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Azuredart


I try to write things... and usually fail horribly. Maybe I'll finally make something good enough to put up here.

The ramblings of a fool.

I remember writing when I was younger. My fingers would fly across the keys weaving words of pure gold. I felt such confidence in every piece of the world I was creating, it was beautiful. When people read my work they would smile and ask how someone that was only 15 years of age could make such an amazing story with such vivid scenes and lovable characters.

Now, only six years later everything has changed. I feel less like a poet and more like a murderer of the written word. What was once a fluid flow across a keyboard now feels like I'm swinging a hammer at the keys and desecrating the results. I cringe at the words I weave and fear that if anyone were to see the horrors I create they will laugh and tell me to quit.

In truth I envy my younger self, how confident he was, how he didn't fear failure. He would laugh at those that would tell him to quit. He would weave golden stories until he was satisfied. Now he cringes when trying to speak. He hides in the shadowed corners, hoping no one will find him, yet wishing someone would. Fearing companionship, but craving it all the same. Wishing for encouragement, but afraid to hear the words.

However there is one thing this fool has kept from his childhood. I'm stubborn and if I believe I can do something, I never quit. I never falter... at least as long as I have something to fight for, something to believe in.

I will write my stories, and hopefully I'll gain the courage to post them, I'm sure the content will be a bit... rough at first, but who knows? Maybe I'll find the golden stories I lost so long ago. Maybe I can find a piece of my younger self.

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OH MY GOSH THAT'S SO FRICKING CUTE

1832770 Does that mean you are surprised, or that you are an orc and about to attack me?

WAAAAAUUUUUGH!!!

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Don't know where I am going · 8:56pm Mar 2nd, 2015

So I just survived the worst week of my life. Put under investigation at work, my phone apparently died, my girlfriend broke up with me, friends and family dying every other day. I am tired, and more than a little depressed. So to feel better, I started buying gifts for my friends. It's strange, but getting a thank you and a smile is often just the thing to cheer me up. However, while I do feel better there is still fear in my mind, and anger in my heart. I've tried to live with my head down

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A Journey

I've decided to set some goals for myself to mark my progress.


1 Follower
10 Followers
50 Followers
100 Followers
500 Followers?
1000 Followers (I can dream.)
Start 1 Story
Finish 1 Story
Finish 10 Stories
Get Complimented (I'm nervous)
Get Criticized (easy)
Get Featured
Get Mini-Featured


Non Story Related Goals:
Be followed by someone I am following
Get a voice acting gig (someday)
Get a job (Much more difficult than I thought) I sell shoes, and shoe accessories.
Get over my crippling fear/hatred of other people (only face-to-face, you guys are cool)
Stop complaining and think positive (don't think this one is happening)

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