i dont actually know. things are weird. i have picked up a new hobby in painting miniatures. I have lost a lot and gained a lot and it does things. I am cancer free two years but also have nodules under surveillance to see if they grow meaning that its back.

I posted a new chapter in "living with cancer" as i had to write to deal with the anxiety and fear, i need to decide if i consider it complete or not though.

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Sorry it has been so long. Recovering and such, no brain mets but no answers. Some psych issues and cancer REALLY messes with you. As such trying to do a story about cancer to work through it was probably not that bright.

I really should update here but i dont seem to do anything including gaming anymore. Will try to update something or just cancel everything. Hard to explain but this is like a world separate from my real one.

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I get to spend Christmas dealing with hospital visits and doctors. Fun filled days...

New chapters may not get put up. I am trying to keep these blog posts to show i am not flaking.

Computer is still down and got bad news from doctor about possible brain mets aka spread of cancer to brain, because simple symptoms. It could be a dozen other things but currently i am freaking out and it gets worse when i try to write. Just scheduling the f*yay*ing mri is a mess bc the closer clinic lost the bloody paperwork. *end mini rant*

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I tried but there will be no updates this week. Between computer and internet issues, dr appt and trip to LA that took three full days, visiting family in hospital, side effect last week where i could not use my left hand. It has been fun. Barely made it back home with that fire in LA on the route i needed. And got another tube removed after 15 months.

I did not forget and new stuff will be up thursday with a minimum of two story updates that week, the other being friday or saturday.

So. This is a preview/hint of an upcoming one- shot. SteadyGait commissioned/requested a story, we are just waiting on the cover art. You should also thank him for getting me back to writing. He can be found Here on deviantart and Here on fimfic so make sure to check out his work and thank him =3

Potential spoilers follow.

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check out the first chapter of my new story here

Decided to upload it early. Hope ya'll enjoy.

For this of you who don't know this is based on my own battle with cancer but with my actual OC.

After many months of hell I am currently cancer free. Sadly that isn't the end of it. Due to the type of cancer and that it was already stage iv there is a 20% to 50% chance of it coming back. That and I have killer side effects, one of which makes it hurt like hell to touch anything with my hands or feet. The last of the tubes come out soon. Sadly treatment makes everything become scary, even routine things.

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chemo sucks, have some stuff done but not uploading, not sure when i can work on again. Not doing anything outside of a different blog someone is helping me with. for that, follow link https://cancer9500.wordpress.com/

now back to collapse

Soooo.............

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