the waters with the neighbors.

1. They were home.

That objective was reached, and I didn't get yelled at, nor was I exactly quiet.

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